sword blades & poppy seed-第13章
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And the wind through the belfry moans and grieves。
The gray dust whirls in the market square;
And the silver hearts are covered with care
By thick tarpaulins。 Once again
The bay is black under heavy rain。~
The Queen of Heaven has shut her door。
A little boy weeps and prays no more。
After Hearing a Waltz by Bartok
But why did I kill him? Why? Why?
In the small; gilded room; near the stair?
My ears rack and throb with his cry;
And his eyes goggle under his hair;
As my fingers sink into the fair
White skin of his throat。 It was I!
I killed him! My God! Don't you hear?
I shook him until his red tongue
Hung flapping out through the black; queer;
Swollen lines of his lips。 And I clung
With my nails drawing blood; while I flung
The loose; heavy body in fear。
Fear lest he should still not be dead。
I was drunk with the lust of his life。
The blood…drops oozed slow from his head
And dabbled a chair。 And our strife
Lasted one reeling second; his knife
Lay and winked in the lights overhead。
And the waltz from the ballroom I heard;
When I called him a low; sneaking cur。
And the wail of the violins stirred
My brute anger with visions of her。
As I throttled his windpipe; the purr
Of his breath with the waltz became blurred。
I have ridden ten miles through the dark;
With that music; an infernal din;
Pounding rhythmic inside me。 Just Hark!
One! Two! Three! And my fingers sink in
To his flesh when the violins; thin
And straining with passion; grow stark。
One! Two! Three! Oh; the horror of sound!
While she danced I was crushing his throat。
He had tasted the joy of her; wound
Round her body; and I heard him gloat
On the favour。 That instant I smote。
One! Two! Three! How the dancers swirl round!
He is here in the room; in my arm;
His limp body hangs on the spin
Of the waltz we are dancing; a swarm
Of blood…drops is hemming us in!
Round and round! One! Two! Three! And his sin
Is red like his tongue lolling warm。
One! Two! Three! And the drums are his knell。
He is heavy; his feet beat the floor
As I drag him about in the swell
Of the waltz。 With a menacing roar;
The trumpets crash in through the door。
One! Two! Three! clangs his funeral bell。
One! Two! Three! In the chaos of space
Rolls the earth to the hideous glee
Of death! And so cramped is this place;
I stifle and pant。 One! Two! Three!
Round and round! God! 'Tis he throttles me!
He has covered my mouth with his face!
And his blood has dripped into my heart!
And my heart beats and labours。 One! Two!
Three! His dead limbs have coiled every part
Of my body in tentacles。 Through
My ears the waltz jangles。 Like glue
His dead body holds me athwart。
One! Two! Three! Give me air! Oh! My God!
One! Two! Three! I am drowning in slime!
One! Two! Three! And his corpse; like a clod;
Beats me into a jelly! The chime;
One! Two! Three! And his dead legs keep time。
Air! Give me air! Air! My God!
Clear; with Light; Variable Winds
The fountain bent and straightened itself
In the night wind;
Blowing like a flower。
It gleamed and glittered;
A tall white lily;
Under the eye of the golden moon。
From a stone seat;
Beneath a blossoming lime;
The man watched it。
And the spray pattered
On the dim grass at his feet。
The fountain tossed its water;
Up and up; like silver marbles。
Is that an arm he sees?
And for one moment
Does he catch the moving curve
Of a thigh?
The fountain gurgled and splashed;
And the man's face was wet。
Is it singing that he hears?
A song of playing at ball?
The moonlight shines on the straight column of water;
And through it he sees a woman;
Tossing the water…balls。
Her breasts point outwards;
And the nipples are like buds of peonies。
Her flanks ripple as she plays;
And the water is not more undulating
Than the lines of her body。
〃Come;〃 she sings; 〃Poet!
Am I not more worth than your day ladies;
Covered with awkward stuffs;
Unreal; unbeautiful?
What do you fear in taking me?
Is not the night for poets?
I am your dream;
Recurrent as water;
Gemmed with the moon!〃
She steps to the edge of the pool
And the water runs; rustling; down her sides。
She stretches out her arms;
And the fountain streams behind her
Like an opened veil。
* * * * *
In the morning the gardeners came to their work。
〃There is something in the fountain;〃 said one。
They shuddered as they laid their dead master
On the grass。
〃I will close his eyes;〃 said the head gardener;
〃It is uncanny to see a dead man staring at the sun。〃
The Basket
I
The inkstand is full of ink; and the paper lies white and unspotted;
in the round of light thrown by a candle。 Puffs of darkness sweep into
the corners; and keep rolling through the room behind his chair。 The air
is silver and pearl; for the night is liquid with moonlight。
See how the roof glitters; like ice!
Over there; a slice of yellow cuts into the silver…blue; and beside it stand
two geraniums; purple because the light is silver…blue; to…night。
See! She is coming; the young woman with the bright hair。
She swings a basket as she walks; which she places on the sill;
between the geranium stalks。 He laughs; and crumples his paper
as he leans forward to look。 〃The Basket Filled with Moonlight〃;
what a title for a book!
The bellying clouds swing over the housetops。
He has forgotten the woman in the room with the geraniums。 He is beating
his brain; and in his eardrums hammers his heavy pulse。 She sits
on the window…sill; with the basket in her lap。 And tap! She cracks a nut。
And tap! Another。 Tap! Tap! Tap! The shells ricochet upon the roof;
and get into the gutters; and bounce over the edge and disappear。
〃It is very queer;〃 thinks Peter; 〃the basket was empty; I'm sure。
How could nuts appear from the atmosphere?〃
The silver…blue moonlight makes the geraniums purple; and the roof glitters
like ice。
II
Five o'clock。 The geraniums are very gay in their crimson array。
The bellying clouds swing over the housetops; and over the roofs goes Peter
to pay his morning's work with a holiday。
〃Annette; it is I。 Have you finished? Can I come?〃
Peter jumps through the window。
〃Dear; are you alone?〃
〃Look; Peter; the dome of the tabernacle is done。 This gold thread
is so very high; I am glad it is morning; a starry sky would have
seen me bankrupt。 Sit down; now tell me; is your story going well?〃
The golden dome glittered in the orange of the setting sun。 On the walls;
at intervals; hung altar…cloths and chasubles; and copes; and stoles;
and coffin palls。 All stiff with rich embroidery; and stitched with
so much artistry; they seemed like spun and woven gems; or flower…buds
new…opened on their stems。
Annette looked at the geraniums; very red against the blue sky。
〃No matter how I try; I cannot find any thread of such a red。
My bleeding hearts drip stuff muddy in comparison。 Heigh…ho! See my little
pecking dove? I'm in love with my own temple。 Only that halo's wrong。
The colour's too strong; or not strong enough。 I don't know。 My eyes
are tired。 Oh; Peter; don't be so rough; it is valuable。 I won't do
any more。 I promise。 You tyrannise; Dear; that's enough。 Now sit down
and amuse me while I rest。〃
The shadows of the geraniums creep over the floor; and begin to climb
the opposite wall。
Peter watches her; fluid with fatigue; floating; and drifting;
and undulant in the orange glow。 His senses flow towards her;
where she lies supine and dreaming。 Seeming drowned in a golden halo。
The pungent sm