east lynne-第131章
按键盘上方向键 ← 或 → 可快速上下翻页,按键盘上的 Enter 键可回到本书目录页,按键盘上方向键 ↑ 可回到本页顶部!
————未阅读完?加入书签已便下次继续阅读!
has been wanting me;〃 she observed。 〃Whyoh!〃
It was a sharp; momentary cry; subdued as soon as uttered。 Madame Vine sprang forward to Joyce's side; looking also。 The pale young face lay calm in its utter stillness; the busy little heart had ceased to beat。 Jesus Christ had indeed come and taken the fleeting spirit。
Then she lost all self…control。 She believed that she had reconciled herself to the child's death; that she could part with him without too great emotion。 But she had not anticipated it would be quite so soon; she had deemed that some hours more would at least be given him; and now the storm overwhelmed her。 Crying; sobbing; calling; she flung herself upon him; she clasped him to her; she dashed off her disguising glasses; she laid her face upon his; beseeching him to come back to her; that she might say farewellto her; his mother; her darling child; her lost William!
Joyce was terrifiedterrified for consequences。 With her full strength she pulled her from the boy; praying her to considerto be still。 〃Do not; do not; for the love of Heaven! /My lady! My lady!/〃
It was the old familiar title that struck upon her fears and induced calmness。 She stared at Joyce; and retreated backward; after the manner of one receding from some hideous vision。 Then; as recollection came to her; she snatched her glasses up and hurried them on。
〃My lady; let me take you into your room。 Mr。 Carlyle is come; he is just bringing up his wife。 Only think if you should give way before him! Pray come away!〃
〃How did you know me?〃 she asked in a hollow voice。
〃My lady; it was that night when there was an alarm of fire。 I went close up to you to take Master Archibald from your arms; and; as sure as I am now standing here; I believe that for the moment my senses left me。 I thought I saw a spectrethe spectre of my dead lady。 I forgot the present; I forgot that all were standing round me; that you; Madame Vine; were alive before me。 Your face was not disguised then; the moonlight shone full upon it; and I knew it; after the first few moments of terror; to be; in dreadful truth; the /living/ one of Lady Isabel。 My lady; come away! We shall have Mr。 Carlyle here。〃
Poor thing! She sank upon her knees; in her humility; her dread。 〃Oh; Joyce; have pity upon me! don't betray me! I will leave the house; indeed I will。 Don't betray me while I am in it!〃
〃My lady; you have nothing to fear from me。 I have kept the secret buried within my breast since then。 Last April! It has nearly been too much for me。 By night and by day I have had no peace; dreading what might come out。 Think of the awful confusion; the consequences; should it come to the knowledge of Mr。 and Mrs。 Carlyle。 Indeed; my lady; you never ought to have come。〃
〃Joyce;〃 she said; hollowly; lifting her haggard face; 〃I could not keep away from my unhappy children。 Is it no punishment to /me/; think you; the being here?〃 she added; vehemently。 〃To see himmy husband the husband of another! It is killing me。〃
〃Oh; my lady; come away! I hear him; I hear him!〃
Partly coaxing; partly dragging her; Joyce took her into her own room; and left her there。 Mr。 Carlyle was at that moment at the door of the sick one。 Joyce sprang forward。 Her face; in her emotion and fear; was of one livid whiteness; and she shook as William had shaken; poor child; in the afternoon。 It was only too apparent in the well…lighted corridor。
〃Joyce;〃 he exclaimed; in amazement; 〃what ails you?〃
〃Sir! master!〃 she panted; 〃be prepared。 Master WilliamMaster William〃
〃Joyce! Not /dead/!〃
〃Alas; yes; sir!〃
Mr。 Carlyle strode into the chamber。 But ere he was well across it; he turned back to slip the bolt of the door。 On the pillow lay the white; thin face; at rest now。
〃My boy! my boy! Oh; my God!〃 he murmured; in bowed reverence; 〃mayest Thou have received this child to rest in Jesus; even as; I trust; Thou hadst already received his unhappy mother!〃
CHAPTER XLIV。
LORD VANE DATING FORWARD。
To the burial of William Carlyle came Lord Mount Severn and his son。 Wilson had been right in her surmises as to the resting…place。 The Carlyle vault was opened for him; and an order went forth to the sculptor for an inscription to be added to their marble tablet in the church: 〃William Vane Carlyle; eldest son of Archibald Carlyle; of East Lynne。〃 Amongst those who attended the funeral as mourners went one more notable in the eyes of the gazers than the restRichard Hare the younger。
Lady Isabel was ill。 Ill in mind; and ominously ill in body。 She kept her room; and Joyce attended on her。 The household set down madame's illness to the fatigue of having attended upon Master William; it was not thought of seriously by any one; especially as she declined to see a doctor。 All her thoughts now were directed to the getting away from East Lynne; for it would never do to remain there to die; and she knew that death was on his way to her; and that no human power or skill not all the faculty combinedcould turn him back again。 The excessive dread of detection was not upon her as it had been formerly。 I mean she did not dread the consequences so much; if detection came。 In nearing the grave; all fears and hopes; of whatever nature; relating to this world; lose their force; and fears or hopes regarding the next world take their place。 Our petty feelings here are lost in the greater。
In returning to East Lynne; Lady Isabel had entered upon a daring act; and she found; in the working; that neither strength nor spirit was equal to it。 Human passions and tempers were brought with us into this world; and they can only quit us when we bid it farewell; to enter upon immortality in the next。
When Lady Isabel was Mr。 Carlyle's wife; she had never wholly loved him。 The very utmost homage that esteem; admiration; affection could give was his; but that mysterious passion called by the name of love; and which; as I truly and heartily believe; cannot; in its refined etherealism; be known to many of us; had not been given to him。 It was now。 From the very night she came back to East Lynne; her love for Mr。 Carlyle had burst forth with an intensity never before felt。 It had been smoldering almost ever since she quitted him。 〃Reprehensible!〃 groans a moralist。 Very。 Everybody knows that; as Afy would say。 But her heart; you see; had /not/ done with human passions; and they work ill; and contrariness; let the word stand; critic; if you please; and precisely everything they should not。
I shall get in for it; I fear; if I attempt to defend her。 But it was not exactly the same thing; as though she suffered herself to fall in love with somebody else's husband。 Nobody would defend that。 We have not turned Mormons yet; and the world does not walk upon its head。 But this was a peculiar case。 She; poor thing; almost regarded Mr。 Carlyle as /her/ husband。 The bent of her thoughts was only too much inclined to this。 The evil human heart again。 Many and many a time did she wake up from a reverie; and strive to drive this mistaken view of things away from her; taking shame to herself。 Ten minutes afterward; she would catch her brain reveling in the same rebellious vision。 Mr。 Carlyle's love was not hers now; it was Barbara's。 Mr。 Carlyle did not belong to her; he belonged to his wife。 It was not only that he was not hershe was another's。 You may; therefore; if you have the pleasure of being experienced in this sort of thing; guess a little of what her inward life was。 Had there been no Barbara in the case; she might have lived and borne it; as it was; it had killed her before her time; that and the remorse together。
There had been other things; too。 The re…appearance of Francis Levison at West Lynne; in fresh contact; as may be said; with herself; had struck terror to her heart; and the dark charge brought against him augmented awfully her remorse。 Then; the sharp lances perpetually thrust upon her memorythe Lady Isabel's memoryfrom all sides; were full of cruel stings; unintentionally though they were hurled。 And there was the hourly chance of discovery; and the never ceasing battle with her conscience; for being at East Lynne at all。 No wonder that the chords of life were snapping; the wonder would have been had they r