the heir of redclyffe-第96章
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mamma;' she said。 'I am very glad; good night。'
She shut her eyes; and there was something in the sweet; obedient;
placid look of her face; as the white moonlight shone upon it; that
made her mother pause and gaze again with the feeling; only tenderer;
left by a beautiful poem。 Amy looked up to see why she delayed; she
gave her another kiss; and left her in the moonlight。
Little Amy's instinct was to believe the best and do as she was bidden;
and there was a quietness and confidence in the tone of her mind which
gave a sort of serenity of its own even to suspense。 A thankful; happy
sensation that all was well; mamma said so; and Guy was there; had
taken possession of her; and she did not agitate herself to know how or
why; for mamma; had told her to put herself to sleep; so she thought of
all the most thanksgiving verses of her store of poetry; and before the
moon had passed away from her window; Amabel Edmonstone was wrapped in
a sleep dreamless and tranquil as an infant's。
CHAPTER 26
Hence; bashful cunning;
And prompt me; plain and holy innocence。
I am your wife if you will marry me。TEMPEST
Amabel awoke to such a sense of relief and repose that she scarcely
liked to ask herself the cause; lest it might ruffle her complete
peace。 Those words 'all right;' seemed to be enough to assure her that
the cloud was gone。
Her mother came in; told her one or two of the main facts; and took her
down under her wing; only stopping by the way for a greeting to
Charles; who could not rise till after breakfast。 He held her fast;
and gazed up in her face; but she coloured so deeply; cast down her
eyes; and looked so meek and submissive; that he let her go; and said
nothing。
The breakfast party were for the most part quiet; silent; and happy。
Even Charlotte was hushed by the subdued feeling of the rest; and Mr。
Edmonstone's hilarity; though replied to in turn by each; failed to
wake them into mirth。 Guy ran up and down…stairs continually; to wait
upon Charles; and thus the conversation was always interrupted as fast
as it began; so that the only fact that came out was the cause of the
lateness of their arrival yesterday。 Mr。 Edmonstone had taken it for
granted that Guy; like Philip; would watch for the right time; and warn
him; while Guy; being excessively impatient; had been so much afraid of
letting himself fidget; as to have suffered the right moment to pass;
and then borne all the blame。
'How you must have wanted to play the Harmonious Blacksmith;' said
Charlotte。
'I caught myself going through the motions twice;' said Guy。
Mrs。 Edmonstone said to herself that he might contest the palm of
temper with Amy even; the difference being; that hers was naturally
sweet; his a hasty one; so governed that the result was the same。 When
breakfast was over; as they were rising; Guy made two steps towards
Amabel; at whom he had hitherto scarcely looked; and said; very low; in
his straightforward way: 'Can I speak to you a little while?'
Amy's face glowed as she moved towards him; and her mother said
something about the drawing…room; where the next moment she found
herself。 She did not use any little restless arts to play with her
embarrassment; she did not torment the flowers or the chimney
ornaments; nor even her own rings; she stood with her hands folded and
her head a little bent down; like a pendant blossom; ready to listen to
whatever might be said to her。
He did not speak at first; but moved uneasily about。 At last he came
nearer; and began speaking fast and nervously。
'Amabel; I want you to consideryou really ought to think whether this
is not a very bad thing for you。'
The drooping head was raised; the downcast lids lifted up; and the blue
eyes fixed on him with a look at once confiding and wondering。 He
proceeded
'I have brought you nothing but unhappiness already。 So far as you
have taken any interest in me; it could cause you only pain; and the
more I think of it; the more unfit it seems that one so formed for
light; and joy; and innocent mirth; should have anything to do with the
darkness that is round me。 Think well of it。 I feel as if I had done
a selfish thing by you; and now; you know; you are not bound。 You are
quite free! No one knows anything about it; or if they did; the blame
would rest entirely with me。 I would take care it should。 So; Amy;
think; and think well; before you risk your happiness。'
'As to that;' replied Amy; in a soft; low voice; with _such_ a look of
truth in her clear eyes; 'I must care for whatever happens to you; and
I had rather it was with you; than without you;' she said; casting them
down again。
'My Amy!my own!my Verena!'and he held fast one of her hands; as
they sat together on the sofa'I had a feeling that so it might be
through the very worst; yet I can hardly believe it now。'
'Guy;' said Amy; looking up; with the gentle resolution that had lately
grown on her; 'you must not take me for more than I am worth; and I
should like to tell you fairly。 I did not speak last time; because it
was all so strange and so delightful; and I had no time to think;
because I was so confused。 But that is a long time ago; and this has
been a very sad winter; and I have thought a great deal。 I know; and
you know; too; that I am a foolish little thing; I have been silly
little Amy always; you and Charlie have helped me to all the sense I
have; and I don't think I could ever be a clever; strong…minded woman;
such as one admires。'
'Heaven forbid!' ejaculated Guy; moved; perhaps; by a certain
remembrance of St。 Mildred's。
'But;' continued Amy; 'I believe I do really wish to be good; and I
know you have helped me to wish it much more; and I have been trying to
learn to bear things; and so'out came something; very like a sunny
smile; though some tears followed'so if you do like such a silly
little thing; it can't be helped; and we will try to make the best of
her。 Only don't say any more about my being happier without you; for
one thing I am very sure of; Guy; I had rather bear anything with you;
than know you were bearing it alone。 I am only afraid of being foolish
and weak; and making things worse for you。'
'So much worse! But still;' he added; 'speak as you may; my Amy; I
cannot; must not; feel that I have a right to think of you as my own;
till you have heard all。 You ought to know what my temper is before
you risk yourself in its power。 Amy; my first thought towards Philip
was nothing short of murder。'
She raised her eyes; and saw how far entirely he meant what he said。
'The firstnot the second;' she murmured。
'Yes; the secondthe third。 There was a moment when I could have
given my soul for my revenge!'
'Only a moment!'
'Only a moment; thank Heaven! and I have not done quite so badly since。
I hope I have not suffered quite in vain; but if that shock could
overthrow all my wonted guards; it might; though I pray Heaven it may
not; it might happen again。'
'I think you conquered yourself then; and that you will again;' said
Amy。
'And suppose I was ever to be mad enough to be angry with you?'
Amy smiled outright here。 'Of course; I should deserve it; but I think
the trouble would be the comforting you afterwards。 Mamma said'she
added; after a long silence; during which Guy's feeling would not let
him speak'mamma said; and I think; that you are much safer and better
with such a quick temper as yours; because you are always struggling
and fighting with it; on the real true religious ground; than a person
more even tempered by nature; but not so much in earnest in doing
right。'
'Yes; if I did not believe myself to be in earnest about that; I could
never dare to speak to you at all。'
'We will help each