尤利西斯-第200章

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kens　they　call　it　was　going　to　burst　though　his　nose　is　not　so　big　after　I　took　off　all　my　things　with　the　blinds　down　after　my　hours　dressing　and　perfuming　and　bing　it　like　iron　or　some　kind　of　a　thick　crowbar　standing　all　the　time　he　must　have　eaten　oysters　I　think　a　few　dozen　he　was　in　great　singing　voice　no　I　never　in　all　my　life　felt　anyone　had　one　the　size　of　that　to　make　you　feel　full　up　he　must　have　eaten　a　whole　sheep　after　whats　the　idea　making　us　like　that　with　a　big　hole　in　the　middle　of　us　like　a　Stallion　driving　it　up　into　you　because　thats　all　they　want　out　of　you　with　that　determined　vicious　look　in　his　eye　I　had　to　halfshut　my　eyes　still　he　hasnt　such　a　tremendous　amount　of　spunk　in　him　when　I　made　him　pull　it　out　and　do　it　on　me　considering　how　big　it　is　so　much　the　better　in　case　any　of　it　wasnt　washed　out　properly　the　last　time　I　let　him　finish　it　in　me　nice　invention　they　made　for　women　for　him　to　get　all　the　pleasure　but　if　someone　gave　them　a　touch　of　it　themselves　theyd　know　what　I　went　through　with　Milly　nobody　would　believe　cutting　her　teeth　too　and　Mina　Purefoys　husband　give　us　a　swing　out　of　your　whiskers　filling　her　up　with　a　child　or　twins　once　a　year　as　regular　as　the　clock　always　with　a　smell　of　children　off　her　the　one　they　called　budgers　or　something　like　a　nigger　with　a　shock　of　hair　on　it　Jesusjack　the　child　is　a　black　the　last　time　I　was　there　a　squad　of　them　falling　over　one　another　and　bawling　you　couldnt　hear　your　ear　supposed　to　be　healthy　not　satisfied　till　they　have　us　swollen　out　like　elephants　or　I　dont　know　what　supposing　I　risked　having　another　not　off　him　though　still　if　he　was　married　I　m　sure　hed　have　a　fine　strong　child　but　I　dont　know　Poldy　has　more　spunk　in　him　yes　thatd　be　awfully　jolly　I　suppose　it　was　meeting　Josie　Powell　and　the　funeral　and　thinking　about　me　and　Boylan　set　him　off　well　he　can　think　what　he　likes　now　if　thatll　do　him　any　good　I　know　they　were　spooning　a　bit　when　I　came　on　the　scene　he　was　dancing　and　sitting　out　with　her　the　night　of　Georgina　Simpsons　housewarming　and　then　he　wanted　to　ram　it　down　my　neck　on　account　of　not　liking　to　see　her　a　wallflower　that　was　why　we　had　the　standup　row　over　politics　he　began　it　not　me　when　he　said　about　Our　Lord　being　a　carpenter　at　last　he　made　me　cry　of　course　a　woman　is　so　sensitive　about　everything　I　was　fuming　with　myself　after　for　giving　in　only　for　I　knew　he　was　gone　on　me　and　the　first　socialist　he　said　He　was　he　annoyed　me　so　much　I　couldnt　put　him　into　a　temper　still　he　knows　a　lot　of　mixed　up　things　especially　about　the　body　and　the　insides　I　often　wanted　to　study　up　that　myself　what　we　have　inside　us　in　that　family　physician　I　could　always　hear　his　voice　talking　when　the　room　was　crowded　and　watch　him　after　that　I　pretended　I　had　on　a　coolness　with　her　over　him　because　he　used　to　be　a　bit　on　the　jealous　side　whenever　he　asked　who　are　you　going　to　and　I　aid　over　to　Floey　and　he　made　me　the　present　of　lord　Byrons　poems　and　the　three　pairs　of　gloves　so　that　finished　that　I　could　quite　easily　get　him　to　make　it　up　any　time　I　know　how　Id　even　supposing　he　got　in　with　her　again　and　was　going　out　to　see　her　somewhere　Id　know　if　he　refused　to　eat　the　onions　I　know　plenty　of　ways　ask　him　to　tuck　down　the　collar　of　my　blouse　or　touch　him　with　my　veil　and　gloves　on　going　out　1　kiss　then　would　send　them　all　spinning　however　alright　well　seen　then　let　him　go　to　her　she　of　course　would　only　be　too　delighted　to　pretend　shes　mad　in　love　with　him　that　I　wouldnt　so　much　mind　Id　just　go　to　her　and　ask　her　do　you　love　him　and　look　her　square　in　the　eyes　she　couldnt　fool　me　but　he　might　imagine　he　was　and　make　a　declaration　with　his　plabbery　kind　of　a　manner　to　her　like　he　did　to　me　though　I　had　the　devils　own　job　to　get　it　out　of　him　though　I　liked　him　for　that　it　showed　he　could　hold　in　and　wasnt　to　be　got　for　the　asking　he　was　on　the　pop　of　asking　me　too　the　night　in　the　kitchen　I　was　rolling　the　potato　cake　theres　something　I　want　to　say　to　you　only　for　I　put　him　off　letting　on　I　was　in　a　temper　with　my　hands　and　arms　full　of　pasty　flour　in　any　case　I　let　out　too　much　the　night　before　talking　of　dreams　so　I　didnt　want　to　let　him　know　more　than　was　good　for　him　she　used　to　be　always　embracing　me　Josie　whenever　he　was　there　meaning　him　of　course　glauming　me　over　and　when　I　said　I　washed　up　and　down　as　far　as　possible　asking　me　did　you　wash　possible　the　women　are　always　egging　on　to　that　putting　it　on　thick　when　hes　there　they　know　by　his　sly　eye　blinking　a　bit　putting　on　the　indifferent　when　they　e　out　with　something　the　kind　he　is　what　spoils　him　I　dont　wonder　in　the　least　because　he　was　very　handsome　at　that　time　trying　to　look　like　lord　Byron　I　said　I　liked　though　he　was　too　beautiful　for　a　man　and　he　was　a　little　before　we　got　engaged　afterwards　though　she　didnt　like　it　so　much　the　day　I　was　in　fits　of　laughing　with　the　giggles　I　couldnt　stop　about　all　my　hairpins　falling　one　after　another　with　the　mass　of　hair　I　had　youre　always　in　great　humour　she　said　yes　because　it　grigged　her　because　she　knew　what　it　meant　because　I　used　to　tell　her　a　good　bit　of　what　went　on　between　us　not　all　but　just　enough　to　make　her　mouth　water　but　that　wasnt　my　fault　she　didnt　darken　the　door　much　after　we　were　married　I　wonder　what　shes　got　like　now　after　living　with　that　dotty　husband　of　hers　she　had　her　face　beginning　to　look　drawn　and　run　down　the　last　time　I　saw　her　she　must　have　been　just　after　a　row　with　him　because　I　saw　on　the　moment　she　was　edging　to　draw　down　a　conversation　about　husbands　and　talk　about　him　to　run　him　down　what　was　it　she　told　me　O　yes　that　sometimes　he　used　to　go　to　bed　with　his　muddy　boots　on　when　the　maggot　takes　him　just　imagine　having　to　get　into　bed　with　a　thing　like　that　that　might　murder　you　any　moment　what　a　man　well　its　not　the　one　way　everyone　goes　mad　Poldy　anyway　whatever　he　does　always　wipes　his　feet　on　the　mat　when　he　es　in　wet　or　shine　and　always　blacks　his　own　boots　too　and　he　always　takes　off　his　hat　when　he　es　up　in　the　street　like　that　and　now　hes　going　about　in　his　slippers　to　look　for　#10000　for　a　postcard　up　up　O　Sweetheart　May　wouldnt　a　thing　like　that　simply　bore　you　stiff　to　extinction　actually　too　stupid　even　to　take　his　boots　off　now　what　could　you　make　of　a　man　like　that　Id　rather　die　20　times　over　than　marry　another　of　their　sex　of　course　hed　never　find　another　woman　like　me　to　put　up　with　him　the　way　I　do　know　me　e　sleep　with　me　yes　and　he　knows　that　too　at　the　bottom　of　his　heart　take　that　Mrs　Maybrick　that　poisoned　her　husband　for　what　I　wonder　in　love　with　some　other　man　yet　it　was　found　out　on　her　wasnt　she　the　downright　villain　to　go　and　do　a　thing　like　that　of　course　some　men　can　be　dreadfully　aggravating　drive　you　mad　and　always　the　worst　word　in　the　world　what　do　they　ask　us　to　marry　them　for　if　were　so　bad　as　all　that　es　to　yes　because　they　cant　get　on　without　us　white　Arsenic　she　put　in　his　tea　off　flypaper　wasnt　it　I　wonder　why　they　call　it　that　if　I　asked　him　hed　say　its　from　the　Greek　leave　us　as　wise　as　we　were　before　she　must　have　been　madly　in　love　with　the　other　fellow　to　run　the　chance　of　being　hanged　O　she　didnt　care　if　that　was　her　nature　what　could　she　do　besides　theyre　not　brutes　enough　to　go　and　hang　a　woman　surely　are　they　
theyre　all　so　different　Boylan　talking　about　the　shape　of　my　foot　he　noticed　at　once　even　before　he　was　introduced　when　I　was　in　the　D　B　C　with　Poldy　laughing　and　trying　to　listen　I　was　waggling　my　foot　we　both　ordered　2　teas　and　plain　bread　and　butter　I　saw　him　looking　with　his　two　old　maids　of　sisters　when　I　stood　up　and　asked　the　girl　where　it　was　what　do　I　care　with　it　dropping　out　of　me　and　that　black　closed　breeches　he　made　me　buy　takes　you　half　an　hour　to　let　them　down　wetting　all　myself　always　with　some　brandnew　fad　every　other　week　such　a　long　one　I　did　I　forgot　my　suede　gloves　on　the　seat　behind　that　I　never　got　after　some　robber　of　a　woman　and　he　wanted　me　to　put　it　in　the　Irish　Times　lost　in　the　ladies　lavatory　D　B　C　Dame　street　finder　return　to　Mrs　Marion　Bloom　and　I　saw　his　eyes　on　my　feet　going　out　through　the　turning　door　he　was　looking　when　I　looked　back　and　I　went　there　for　tea　2　days　after　in　the　hope　but　he　wasnt　now　how　did　that