hemingway, ernest - islands in the stream-第64章
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pt。 Finally I went out to the front door of the hotel and looked outside and it was still raining hard。 I went to the bar but it was not yet open。 They had brought me my drink at breakfast from the service bar。 Then I couldnˇt wait any longer and I went back up to the room and unlocked the door。 They were all gone。〃
¨How terrible。〃
¨Thatˇs what I thought。〃
¨So what did you do？ You had a drink I suppose。〃
¨Yes。 I had a drink and then I went in and washed myself again very good with much soap and water and then I commenced to have double remorse。〃
¨？Un doble remordimiento？〃
¨No。 Two remorses。 Remorse because I had slept with three girls。 And remorse because they were gone。〃
¨I remember when you used to have remorse after you stayed with me。 But you got over it。〃
¨I know。 I always get over everything。 I was always a man of big remorses。 But this morning in the hotel was gigantic double remorse。〃
¨So you took another drink。〃
¨How did you guess it？ And I called up my millionaire。 But he wasnˇt at his home。 Nor in his office。〃
¨He must have been in his Sin House。〃
¨Undoubtedly。 Where the girls had gone to join him and to tell him about the night。〃
¨But where did they get three such beautiful girls？ You couldnˇt get three really beautiful girls in all of Havana now。 I know the trouble I had trying to get something even decent for Henry and Willie this morning。 Though； naturally； it is a bad time of day。〃
¨Oh； in Hong Kong the millionaires had scouts all through the country。 All over China。 It was just like the Brooklyn Dodgersˇ baseball team looking for ballplayers。 As soon as a beautiful girl was located in any town or village their agents bought her and she was shipped in and trained and groomed and cared for。〃
¨But how did they look so beautiful in the morning if they had coiffures muy estilizado such as Chinese women wear？ The more estilizado the hairdress； the worse they would look in the morning after a night like that。〃
¨They didnˇt have such coiffures。 They wore their hair shoulder length the way American girls did that year and the way many still do。 It was curled； too； very softly。 That was the way C。W。 liked them。 He had been in America and； naturally； he had seen the cinema。〃
¨Did you never have them again？〃
¨Only one at a time。 C。W。 would send me over one at a time as a present。 But he never sent all three。 They were new and naturally he wanted them for himself。 And； too； he said he did not want to do anything that was bad for my morals。〃
¨He sounds like a fine man。 What happened to him？〃
¨I believe he was shot。〃
¨Poor man。 That was a nice story though and very delicate for a story like that。 You seem more cheerful； too。〃
I guess I am； Thomas Hudson thought。 Well； that is what I set out to be。 Or was it？
¨Look； Lil；〃 he said。 ¨Donˇt you think weˇve drunk maybe just about enough of these？〃
¨How do you feel？〃
¨Better。〃
¨Make Tom？s another double frozen without sugar。 Iˇm getting a little drunk。 I donˇt want anything。〃
I do feel better； Thomas Hudson thought。 That is the funny part。 You always feel better and you always get over your remorse。 Thereˇs only one thing you donˇt get over and that is death。
¨You ever been dead？〃 he said to Lil。
¨Of course not。〃
¨Yo tampoco。〃
¨Why did you say that？ You scare me when you talk like that。〃
¨I donˇt mean to scare you； honey。 I donˇt want to scare anybody ever。〃
¨I like it when you call me honey。〃
This isnˇt getting anywhere； Thomas Hudson thought。 Isnˇt there anything else you could do that would produce the same effect rather than sit with beat…up old Honest Lil in La Floridita at the old tartsˇ end of the bar and get drunk？ If you only have four days couldnˇt you employ them better？ Where？； he thought。 At Alfredˇs Sin House？ Youˇre doing all right where you are。 The drinking couldnˇt be any better； nor as good； anywhere in the world and youˇre down to the drinking now； kid； and you better get just as far in it as you can。 Thatˇs what youˇve got now and you better like it and like it on all frequencies。 You know you always liked it and you loved it and itˇs what you have now； so you better love it。
¨I love it；〃 he said out loud。
¨What？〃
¨Drinking。 Not just drinking。 Drinking these double frozens without sugar。 If you drank that many with sugar it would make you sick。〃
¨Ya lo creo。 And if anybody else drank that many without sugar theyˇd be dead。〃
¨Maybe Iˇll be dead。〃
¨No； you wonˇt。 Youˇll just break the record and then weˇll go to my place and youˇll go to sleep and the worst thing that will happen is if you snore。〃
¨Did I snore last time？〃
¨Horrores。 And you called me by about ten different names in the night。〃
¨Iˇm sorry。〃
¨No。 I thought it was funny。 I learned two or three things I didnˇt know。 Donˇt your other girls ever get upset when you call them by so many different names？〃
¨I havenˇt any other girls。 Just a wife。〃
¨I try hard to like her and think well of her but it is very difficult。 Naturally I never let anyone speak against her。〃
¨Iˇll speak against her。〃
¨No。 Donˇt。 That is vulgar。 I hate two things。 Men when they cry。 I know they have to cry。 But I donˇt like it。 And I hate to hear them speak against their wives。 Yet they nearly all do。 So donˇt you do it； because we are having such a lovely time。〃
¨Good。 The hell with her。 We wonˇt speak about her。〃
¨Please； Tom。 You know I think she is very beautiful。 She is。 Really。 Pero no es mujer para ti。 But let us not speak against her。〃
¨Right。〃
¨Tell me another happy story。 It doesnˇt even have to have love in it if it makes you happy to tell it。〃
¨I donˇt think I know any happy stories。〃
¨Donˇt be like that。 You know thousands。 Take another drink and tell me a happy story。〃
¨Why donˇt you do some of the work？〃
¨What work？〃
¨The goddamned morale building。〃
¨T？ tienes la moral muy baja。〃
¨Sure。 Iˇm well aware of it。 But why donˇt you tell a few stories to build it up？〃
¨You have to do it yourself。 You know that。 Iˇll do anything else you want me to。 You know that。〃
¨OK；〃 Thomas Hudson said。 ¨You really want another happy story？〃
¨Please。 Thereˇs your drink。 One more happy story and one more drink and youˇll feel good。〃
¨You guarantee it？〃
¨No；〃 she said and she began to cry again as she looked up at him； crying easily and naturally as water wells up in a spring。 ¨Tom； why canˇt you tell me whatˇs the matter？ Iˇm afraid to ask now。 Is that it？〃
¨Thatˇs it；〃 Thomas Hudson said。 Then she began to cry hard and he had to put his arm around her and try to comfort her with all of the people there at the bar。 She was not crying beautifully now。 She was crying straight and destructively。
¨Oh my poor Tom；〃 she said。 ¨Oh my poor Tom。〃
¨Pull yourself together； mujer； and drink a brandy。 Now we are going to be cheerful。〃
¨Oh； I donˇt want to be cheerful now。 Iˇll never be cheerful again。〃
¨Look；〃 Thomas Hudson said。 ¨You see how much good it does to tell people things？〃
¨Iˇll be cheerful；〃 she said。 ¨Just give me a minute。 Iˇll go out to the ladies and Iˇll be all right。〃
You damned well better be； Thomas Hudson thought。 Because Iˇm feeling really bad and if you donˇt quit crying； or if you talk about it； Iˇll pull the hell out of here。 And if I pull the hell out of here where the hell else have I got to go？ He was aware of the limitations； and no oneˇs Sin House was the answer。
¨Give me another double frozen daiquiri without sugar。 No s？ lo que pasa con esta mujer。〃
¨She cries like a sprinkling can；〃 the barman said。 ¨They ought to have her instead of the aqueduct。〃
¨Howˇs the aqueduct coming？〃 Thomas Hudson asked。
The man next to him on his left at the bar； a short； cheerful…faced man with a broken nose whose face he knew well but whose name and whose politics escaped him said； ¨Those cabrones。 They can always get money for water since water is the one great necessity。 Everything else is necessary。 But water
