the jacket (the star-rover)-第67章

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secret；　rock…hewn　in　a　desert　valley　by　slaves　who　died　immediately

their　work　was　done。　。　。　。　And　I　wonder　me　here　in　Folsom；　while

democracy　dreams　its　enchantments　o'er　the　twentieth　century　world；

whether　there；　in　the　rock…hewn　crypt　of　that　secret；　desert　valley；

the　bones　still　abide　that　once　were　mine　and　that　stiffened　my

animated　body　when　I　was　an　Aryan　master　high…stomached　to　command。



And　on　the　great　drift；　southward　and　eastward　under　the　burning　sun

that　perished　all　descendants　of　the　houses　of　Asgard　and　Vanaheim；

I　have　been　a　king　in　Ceylon；　a　builder　of　Aryan　monuments　under

Aryan　kings　in　old　Java　and　old　Sumatra。　　And　I　have　died　a　hundred

deaths　on　the　great　South　Sea　drift　ere　ever　the　rebirth　of　me　came

to　plant　monuments；　that　only　Aryans　plant；　on　volcanic　tropic

islands　that　I；　Darrell　Standing；　cannot　name；　being　too　little

versed　to…day　in　that　far　sea　geography。



If　only　I　were　articulate　to　paint　in　the　frail　medium　of　words　what

I　see　and　know　and　possess　incorporated　in　my　consciousness　of　the

mighty　driftage　of　the　races　in　the　times　before　our　present　written

history　began！　　Yes；　we　had　our　history　even　then。　　Our　old　men；　our

priests；　our　wise　ones；　told　our　history　into　tales　and　wrote　those

tales　in　the　stars　so　that　our　seed　after　us　should　not　forget。

From　the　sky　came　the　life…giving　rain　and　the　sunlight。　　And　we

studied　the　sky；　learned　from　the　stars　to　calculate　time　and

apportion　the　seasons；　and　we　named　the　stars　after　our　heroes　and

our　foods　and　our　devices　for　getting　food；　and　after　our

wanderings；　and　drifts；　and　adventures；　and　after　our　functions　and

our　furies　of　impulse　and　desire。



And；　alas！　we　thought　the　heavens　unchanging　on　which　we　wrote　all

our　humble　yearnings　and　all　the　humble　things　we　did　or　dreamed　of

doing。　　When　I　was　a　Son　of　the　Bull；　I　remember　me　a　lifetime　I

spent　at　star…gazing。　　And；　later　and　earlier；　there　were　other

lives　in　which　I　sang　with　the　priests　and　bards　the　taboo…songs　of

the　stars　wherein　we　believed　was　written　our　imperishable　record。

And　here；　at　the　end　of　it　all；　I　pore　over　books　of　astronomy　from


the　prison　library；　such　as　they　allow　condemned　men　to　read；　and

learn　that　even　the　heavens　are　passing　fluxes；　vexed　with　star…

driftage　as　the　earth　is　by　the　drifts　of　men。



Equipped　with　this　modern　knowledge；　I　have；　returning　through　the

little　death　from　my　earlier　lives；　been　able　to　compare　the　heavens

then　and　now。　　And　the　stars　do　change。　　I　have　seen　pole　stars　and

pole　stars　and　dynasties　of　pole　stars。　　The　pole　star　to…day　is　in

Ursa　Minor。　　Yet；　in　those　far　days　I　have　seen　the　pole　star　in

Draco；　in　Hercules；　in　Vega；　in　Cygnus；　and　in　Cepheus。　　No；　not

even　the　stars　abide；　and　yet　the　memory　and　the　knowledge　of　them

abides　in　me；　in　the　spirit　of　me　that　is　memory　and　that　is

eternal。　　Only　spirit　abides。　　All　else；　being　mere　matter；　passes；

and　must　pass。



Oh；　I　do　see　myself　to…day　that　one　man　who　appeared　in　the　elder

world；　blonde；　ferocious；　a　killer　and　a　lover；　a　meat…eater　and　a

root…digger；　a　gypsy　and　a　robber；　who；　club　in　hand；　through

millenniums　of　years　wandered　the　world　around　seeking　meat　to

devour　and　sheltered　nests　for　his　younglings　and　sucklings。



I　am　that　man；　the　sum　of　him；　the　all　of　him；　the　hairless　biped

who　struggled　upward　from　the　slime　and　created　love　and　law　out　of

the　anarchy　of　fecund　life　that　screamed　and　squalled　in　the　jungle。

I　am　all　that　that　man　was　and　did　become。　　I　see　myself；　through

the　painful　generations；　snaring　and　killing　the　game　and　the　fish；

clearing　the　first　fields　from　the　forest；　making　rude　tools　of

stone　and　bone；　building　houses　of　wood；　thatching　the　roofs　with

leaves　and　straw；　domesticating　the　wild　grasses　and　meadow…roots；

fathering　them　to　become　the　progenitors　of　rice　and　millet　and

wheat　and　barley　and　all　manner　of　succulent　edibles；　learning　to

scratch　the　soil；　to　sow；　to　reap；　to　store；　beating　out　the　fibres

of　plants　to　spin　into　thread　and　to　weave　into　cloth；　devising

systems　of　irrigation；　working　in　metals；　making　markets　and　trade…

routes；　building　boats；　and　founding　navigationay；　and　organizing

village　life；　welding　villages　to　villages　till　they　became　tribes；

welding　tribes　together　till　they　became　nations；　ever　seeking　the

laws　of　things；　ever　making　the　laws　of　humans　so　that　humans　might

live　together　in　amity　and　by　united　effort　beat　down　and　destroy

all　manner　of　creeping；　crawling；　squalling　things　that　might　else

destroy　them。



I　was　that　man　in　all　his　births　and　endeavours。　　I　am　that　man　to…

day；　waiting　my　due　death　by　the　law　that　I　helped　to　devise　many　a

thousand　years　ago；　and　by　which　I　have　died　many　times　before　this；

many　times。　　And　as　I　contemplate　this　vast　past　history　of　me；　I

find　several　great　and　splendid　influences；　and；　chiefest　of　these；

the　love　of　woman；　man's　love　for　the　woman　of　his　kind。　　I　see

myself；　the　one　man；　the　lover；　always　the　lover。　　Yes；　also　was　I

the　great　fighter；　but　somehow　it　seems　to　me　as　I　sit　here　and

evenly　balance　it　all；　that　I　was；　more　than　aught　else；　the　great

lover。　　It　was　because　I　loved　greatly　that　I　was　the　great　fighter。



Sometimes　I　think　that　the　story　of　man　is　the　story　of　the　love　of

woman。　　This　memory　of　all　my　past　that　I　write　now　is　the　memory　of

my　love　of　woman。　　Ever；　in　the　ten　thousand　lives　and　guises；　I

loved　her。　　I　love　her　now。　　My　sleep　is　fraught　with　her；　my　waking

fancies；　no　matter　whence　they　start；　lead　me　always　to　her。　　There

is　no　escaping　her；　that　eternal；　splendid；　ever…resplendent　figure

of　woman。



Oh；　make　no　mistake。　　I　am　no　callow；　ardent　youth。　　I　am　an　elderly

man；　broken　in　health　and　body；　and　soon　to　die。　　I　am　a　scientist

and　a　philosopher。　　I；　as　all　the　generations　of　philosophers　before

me；　know　woman　for　what　she　isher　weaknesses；　and　meannesses；　and

immodesties；　and　ignobilities；　her　earth…bound　feet；　and　her　eyes

that　have　never　seen　the　stars。　　Butand　the　everlasting；

irrefragable　fact　remains：　　HER　FEET　ARE　BEAUTIFUL；　HER　EYES　ARE

BEAUTIFUL；　HER　ARMS　AND　BREASTS　ARE　PARADISE；　HER　CHARM　IS　POTENT

BEYOND　ALL　CHARM　THAT　HAS　EVER　DAZZLED　MEN；　AND；　AS　THE　POLE　WILLY…

NILLY　DRAWS　THE　NEEDLE；　JUST　SO；　WILLY…NILLY；　DOES　SHE　DRAW　MEN。



Woman　has　made　me　laugh　at　death　and　distance；　scorn　fatigue　and

sleep。　　I　have　slain　men；　many　men；　for　love　of　woman；　or　in　warm

blood　have　baptized　our　nuptials　or　washed　away　the　stain　of　her

favour　to　another。　　I　have　gone　down　to　death　and　dishonour；　my

betrayal　of　my　comrades　and　of　the　stars　black　upon　me；　for　woman's

sakefor　my　sake；　rather；　I　desired　her　so。　　And　I　have　lain　in　the

barley；　sick　with　yearning　for　her；　just　to　see　her　pass　and　glut　my

eyes　with　the　swaying　wonder　of　her　and　of　her　hair；　black　with　the

night；　or　brown　or　flaxen；　or　all　golden…dusty　with　the　sun。



For　woman　IS　beautiful　。　。　。　to　man。　　She　is　sweet　to　his　tongue；

and　fragrance　in　his　nostrils。　　She　is　fire　in　his　blood；　and　a

thunder　of　trumpets；　her　voice　is　beyond　all　music　in　his　ears；　and

she　can　shake　his　soul　that　else　stands　steadfast　in　the　draughty

presence　of　the　Titans　of　the　Light　and　of　the　Dark。　　And　beyond　his

star…gazing；　in　his　far…imagined　heavens；　Valkyrie　or　houri；　man　has

fain　made　place　for　her；　for　he　could　see　no　heaven　without　her。

And　the　sword；　in　battle；　singing；　sings　not　so　sweet　a　song　as　the

woman　sings　to　man　merely　by　her　laugh　in　the　moonlight；　or　her

love…sob　in　the　dark；　or　by　her　swaying　on　her　way　under　the　sun

while　he　lies　dizzy　with　longing　in　the　grass。



I　have　died　of　love。　　I　have　died　for　love；　as　you　shall　see。　　In　a

little　while　they　will　take　me　out；　me；　Darrell　Standing；　and　make

me　die。　　And　that　death　shall　be　for　love。　　Oh；　not　lightly　was　I

stirred　when　I　slew　Professor　Haskell　in　the　laboratory　at　the

University　of　California。　　He　was　a