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Musgrave； will you honour me with your hand in marriage？
DOROTHY。 Mr。 Austin； if I thought basely of marriage； I should
perhaps accept your offer。 There was a time； indeed； when it
would have made me proudest among women。 I was the more
deceived； and have to thank you for a salutary lesson。 You chose
to count me as a cipher in your rolls of conquest； for six months
you left me to my fate； and you come here to…day … prompted； I
doubt not； by an honourable impulse … to offer this tardy
reparation。 No： it is too late。
AUSTIN。 Do you refuse？
DOROTHY。 Yours is the blame： we are no longer equal。 You have
robbed me of the right to marry any one but you； and do you think
me； then； so poor in spirit as to accept a husband on compulsion？
AUSTIN。 Dorothy； you loved me once。
DOROTHY。 Ay； you will never guess how much： you will never live
to understand how ignominious a defeat that conquest was。 I
loved and trusted you： I judged you by myself； think； then； of
my humiliation； when； at the touch of trial； all your qualities
proved false； and I beheld you the slave of the meanest vanity …
selfish； untrue； base！ Think； sir； what a humbling of my pride
to have been thus deceived： to have taken for my idol such a
commonplace imposture as yourself； to have loved … yes； loved …
such a shadow； such a mockery of man。 And now I am unworthy to
be the wife of any gentleman； and you … look me in the face；
George … are you worthy to be my husband？
AUSTIN。 No； Dorothy； I am not。 I was a vain fool； I blundered
away the most precious opportunity； and my regret will be
lifelong。 Do me the justice to accept this full confession of my
fault。 I am here to…day to own and to repair it。
DOROTHY。 Repair it？ Sir you condescend too far。
AUSTIN。 I perceive with shame how grievously I had misjudged
you。 But now； Dorothy； believe me； my eyes are opened。 I plead
with you； not as my equal； but as one in all ways better than
myself。 I admire you； not in that trivial sense in which we men
are wont to speak of women； but as God's work： as a wise mind； a
noble soul； and a most generous heart； from whose society I have
all to gain； all to learn。 Dorothy； in one word； I love you。
DOROTHY。 And what； sir； has wrought this transformation？ You
knew me of old； or thought you knew me？ Is it in six months of
selfish absence that your mind has changed？ When did that change
begin？ A week ago？ Sure； you would have written！ To…day？ Sir；
if this offer be anything more than fresh offence； I have a right
to be enlightened。
AUSTIN。 Madam； I foresaw this question。 So be it： I respect；
and I will not deceive you。 But give me； first of all； a moment
for defence。 There are few men of my habits and position who
would have done as I have done： sate at the feet of a young boy；
accepted his lessons； gone upon his errand： fewer still； who
would thus； at the crisis of a love； risk the whole fortune of
the soul … love； gratitude； even respect。 Yet more than that！
For conceive how I respect you； if I； whose lifelong trade has
been flattery； stand before you and make the plain confession of
a truth that must not only lower me； but deeply wound yourself。
DOROTHY。 What means … ？
AUSTIN。 Young Fenwick； my rival for your heart； he it was that
sent me。
DOROTHY。 He？ O disgrace！ He sent you！ That was what he meant？
Am I fallen so low？ Am I your common talk among men？ Did you
dice for me？ Did he kneel？ O John； John； how could you！ And
you； Mr。 Austin； whither have you brought me down？ shame heaping
upon shame … to what end！ oh； to what end？
AUSTIN。 Madam； you wound me： you look wilfully amiss。 Sure；
any lady in the land might well be proud to be loved as you are
loved； with such nobility as Mr。 Fenwick's； with such humility as
mine。 I came； indeed； in pity； in good…nature； what you will。
（See； dearest lady； with what honesty I speak： if I win you； it
shall be with the unblemished truth。） All that is gone。 Pity？
it is myself I pity。 I offer you not love … I am not worthy。 I
ask； I beseech of you： suffer me to wait upon you like a
servant； to serve you with my rank； my name； the whole devotion
of my life。 I am a gentleman … ay； in spite of my fault … an
upright gentleman； and I swear to you that you shall order your
life and mine at your free will。 Dorothy； at your feet； in
remorse； in respect； in love … O such love as I have never felt；
such love as I derided … I implore； I conjure you to be mine！
DOROTHY。 Too late！ too late。
AUSTIN。 No； no； not too late： not too late for penitence； not
too late for love。
DOROTHY。 Which do you propose？ that I should abuse your
compassion； or reward your treachery？ George Austin； I have been
your mistress； and I will never be your wife。
AUSTIN。 Child； dear child； I have not told you all： there is
worse still： your brother knows； the boy as good as told me。
Dorothy； this is scandal at the door … O let that move you： for
that； if not for my sake； for that； if not for love； trust me；
trust me again。
DOROTHY。 I am so much the more your victim： that is all； and
shall that change my heart？ The sin must have its wages。 This；
too； was done long ago： when you stooped to lie to me。 The
shame is still mine； the fault still yours。
AUSTIN。 Child； child； you kill me： you will not understand。
Can you not see？ the lad will force me to a duel。
DOROTHY。 And you will kill him？ Shame after shame； threat upon
threat。 Marry me； or you are dishonoured； marry me； or your
brother dies： and this is man's honour！ But my honour and my
pride are different。 I will encounter all misfortune sooner than
degrade myself by an unfaithful marriage。 How should I kneel
before the altar； and vow to reverence as my husband you； you who
deceived me as my lover？
AUSTIN。 Dorothy； you misjudge me cruelly； I have deserved it。
You will not take me for your husband； why should I wonder？ You
are right。 I have indeed filled your life with calamity： the
wages； ay； the wages； of my sin are heavy upon you。 But I have
one more thing to ask of your pity； and O remember； child； who it
is that asks it： a man guilty in your sight； void of excuse； but
old； and very proud； and most unused to supplication。 Dorothy
Musgrave； will you forgive George Austin？
DOROTHY。 O； George！
AUSTIN。 It is the old name： that is all I ask； and more than I
deserve。 I shall remember； often remember； how and where it was
bestowed upon me for the last time。 I thank you； Dorothy； from
my heart； a heart； child； that has been too long silent； but is
not too old； I thank God！ not yet too old； to learn a lesson and
to accept a reproof。 I will not keep you longer： I will go … I
am so bankrupt in credit that I dare not ask you to believe in
how much sorrow。 But； Dorothy； my acts will speak for me with
more persuasion。 If it be in my power； you shall suffer no more
through me： I will avoid your brother； I will leave this place；
I will leave England； to…morrow； you shall be no longer tortured
with the neighbourhood of your ungenerous lover。 Dorothy；
farewell！
SCENE VIII
DOROTHY； TO WHOM； ANTHONY； L。
DOROTHY （ON HER KNEES； AND REACHING WITH HER HANDS。） George；
George！ （ENTER ANTHONY。）
ANTHONY。 Ha！ what are you crying for？
DOROTHY。 Nothing； dear！ （RISING。）
ANTHONY。 Is Austin going to marry you？
DOROTHY。 I shall never marry。
ANTHONY。 I thought as much。 You should have come to me。
DOROTHY。 I know； dear； I know； but there was nothing to come
about。
ANTHONY。 It's a lie。 You have disgraced the family。 You went
to John Fenwick： see what he has made of it！ But I will have
you righted： it shall be atoned in the man's blood。
DOROTHY。 Anthony！ And if I had refused him？
ANTHONY。 You？ refuse George Austin？ You never had the chance。
DOROTHY。 I have refused him。
ANTHONY。 Dorothy； you lie。 You would shield your lover； but
this concerns not you only： it strikes my honour and my father's
honour。
DOROTHY。 I have refused him … refused him； I tell you … refused
him。 The blame is mine； are you so mad and wicked that you will
