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es。　　He　mentions　a　recommendation　made　by　the　professor　of　logic。　　‘The　high…　school　men；'　he　writes；　‘and　BEARDED　MEN　LIKE　MYSELF；　were　all　attention。'　　If　my　grandfather　were　throughout　life　a　thought　too　studious　of　the　art　of　getting　on；　much　must　be　forgiven　to　the　bearded　and　belated　student　who　looked　across；　with　a　sense　of　difference；　at　‘the　high…school　men。'　　Here　was　a　gulf　to　be　crossed；　but　already　he　could　feel　that　he　had　made　a　beginning；　and　that　must　have　been　a　proud　hour　when　he　devoted　his　earliest　earnings　to　the　repayment　of　the　charitable　foundation　in　which　he　had　received　the　rudiments　of　knowledge。

In　yet　another　way　he　followed　the　example　of　his　father…　in…law；　and　from　1794　to　1807；　when　the　affairs　of　the　Bell　Rock　made　it　necessary　for　him　to　resign；　he　served　in　different　corps　of　volunteers。　　In　the　last　of　these　he　rose　to　a　position　of　distinction；　no　less　than　captain　of　the　Grenadier　Company；　and　his　colonel；　in　accepting　his　resignation；　entreated　he　would　do　them　‘the　favour　of　continuing　as　an　honorary　member　of　a　corps　which　has　been　so　much　indebted　for　your　zeal　and　exertions。'

To　very　pious　women　the　men　of　the　house　are　apt　to　appear　worldly。　　The　wife；　as　she　puts　on　her　new　bonnet　before　church；　is　apt　to　sigh　over　that　assiduity　which　enabled　her　husband　to　pay　the　milliner's　bill。　　And　in　the　household　of　the　Smiths　and　Stevensons　the　women　were　not　only　extremely　pious；　but　the　men　were　in　reality　a　trifle　worldly。　Religious　they　both　were；　conscious；　like　all　Scots；　of　the　fragility　and　unreality　of　that　scene　in　which　we　play　our　uncomprehended　parts；　like　all　Scots；　realising　daily　and　hourly　the　sense　of　another　will　than　ours　and　a　perpetual　direction　in　the　affairs　of　life。　　But　the　current　of　their　endeavours　flowed　in　a　more　obvious　channel。　　They　had　got　on　so　far；　to　get　on　further　was　their　next　ambition　…　to　gather　wealth；　to　rise　in　society；　to　leave　their　descendants　higher　than　themselves；　to　be　（in　some　sense）　among　the　founders　of　families。　　Scott　was　in　the　same　town　nourishing　similar　dreams。　　But　in　the　eyes　of　the　women　these　dreams　would　be　foolish　and　idolatrous。

I　have　before　me　some　volumes　of　old　letters　addressed　to　Mrs。　Smith　and　the　two　girls；　her　favourites；　which　depict　in　a　strong　light　their　characters　and　the　society　in　which　they　moved。

‘My　very　dear　and　much　esteemed　Friend；'　writes　one　correspondent；　‘this　day　being　the　anniversary　of　our　acquaintance；　I　feel　inclined　to　address　you；　but　where　shall　I　find　words　to　express　the　fealings　of　a　graitful　HEART；　first　to　the　Lord　who　graiciously　inclined　you　on　this　day　last　year　to　notice　an　afflicted　Strainger　providentially　cast　in　your　way　far　from　any　Earthly　friend？　。　。　。　　Methinks　I　shall　hear　him　say　unto　you；　〃Inasmuch　as　ye　shewed　kindness　to　my　afflicted　handmaiden；　ye　did　it　unto　me。〃　'

This　is　to　Jean；　but　the　same　afflicted　lady　wrote　indifferently　to　Jean；　to　Janet；　and　to　Ms。　Smith；　whom　she　calls　‘my　Edinburgh　mother。'　　It　is　plain　the　three　were　as　one　person；　moving　to　acts　of　kindness；　like　the　Graces；　inarmed。　　Too　much　stress　must　not　be　laid　on　the　style　of　this　correspondence；　Clarinda　survived；　not　far　away；　and　may　have　met　the　ladies　on　the　Calton　Hill；　and　many　of　the　writers　appear；　underneath　the　conventions　of　the　period；　to　be　genuinely　moved。　　But　what　unpleasantly　strikes　a　reader　is；　that　these　devout　unfortunates　found　a　revenue　in　their　devotion。　　It　is　everywhere　the　same　tale；　on　the　side　of　the　soft…hearted　ladies；　substantial　acts　of　help；　on　the　side　of　the　correspondents；　affection；　italics；　texts；　ecstasies；　and　imperfect　spelling。　　When　a　midwife　is　recommended；　not　at　all　for　proficiency　in　her　important　art；　but　because　she　has　‘a　sister　whom　I　＇the　correspondent＇　esteem　and　respect；　and　＇who＇　is　a　spiritual　daughter　of　my　Hond　Father　in　the　Gosple；'　the　mask　seems　to　be　torn　off；　and　the　wages　of　godliness　appear　too　openly。　　Capacity　is　a　secondary　matter　in　a　midwife；　temper　in　a　servant；　affection　in　a　daughter；　and　the　repetition　of　a　shibboleth　fulfils　the　law。　　Common　decency　is　at　times　forgot　in　the　same　page　with　the　most　sanctified　advice　and　aspiration。　　Thus　I　am　introduced　to　a　correspondent　who　appears　to　have　been　at　the　time　the　housekeeper　at　Invermay；　and　who　writes　to　condole　with　my　grandmother　in　a　season　of　distress。　　For　nearly　half　a　sheet　she　keeps　to　the　point　with　an　excellent　discretion　in　language　then　suddenly　breaks　out：

‘It　was　fully　my　intention　to　have　left　this　at　Martinmass；　but　the　Lord　fixes　the　bounds　of　our　habitation。　I　have　had　more　need　of　patience　in　my　situation　here　than　in　any　other；　partly　from　the　very　violent；　unsteady；　deceitful　temper　of　the　Mistress　of　the　Family；　and　also　from　the　state　of　the　house。　　It　was　in　a　train　of　repair　when　I　came　here　two　years　ago；　and　is　still　in　Confusion。　　There　is　above　six　Thousand　Pounds'　worth　of　Furniture　come　from　London　to　be　put　up　when　the　rooms　are　completely　finished；　and　then；　woe　be　to　the　Person　who　is　Housekeeper　at　Invermay！'

And　by　the　tail　of　the　document；　which　is　torn；　I　see　she　goes　on　to　ask　the　bereaved　family　to　seek　her　a　new　place。　It　is　extraordinary　that　people　should　have　been　so　deceived　in　so　careless　an　impostor；　that　a　few　sprinkled　‘God　willings'　should　have　blinded　them　to　the　essence　of　this　venomous　letter；　and　that　they　should　have　been　at　the　pains　to　bind　it　in　with　others　（many　of　them　highly　touching）　in　their　memorial　of　harrowing　days。　　But　the　good　ladies　were　without　guile　and　without　suspicion；　they　were　victims　marked　for　the　axe；　and　the　religious　impostors　snuffed　up　the　wind　as　they　drew　near。

I　have　referred　above　to　my　grandmother；　it　was　no　slip　of　the　pen：　for　by　an　extraordinary　arrangement；　in　which　it　is　hard　not　to　suspect　the　managing　hand　of　a　mother；　Jean　Smith　became　the　wife　of　Robert　Stevenson。　　Mrs。　Smith　had　failed　in　her　design　to　make　her　son　a　minister；　and　she　saw　him　daily　more　immersed　in　business　and　worldly　ambition。　　One　thing　remained　that　she　might　do：　she　might　secure　for　him　a　godly　wife；　that　great　means　of　sanctification；　and　she　had　two　under　her　hand；　trained　by　herself；　her　dear　friends　and　daughters　both　in　law　and　love　…　Jean　and　Janet。　　Jean's　complexion　was　extremely　pale；　Janet's　was　florid；　my　grandmother's　nose　was　straight；　my　great…aunt's　aquiline；　but　by　the　sound　of　the　voice；　not　even　a　son　was　able　to　distinguish　one　from　other。　　The　marriage　of　a　man　of　twenty…　seven　and　a　girl　of　twenty　who　have　lived　for　twelve　years　as　brother　and　sister；　is　difficult　to　conceive。　　It　took　place；　however；　and　thus　in　1799　the　family　was　still　further　cemented　by　the　union　of　a　representative　of　the　male　or　worldly　element　with　one　of　the　female　and　devout。

This　essential　difference　remained　unbridged；　yet　never　diminished　the　strength　of　their　relation。　　My　grandfather　pursued　his　design　of　advancing　in　the　world　with　some　measure　of　success；　rose　to　distinction　in　his　calling；　grew　to　be　the　familiar　of　members　of　Parliament；　judges　of　the　Court　of　Session；　and　‘landed　gentlemen'；　learned　a　ready　address；　had　a　flow　of　interesting　conversation；　and　when　he　was　referred　to　as　‘a　highly　respectable　BOURGEOIS；'　resented　the　description。　　My　grandmother　remained　to　the　end　devout　and　unambitious；　occupied　with　her　Bible；　her　children；　and　her　house；　easily　shocked；　and　associating　largely　with　a　clique　of　godly　parasites。　　I　do　not　know　if　she　called　in　the　midwife　already　referred　to；　but　the　principle　on　which　that　lady　was　recommended；　she　accepted　fully。　　The　cook　was　a　godly　woman；　the　butcher　a　Christian　man；　and　the　table　suffered。　　The　scene　has　been　often　described　to　me　of　my　grandfather　sawing　with　darkened　countenance　at　some　indissoluble　joint　…　‘Preserve　me；　my　dear；　what　kind　of　a　reedy；　stringy　beast　is　this？'　…　of　the　joint　removed；　the　pudding　substituted　and　uncovered；　and　of　my　grandmother's　anxious　glance　and　hasty；　deprecatory　comment；　‘Just　mismanaged！'　　Yet　with　the　invincible　obstinacy　of　soft　natures；　she　would　adhere　to　the　godly　woman　and　the　Christian　man；　or　find　others　of　the　same　kidney　to　replace　them。　　One　of　her　confidants　had　onc