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and there scattered with passages of exquisite beauty and harmony; and 

full of power and grace。  No one could have looked at them without 

owning in them the marks of a thorough poet; but this was not what the 

wife was seeking; and when she perceived it; though it made her face 

beam with a sort of satisfied pride; it was a secondary thing。  She was 

studying not his intellect; but his soul; she did not care whether he 

would have been a poet; what she looked for was the record of the 

sufferings and struggles of the sad six months when his character was 

established; strengthened; and settled。



She found it。  There was much to which she alone had the clue; too 

deep; and too obscurely hinted; to be understood at a glance。  She met 

with such evidence of suffering as made her shudder and weep; tokens of 

the dark thoughts that had gathered round him; of the manful spirit of 

penitence and patience that had been his stay; and of the gleams that 

lighted his darkest hours; and showed he had never been quite forsaken。  

Now and then came a reference which brought home what he had told her; 

how the thought of his Verena had cheered him when he dared not hope 

she would be restored。  Best of all were the lines written when the 

radiance of Christmas was; once for all; dispersing the gloom; and the 

vision opening on him; which he was now realizing。  In reading them; 

she felt the same marvellous sympathy of subdued wondering joy in the 

victory of which she had partaken as she knelt beside his death…bed。  

These were the last。  He had been too happy for poetry; except one or 

two scraps in Switzerland; and these had been hers from the time she 

had detected them。



No wonder Amabel almost lived on those papers!  It would not be too 

much to say she was very happy in her own way when alone with them; the 

desk on a chair by her sofa。  They were too sacred for any one else; 

she did not for many weeks show one even to her mother; but to her they 

were like a renewal of his presence; soothing the craving after him 

that had been growing on her ever since the first few days when his 

sustaining power had not passed away。  As she sorted them; and made out 

their dates; finding fresh stores of meaning at each fresh perusal she 

learnt through them; as well as through her own trial; so patiently 

borne; to enter into his character even more fully than when he was in 

her sight。  Mrs。 Edmonstone; who had at first been inclined to dread 

her constant dwelling on them; soon perceived that they were her great 

aids through this sad winter。



She had much pleasure in receiving the portrait; which was sent her by 

Mr。 Shene。  It was a day or two before she could resolve to look at it; 

or feel that she could do so calmly。  It was an unfinished sketch; 

taken more with a view to the future picture than to the likeness; but 

Guy's was a face to be better represented by being somewhat idealized; 

than by copying merely the material form of the features。  An ordinary 

artist might have made him like a Morville; but Mr。 Shene had shown all 

that art could convey of his individual self; with almost one of his 

unearthly looks。  The beautiful eyes; with somewhat of their peculiar 

lightsomeness; the flexible look of the lip; the upward pose of the 

head; the set of that lock of hair that used to wave in the wind; the 

animated position; 'just ready for a start;' as Charles used to call 

it; were recalled as far as was in the power of chalk and crayon; but 

so as to remind Amabel of him more as one belonging to heaven than to 

earth。  The picture used to be on her mantel…shelf all night; the 

shipwreck cross before it; and Sintram and Redclyffe on each side; and 

she brought it into the dressing…room with her in the morning; setting 

it up opposite to the sofa; before settling herself。



Her days were much alike。  She felt far from well; or capable of 

exertion; and was glad it was thought right to keep her entirely 

upstairs; she only wished to spare her mother anxiety; by being 

submissive to her care; in case these cares should be the last for her。  

She did not dwell on the future; nor ask herself whether she looked for 

life or death。  Guy had bidden her not desire the last; and she 

believed she did not form a wish; but there was repose to her in the 

belief that she ought not to conceal from herself that there was more 

than ordinary risk; and that it was right to complete all her affairs 

in this world; and she was silent when her mother tried to interest her 

in prospects that might cheer her; as if afraid to fasten on them; and 

finding more peace in entire submission; than in feeding herself on 

hope that must be coupled with fear。



Christmas…day was not allowed to pass without being a festival for her; 

in her quiet room; where she lay; full of musings on his lonely 

Christmas night last year; his verses folded among her precious books; 

and the real joy of the season more within her grasp than in the 

turmoil of last year。  She was not afraid now to let herself fancy his 

voice in the Angel's Song; and the rainbow was shining on her cloud。









CHAPTER 38







The coldness from my heart is gone;

But still the weight is there;

And thoughts which I abhor will come

To tempt me to despair。SOUTHEY





Amabel's one anxiety was for Philip。  For a long time nothing was heard 

of him at Hollywell; and she began to fear that he might have been less 

fit to take care of himself than he had persuaded her to believe。  When 

at length tidings reached them; it was through the De Courcys。  'Poor 

Morville;' wrote Maurice; 'had been carried ashore at Corfu; in the 

stupor of a second attack of fever。  He had been in extreme danger for 

some time; and though now on the mend; was still unable to give any 

account of himself。'



In effect; it was a relapse of the former disease; chiefly affecting 

the brain; and his impatience to leave Recoara; and free himself from 

Arnaud; had been a symptom of its approach; though it fortunately did 

not absolutely overpower him till after he had embarked for Corfu; and 

was in the way to be tended with the greatest solicitude。  Long after 

the fever was subdued; and his strength returning; his mind was astray; 

and even when torturing delusions ceased; and he resumed the perception 

of surrounding objects; memory and reflection wavered in dizzy 

confusion; more distressing than either his bodily weakness; or the 

perpetual pain in his head; which no remedy could relieve。



The first date to which he could afterwards recur; though for more than 

a week he had apparently been fully himself; was a time when he was 

sitting in an easy…chair by the window; obliged to avert his heavy eyes 

from the dazzling waters of the Corcyran bay; where Ulysses' 

transformed ship gleamed in the sunshine; and the rich purple hills of 

Albania sloped upwards in the distance。  James Thorndale was; as usual; 

with him; and was explaining that there had been a consultation between 

the doctor and the colonel; and they had decided that as there was not 

much chance of restoring his health in that climate in the spring。



'Spring!' he interrupted; with surprise and eagerness; 'Is it spring?'



'Hardlyexcept that there is no winter here。  This is the 8th of 

January。'



He let his head fall on his hand again; and listened with indifference 

when told he was to be sent to England at once; under the care of his 

servant; Bolton; and Mr。 Thorndale himself; who was resolved to see him 

safe in his sister's hands。  He made no objection; he had become used 

to be passive; and one place was much the same to him as another; so he 

merely assented; without a question about the arrangements。  Presently; 

however; he looked up; and inquired for his letters。  Though he had 

done so before; the request had always been evaded; until now he spoke 

in a manner which decided hi

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