desperate remedies-第2章

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account　of　delicate　health。　　Eventually　Huntway　said　that
circumstances　had　rendered　Graye's　attachment　more　hopeless　still。
Cytherea's　mother　had　unexpectedly　inherited　a　large　fortune　and
estates　in　the　west　of　England　by　the　rapid　fall　of　some　intervening
lives。　　This　had　caused　their　removal　from　the　small　house　in
Bloomsbury；　and；　as　it　appeared；　a　renunciation　of　their　old　friends
in　that　quarter。

Young　Graye　concluded　that　his　Cytherea　had　forgotten　him　and　his
love。　　But　he　could　not　forget　her。

2。　　FROM　1843　TO　1861

Eight　years　later；　feeling　lonely　and　depresseda　man　without
relatives；　with　many　acquaintances　but　no　friendsAmbrose　Graye　met
a　young　lady　of　a　different　kind；　fairly　endowed　with　money　and　good
gifts。　　As　to　caring　very　deeply　for　another　woman　after　the　loss　of
Cytherea；　it　was　an　absolute　impossibility　with　him。　　With　all；　the
beautiful　things　of　the　earth　become　more　dear　as　they　elude
pursuit；　but　with　some　natures　utter　elusion　is　the　one　special
event　which　will　make　a　passing　love　permanent　for　ever。

This　second　young　lady　and　Graye　were　married。　　That　he　did　not；
first　or　last；　love　his　wife　as　he　should　have　done；　was　known　to
all；　but　few　knew　that　his　unmanageable　heart　could　never　be　weaned
from　useless　repining　at　the　loss　of　its　first　idol。

His　character　to　some　extent　deteriorated；　as　emotional
constitutions　will　under　the　long　sense　of　disappointment　at　having
missed　their　imagined　destiny。　　And　thus；　though　naturally　of　a
gentle　and　pleasant　disposition；　he　grew　to　be　not　so　tenderly
regarded　by　his　acquaintances　as　it　is　the　lot　of　some　of　those
persons　to　be。　　The　winning　and　sanguine　receptivity　of　his　early
life　developed　by　degrees　a　moody　nervousness；　and　when　not
picturing　prospects　drawn　from　baseless　hope　he　was　the　victim　of
indescribable　depression。　　The　practical　issue　of　such　a　condition
was　improvidence；　originally　almost　an　unconscious　improvidence；　for
every　debt　incurred　had　been　mentally　paid　off　with　a　religious
exactness　from　the　treasures　of　expectation　before　mentioned。　　But
as　years　revolved；　the　same　course　was　continued　from　the　lack　of
spirit　sufficient　for　shifting　out　of　an　old　groove　when　it　has　been
found　to　lead　to　disaster。

In　the　year　1861　his　wife　died；　leaving　him　a　widower　with　two
children。　　The　elder；　a　son　named　Owen；　now　just　turned　seventeen；
was　taken　from　school；　and　initiated　as　pupil　to　the　profession　of
architect　in　his　father's　office。　　The　remaining　child　was　a
daughter；　and　Owen's　junior　by　a　year。

Her　christian　name　was　Cytherea；　and　it　is　easy　to　guess　why。

3。　　OCTOBER　THE　TWELFTH；　1863

We　pass　over　two　years　in　order　to　reach　the　next　cardinal　event　of
these　persons'　lives。　　The　scene　is　still　the　Grayes'　native　town　of
Hocbridge；　but　as　it　appeared　on　a　Monday　afternoon　in　the　month　of
October。

The　weather　was　sunny　and　dry；　but　the　ancient　borough　was　to　be
seen　wearing　one　of　its　least　attractive　aspects。　　First　on　account
of　the　time。　　It　was　that　stagnant　hour　of　the　twenty…four　when　the
practical　garishness　of　Day；　having　escaped　from　the　fresh　long
shadows　and　enlivening　newness　of　the　morning；　has　not　yet　made　any
perceptible　advance　towards　acquiring　those　mellow　and　soothing
tones　which　grace　its　decline。　　Next；　it　was　that　stage　in　the
progress　of　the　week　when　businesswhich；　carried　on　under　the
gables　of　an　old　country　place；　is　not　devoid　of　a　romantic　sparkle…
…was　well…nigh　extinguished。　　Lastly；　the　town　was　intentionally
bent　upon　being　attractive　by　exhibiting　to　an　influx　of　visitors
the　local　talent　for　dramatic　recitation；　and　provincial　towns
trying　to　be　lively　are　the　dullest　of　dull　things。

Little　towns　are　like　little　children　in　this　respect；　that　they
interest　most　when　they　are　enacting　native　peculiarities
unconscious　of　beholders。　　Discovering　themselves　to　be　watched　they
attempt　to　be　entertaining　by　putting　on　an　antic；　and　produce
disagreeable　caricatures　which　spoil　them。

The　weather…stained　clock…face　in　the　low　church　tower　standing　at
the　intersection　of　the　three　chief　streets　was　expressing　half…past
two　to　the　Town　Hall　opposite；　where　the　much　talked…of　reading　from
Shakespeare　was　about　to　begin。　　The　doors　were　open；　and　those
persons　who　had　already　assembled　within　the　building　were　noticing
the　entrance　of　the　new…comerssilently　criticizing　their　dress
questioning　the　genuineness　of　their　teeth　and　hairestimating
their　private　means。

Among　these　later　ones　came　an　exceptional　young　maiden　who　glowed
amid　the　dulness　like　a　single　bright…red　poppy　in　a　field　of　brown
stubble。　　She　wore　an　elegant　dark　jacket；　lavender　dress；　hat　with
grey　strings　and　trimmings；　and　gloves　of　a　colour　to　harmonize。
She　lightly　walked　up　the　side　passage　of　the　room；　cast　a　slight
glance　around；　and　entered　the　seat　pointed　out　to　her。

The　young　girl　was　Cytherea　Graye；　her　age　was　now　about　eighteen。
During　her　entry；　and　at　various　times　whilst　sitting　in　her　seat
and　listening　to　the　reader　on　the　platform；　her　personal　appearance
formed　an　interesting　subject　of　study　for　several　neighbouring
eyes。

Her　face　was　exceedingly　attractive；　though　artistically　less
perfect　than　her　figure；　which　approached　unusually　near　to　the
standard　of　faultlessness。　　But　even　this　feature　of　hers　yielded
the　palm　to　the　gracefulness　of　her　movement；　which　was　fascinating
and　delightful　to　an　extreme　degree。

Indeed；　motion　was　her　speciality；　whether　shown　on　its　most
extended　scale　of　bodily　progression；　or　minutely；　as　in　the
uplifting　of　her　eyelids；　the　bending　of　her　fingers；　the　pouting　of
her　lip。　　The　carriage　of　her　headmotion　within　motiona　glide
upon　a　glidewas　as　delicate　as　that　of　a　magnetic　needle。　　And
this　flexibility　and　elasticity　had　never　been　taught　her　by　rule；
nor　even　been　acquired　by　observation；　but；　nullo　cultu；　had
naturally　developed　itself　with　her　years。　　In　childhood；　a　stone　or
stalk　in　the　way；　which　had　been　the　inevitable　occasion　of　a　fall
to　her　playmates；　had　usually　left　her　safe　and　upright　on　her　feet
after　the　narrowest　escape　by　oscillations　and　whirls　for　the
preservation　of　her　balance。　　At　mixed　Christmas　parties；　when　she
numbered　but　twelve　or　thirteen　years；　and　was　heartily　despised　on
that　account　by　lads　who　deemed　themselves　men；　her　apt　lightness　in
the　dance　covered　this　incompleteness　in　her　womanhood；　and
compelled　the　self…same　youths　in　spite　of　resolutions　to　seize　upon
her　childish　figure　as　a　partner　whom　they　could　not　afford　to
contemn。　　And　in　later　years；　when　the　instincts　of　her　sex　had
shown　her　this　point　as　the　best　and　rarest　feature　in　her　external
self；　she　was　not　found　wanting　in　attention　to　the　cultivation　of
finish　in　its　details。

Her　hair　rested　gaily　upon　her　shoulders　in　curls　and　was　of　a
shining　corn　yellow　in　the　high　lights；　deepening　to　a　definite　nut…
brown　as　each　curl　wound　round　into　the　shade。　　She　had　eyes　of　a
sapphire　hue；　though　rather　darker　than　the　gem　ordinarily　appears；
they　possessed　the　affectionate　and　liquid　sparkle　of　loyalty　and
good　faith　as　distinguishable　from　that　harder　brightness　which
seems　to　express　faithfulness　only　to　the　object　confronting　them。

But　to　attempt　to　gain　a　view　of　heror　indeed　of　any　fascinating
womanfrom　a　measured　category；　is　as　difficult　as　to　appreciate
the　effect　of　a　landscape　by　exploring　it　at　night　with　a　lantern
or　of　a　full　chord　of　music　by　piping　the　notes　in　succession。
Nevertheless　it　may　readily　be　believed　from　the　description　here
ventured；　that　among　the　many　winning　phases　of　her　aspect；　these
were　particularly　striking：

　　　　　During　pleasant　doubt；　when　her　eyes　brightened　stealthily　and
smiled　（as　eyes　will　smile）　as　distinctly　as　her　lips；　and　in　the
space　of　a　single　instant　expressed　clearly　the　whole　round　of
degrees　of　expectancy　which　lie　over　the　wide　expanse　between　Yea
and　Nay。

　　　　　During　the　telling　of　a　secret；　which　was　involuntarily
accompanied　by　a　sudden　minute　start；　and　ecstatic　pressure　of　the
listener's　arm；　side；　or　neck；　as　the　position　and　degree　of
intimacy　dictated。

　　　　　When　an