lucile-第27章
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lids on happiness closed； Were it not to expose to a peril unjust； And most cruel； that happy repose you so trust； To meet； to receive； and； indeed； it may be； For how long I know not； continue to see A woman whose place rivals yours in the life And the heart which not only your title of wife； But also （forgive me！） your beauty alone； Should have made wholly yours？You； who gave all your own！ Reflect！'tis the peace of existence you stake On the turn of a die。 And for whosefor his sake？ While you witness this woman； the false point of view From which she must now be regarded by you Will exaggerate to you； whatever they be； The charms I admit she possesses。 To me They are trivial indeed； yet to your eyes； I fear And foresee； they will true and intrinsic appear。 Self…unconscious； and sweetly unable to guess How more lovely by far is the grace you possess； You will wrong your own beauty。 The graces of art； You will take for the natural charm of the heart； Studied manners； the brilliant and bold repartee； Will too soon in that fatal comparison be To your fancy more fair than the sweet timid sense Which； in shrinking； betrays its own best eloquence。 O then； lady； then； you will feel in your heart The poisonous pain of a fierce jealous dart！ While you see her； yourself you no longer will see； You will hear her； and hear not yourself；you will be Unhappy； unhappy； because you will deem Your own power less great than her power will seem。 And I shall not be by your side； day by day； In despite of your noble displeasure； to say 'You are fairer than she； as the star is more fair Than the diamond； the brightest that beauty can wear'〃
XXV。
This appeal； both by looks and by language； increased The trouble Matilda felt grow in her breast。 Still she spoke with what calmness she could 〃Sir； the while I thank you；〃 she said； with a faint scornful smile； 〃For your fervor in painting my fancied distress： Allow me the right some surprise to express At the zeal you betray in disclosing to me The possible depth of my own misery。〃 〃That zeal would not startle you； madam；〃 he said； 〃Could you read in my heart； as myself I have read； The peculiar interest which causes that zeal〃
Matilda her terror no more could conceal。 〃Duke；〃 she answer'd in accents short； cold and severe； As she rose from her seat； 〃I continue to hear； But permit me to say； I no more understand。〃 〃Forgive！〃 with a nervous appeal of the hand； And a well…feign'd confusion of voice and of look； 〃Forgive； oh； forgive me！〃 at once cried the Duke 〃I forgot that you know me so slightly。 Your leave I entreat （from your anger those words to retrieve） For one moment to speak of myself；for I think That you wrong me〃 His voice； as in pain； seem'd to sink And tears in his eyes； as he lifted them； glisten'd。
XXVI。
Matilda； despite of herself； sat and listen'd。
XXVII。
〃Beneath an exterior which seems； and may be； Worldly； frivolous； careless； my heart hides in me；〃 He continued； 〃a sorrow which draws me to side With all things that suffer。 Nay； laugh not；〃 he cried； 〃At so strange an avowal。 〃I seek at a ball； For instance；the beauty admired by all？ No！ some plain； insignificant creature； who sits Scorn'd of course by the beauties； and shunn'd by the wits。 All the world is accustom'd to wound； or neglect； Or oppress； claims my heart and commands my respect。 No Quixote； I do not affect to belong； I admit； to those charter'd redressers of wrong； But I seek to console； where I can。 'Tis a part Not brilliant； I own； yet its joys bring no smart。〃 These trite words； from the tone which he gave them； received An appearance of truth which might well be believed By a heart shrewder yet than Matilda's。 And so He continued 。 。 。 〃O lady！ alas； could you know What injustice and wrong in this world I have seen！ How many a woman； believed to have been Without a regret； I have known turn aside To burst into heartbroken tears undescried！ On how many a lip have I witness'd the smile Which but hid what was breaking the poor heart the while！〃 Said Matilda； 〃Your life； it would seem； then； must be One long act of devotion〃 〃Perhaps so；〃 said he； 〃But at least that devotion small merit can boast； For one day may yet come；if ONE day at the most； When； perceiving at last all the differencehow great！ Twixt the heart that neglects； and the heart that can wait； Twixt the natures that pity； the natures that pain； Some woman； that else might have pass'd in disdain Or indifference by me；in passing that day Might pause with a word or a smile to repay This devotion；and then〃 。 。 。
XXVIII。
To Matilda's relief At that moment her husband approach'd。 With some grief I must own that her welcome； perchance； was express'd The more eagerly just for one twinge in her breast Of a conscience disturb'd； and her smile not less warm； Though she saw the Comtesse de Nevers on his arm。 The Duke turn'd and adjusted his collar。 Thought he； 〃Good！ the gods fight my battle to…night。 I foresee That the family doctor's the part I must play。 Very well！ but the patients my visits shall pay。〃 Lord Alfred presented Lucile to his wife； And Matilda； repressing with effort the strife Of emotions which made her voice shake； murmur'd low Some faint； troubled greeting。 The Duke； with a bow Which betoken'd a distant defiance； replied To Lucile's startled cry； as surprised she descried Her former gay wooer。 Anon； with the grace Of that kindness which seeks to win kindness； her place She assumed by Matilda； unconscious； perchance； Or resolved not to notice the half…frighten'd glance； That follow'd that movement。 The Duke to his feet Arose； and； in silence； relinquish'd his seat。 One must own that the moment was awkward for all But nevertheless； before long； the strange thrall Of Lucile's gracious tact was by every one felt； And from each the reserve seem'd； reluctant； to melt； Thus； conversing together； the whole of the four Thro' the crowd saunter'd smiling。
XXIX。
Approaching the door； Eugene de Luvois； who had fallen behind； By Lucile； after some hesitation； was join'd。 With a gesture of gentle and kindly appeal； Which appear'd to imply； without words； 〃Let us feel That the friendship between us in years that are fled； Has survived one mad moment forgotten；〃 she said： 〃You remain； Duke； at Ems？〃 He turn'd on her a look Of frigid； resentful； and sullen rebuke； And then； with a more than significant glance At Matilda； maliciously answer'd； 〃Perchance。 I have here an attraction。 And you？〃 he return'd。 Lucile's eyes had follow'd his own； and discern'd The boast they implied。 He repeated； 〃And you？〃 And； still watching Matilda； she answer'd； 〃I too。〃 And he thought； as with that word she left him； she sigh'd。 The next moment her place she resumed by the side Of Matilda； and they soon shook hands at the gate Of the selfsame hotel。
XXX。
One depress'd； one elate； The Duke and Lord Alfred again； thro' the glooms Of the thick linden alley； return'd to the Rooms。 His cigar each had lighted； a moment before； At the inn； as they turn'd； arm…in…arm； from the door。 Ems cigars do not cheer a man's spirits； experto （Me miserum quoties！） crede Roberto。 In silence； awhile； they walk'd onward。 At last The Duke's thoughts to language half consciously pass'd。
LUVOIS。
Once more！ yet once more！
ALFRED。
What？
LUVOIS。
We meet her； once more； The woman for whom we two madmen of yore （Laugh； mon cher Alfred； laugh！） were about to destroy Each other！
ALFRED。
It is not with laughter that I Raise the ghost of that once troubled time。 Say！ can you Recall it with coolness and quietude now？
LUVOIS。
Now？ yes！ I； mon cher； am a true Parisien： Now； the red revolution； the tocsin； and th
