the governess-第20章
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s left wholly to the care of my father。 In order to make the gift she had extorted from her fond husband as fatal as possible to her favourite child； she took care in her education （by endeavouring to cultivate in her the spirit of revenge and malice against those who had in the least degree offended her） to turn her mind to all manner of mischief； by which means she lived in a continual passion。
'My father； as soon as I was old enough to hearken to reason； told me of the gift he had conferred on my sister； said he could not retract it； and therefore； if she had any mischievous designs against me； they must in some measure succeed； but she would endow me with a power superior to this gift of my sister's； and likewise superior to any thing else that he was able to bestow； which was strength and constancy of mind enough to bear patiently any injuries I might receive； and this was a strength； he said； which would not decay； but rather increase； by every new exercise of it； and； to secure me in the possession of this gift； he likewise gave me a perfect knowledge of the true value of everything around me； by which means I might learn； whatever outward accidents befell me； not to lose the greatest blessing in this world； namely； a calm and contented mind。 He taught me so well my duty； that I cheerfully obeyed my mother in all things； though she seldom gave me a kind word； or even a kind look； for my spiteful sister was always telling some lies to make her angry with me。 But my heart overflowed with gratitude to my father； that he would give me leave to love him； whilst he instructed me that it was my duty to pay him the most strict obedience。
'Brunetta was daily encouraged by her mother to use me ill； and chiefly because my father loved me； and although she succeeded in all her designs of revenge on me； yet was she very uneasy； because she could not take away the cheerfulness of my mind； for I bore with patience whatever happened to me： and she would often say； 〃must I with all my beauty； power； and wisdom （for so she called her low cunning） be suffering perpetual uneasiness？ and shall you； who have neither beauty； power； nor wisdom； pretend to be happy and cheerful？〃 Then would she cry and stamp； and rave like a mad creature； and set her invention at work to make my mother beat me； or lock me up； or take from me some of my best clothes to give to her； yet still could not her power extend to vex my mind： and this used to throw her again into such passions； as weakened her health； and greatly impaired her so much boasted beauty。
'In this manner we lived； till on a certain day； after Brunetta had been in one of her rages with me for nothing； my father came in and chid her for it； which； when my mother heard； she threw herself into such a violent passion； that her husband could not pacify her。 And； being big with child； the convulsions； caused by her passions； brought her to her grave。 Thus my father lost her； by the same uncontrollable excesses； the fatal effects of which he had before ruined his daughter to preserve her from。 He did not long survive her； but； before he died； gave me a little wand； which； by striking three times on the ground； he said； would at any time produce me any necessary or convenience of life； which I really wanted； either for myself； or the assistance of others； and this he gave me； because he was very sensible； he said； that as soon as he was dead； my sister would never rest till she had got from me both his castle； and everything that I had belonging to me； in it。 〃But；〃 continued he； 〃whenever you are driven from thence； bend your course directly into the pleasant wood Ardella； there strike with your wand； and everything you want； will be provided for you。 But keep this wand a profound secret； or Brunetta will get it from you； and then （though you can never； while you preserve your patience； be unhappy） you will not have it in your power to be of so much use as you would wish to be； to those who shall stand in need of your assistance。〃 Saying these words； he expired； as I kneeled by his bedside； attending his last commands； and bewailing the loss of so good a father。
'In the midst of this our distress； we sent to my Uncle Sochus； my father's brother； to come to us； and to assist us in an equal division of my deceased father's effects； but my sister soon contrived to make him believe； that I was the wickedest girl alive； and had always set my father against her by my art； which she said I pretended to call my wisdom； and by several handsome presents she soon persuaded him （for he did not care a farthing for either of us） to join with her in saying； that； as she was the eldest sister； she had a full right to the castle； and everything in it； but she told me I was very welcome to stay there； and live with her； if I pleased； and while I behaved myself well； she should be very glad of my company。
'As it was natural for me to love every one that would give me leave to love them； I was quite overjoyed at this kind offer of my sister's； and never once thought on the treachery she had so lately been guilty of； and I have since reflected； that happy was it for me； that passion was so much uppermost with her； that she could not execute any plot； that required a dissimulation of any long continuance； for had her good humour lasted but one four…and…twenty hours； it is very probable that I should have opened my whole heart to her； should have endeavoured to have begun a friendship with her； and perhaps have betrayed the secret of my wand； but just as it was sunset； she came into the room where I was； in the most violent passion in the world； accusing me to my uncle of ingratitude to her great generosity； in suffering me to live in her castle。 She said； 〃that she had found me out； and that my crimes were of the blackest dye；〃 although she would not tell me either what they were； or who were my accusers。 She would not give me leave to speak； either to ask what my offence was； or to justify my innocence； and I plainly perceived； that her pretended kindness was only designed to make my disappointment the greater； and that she was now determined to find me guilty； whether I pleaded； or not。 And after she had raved on for some time； she said to me with a sneer； 〃Since you have always boasted of your calm and contented mind； you may now try to be contented this night with the softness of the grass for your bed； for here in my castle you shall not stay one moment longer。〃 And so saying； she and my uncle led me to the outer court； and thrusting me with all their force from them； they shut up the gates； bolting and barring them as close as if to keep out a giant； and left me； at that time of night； friendless； and； as they thought； destitute of any kind of support。
'I then remembered my dear father's last words； and made what haste I could to this wood； which is not above a mile distant from the castle； and being； as I thought； about the middle of it； I struck three times with my wand； and immediately up rose this grove of trees； which you see； this house； and all the other conveniences； which I now enjoy； and getting that very night into this my plain and easy bed； I enjoyed as sweet a repose as ever I did in my life； only delayed； indeed； a short time； by a few sighs； for the loss of so good a parent； and the unhappy state of a self…tormented sister； whose slumbers （I fear） on a bed of down； were more restless and interrupted that night than mine would have been； even had not my father's present of the wand prevented me from the necessity of using the bed of grass； which she； in her wrath； allotted me。 In this grove； which I call Placid Grove； is contained all that I want； and it is so well secured from any invaders； by the thick briars and thorns which surround it； having no entrance but through that tender jessamine； that I live in no apprehensions of any disturbance； though so near my sister's castle。 But once； indeed； she came with a large train； and； whilst I was asleep； set fire to the trees all around me； and waking； I found myself almost suffocated with smoke； and the flames had reached one part of my House。 I started from my bed； and striking on the ground three times with my wand； there ca
