the poor clare-第5章
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ed to live in the family of the Byrnes。 Now； the chief of this latter family was serving in the Duke of Berwick's regiment； and it was long before I could hear from him； it was more than a year before I got a short； haughty letterI fancy he had a soldier's contempt for a civilian； an Irishman's hatred for an Englishman； an exiled Jacobite's jealousy of one who prospered and lived tranquilly under the government he looked upon as an usurpation。 〃Bridget Fitzgerald；〃 he said； 〃had been faithful to the fortunes of his sisterhad followed her abroad； and to England when Mrs。 Starkey had thought fit to return。 Both his sister and her husband were dead； he knew nothing of Bridget Fitzgerald at the present time： probably Sir Philip Tempest； his nephew's guardian； might be able to give me some information。〃 I have not given the little contemptuous terms； the way in which faithful service was meant to imply more than it said all that has nothing to do with my story。 Sir Philip； when applied to； told me that he paid an annuity regularly to an old woman named Fitzgerald； living at Coldholme （the village near Starkey Manor… house）。 Whether she had any descendants he could not say。
One bleak March evening； I came in sight of the places described at the beginning of my story。 I could hardly understand the rude dialect in which the direction to old Bridget's house was given。
〃Yo' see yon furleets；〃 all run together； gave me no idea that I was to guide myself by the distant lights that shone in the windows of the Hall； occupied for the time by a farmer who held the post of steward； while the Squire； now four or five and twenty； was making the grand tour。 However； at last； I reached Bridget's cottagea low； moss…grown place： the palings that had once surrounded it were broken and gone； and the underwood of the forest came up to the walls； and must have darkened the windows。 It was about seven o'clocknot late to my London notionsbut； after knocking for some time at the door and receiving no reply； I was driven to conjecture that the occupant of the house was gone to bed。 So I betook myself to the nearest church I had seen； three miles back on the road I had come； sure that close to that I should find an inn of some kind； and early the next morning I set off back to Coldholme； by a field…path which my host assured me I should find a shorter cut than the road I had taken the night before。 It was a cold； sharp morning； my feet left prints in the sprinkling of hoar…frost that covered the ground； nevertheless； I saw an old woman； whom I instinctively suspected to be the object of my search； in a sheltered covert on one side of my path。 I lingered and watched her。 She must have been considerably above the middle size in her prime； for when she raised herself from the stooping position in which I first saw her； there was something fine and commanding in the erectness of her figure。 She drooped again in a minute or two； and seemed looking for something on the ground； as； with bent head； she turned off from the spot where I
gazed upon her； and was lost to my sight。 I fancy I missed my way； and made a round in spite of the landlord's directions； for by the time I had reached Bridget's cottage she was there； with no semblance of hurried walk or discomposure of any kind。 The door was slightly ajar。 I knocked； and the majestic figure stood before me； silently awaiting the explanation of my errand。 Her teeth were all gone； so the nose and chin were brought near together； the gray eyebrows were straight； and almost hung over her deep； cavernous eyes； and the thick white hair lay in silvery masses over the low； wide； wrinkled forehead。 For a moment； I stood uncertain how to shape my answer to the solemn questioning of her silence。
〃Your name is Bridget Fitzgerald； I believe？〃
She bowed her head in assent。
〃I have something to say to you。 May I come in？ I am unwilling to keep you standing。〃
〃You cannot tire me；〃 she said； and at first she seemed inclined to deny me the shelter of her roof。 But the next momentshe had searched the very soul in me with her eyes during that instantshe led me in； and dropped the shadowing hood of her gray； draping cloak； which had previously hid part of the character of her countenance。 The cottage was rude and bare enough。 But before the picture of the Virgin； of which I have made mention； there stood a little cup filled with fresh primroses。 While she paid her reverence to the Madonna； I understood why she had been out seeking through the clumps of green in the sheltered copse。 Then she turned round； and bade me be seated。 The expression of her face； which all this time I was studying； was not bad； as the stories of my last night's landlord had led me to expect； it was a wild； stern； fierce； indomitable countenance； seamed and scarred by agonies of solitary weeping； but it was neither cunning nor malignant。
〃My name is Bridget Fitzgerald；〃 said she； by way of opening our conversation。
〃And your husband was Hugh Fitzgerald； of Knock Mahon； near Kildoon； in Ireland？〃
A faint light came into the dark gloom of her eyes。
〃He was。〃
〃May I ask if you had any children by him？〃
The light in her eyes grew quick and red。 She tried to speak； I could see； but something rose in her throat； and choked her； and until she could speak calmly； she would fain not speak at all before a stranger。 In a minute or so she said〃I had a daughterone Mary Fitzgerald；〃then her strong nature mastered her strong will； and she cried out； with a trembling wailing cry： 〃Oh； man！ what of her？… …what of her？〃
She rose from her seat； and came and clutched at my arm； and looked in my eyes。 There she read； as I suppose； my utter ignorance of what had become of her child； for she went blindly back to her chair； and sat rocking herself and softly moaning； as if I were not there； I not daring to speak to the lone and awful woman。 After a little pause； she knelt down before the picture of Our Lady of the Holy Heart； and spoke to her by all the fanciful and poetic names of the Litany。
〃O Rose of Sharon！ O Tower of David！ O Star of the Sea！ have ye no comfort for my sore heart？ Am I for ever to hope？ Grant me at least despair！〃and so on she went； heedless of my presence。 Her prayers grew wilder and wilder； till they seemed to me to touch on the borders of madness and blasphemy。 Almost involuntarily； I spoke as if to stop her。
〃Have you any reason to think that your daughter is dead？
She rose from her knees； and came and stood before me。
〃Mary Fitzgerald is dead；〃 said she。 〃I shall never see her again in the flesh。 No tongue ever told me； but I know she is dead。 I have yearned so to see her； and my heart's will is fearful and strong： it would have drawn her to me before now； if she had been a wanderer on the other side of the world。 I wonder often it has not drawn her out of the grave to come and stand before me； and hear me tell her how I loved her。 For； sir； we parted unfriends。〃
I knew nothing but the dry particulars needed for my lawyer's quest； but I could not help feeling for the desolate woman； and she must have read the unusual sympathy with her wistful eyes。
〃Yes； sir； we did。 She never knew how I loved her； and we parted unfriends； and I fear me that I wished her voyage might not turn out well； only meaning；O； blessed Virgin！ you know I only meant that she should come home to her mother's arms as to the happiest place on earth； but my wishes are terribletheir power goes beyond my thoughtand there is no hope for me； if my words brought Mary harm。〃
〃But；〃 I said； 〃you do not know that she is dead。 Even now； you hoped she might be alive。 Listen to me；〃 and I told her the tale I have already told you； giving it all in the driest manner； for I wanted to recall the clear sense that I felt almost sure she had possessed in her younger days； and by keeping up her attention to details； restrain the vague wildness of her grief。
She listened with deep attention； putting from time to time such questions as convinced me I had to do with no common intelligence； however dimmed and shorn by solitude and mysterious sorrow。 Then she took up her tale； and in few brief words； told me
