the price she paid-第4章

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Young　Gower　rose。　　‘‘I　must　decline　to　have　anything　further　to　say　to　you；　sir；''　said　he。　　‘‘You　will　leave　this　office；　and　you　will　not　be　admitted　here　again　unless　you　come　with　proper　papers　as　administrator。''

Conover　smiled　with　cold　satisfaction　and　departed。　There　followed　a　series　of　quarrelsbetween　Frank　and　his　sister；　between　Frank　and　his　mother；　between　Frank's　wife　and　his　mother；　between　Mildred　and　her　mother；　between　the　mother　and　Conover。　　Mrs。　Gower　was　suspicious　of　her　son；　but　she　knew　her　brother　for　a　pinchpenny；　exacting　the　last　drop　of　what　he　regarded　as　his　own。　　And　she　discovered　that；　if　she　authorized　him　to　act　as　administrator　for　her；　he　could　and　beyond　question　wouldtake　a　large　share　of　the　estate。　　The　upshot　was　that　Frank　paid　over　to　his　mother　and　sister　forty…seven　thousand　dollars；　and　his　mother　and　her　brother　stopped　speaking　to　each　other。

‘‘I　see　that　you　have　turned　over　all　your　money　to　mother；''　said　Frank　to　Mildred　a　few　days　after　the　settlement。

‘‘Of　course；''　said　Mildred。　　She　was　in　a　mood　of　high　scorn　for　sordidnessa　mood　induced　by　the　spectacle　of　the　shameful　manners　of　Conover；　Frank；　and　his　wife。

‘‘Do　you　think　that's　wise？''　suggested　Frank。

‘‘I　think　it's　decent；''　said　Mildred。

‘‘Well；　I　hope　you'll　not　live　to　regret　it；''　said　her　brother。

Neither　Mrs。　Gower　nor　her　daughter　had　ever　had　any　experience　in　the　care　of　money。　　To　both　forty…　seven　thousand　dollars　seemed　a　fortuneforty…seven　thousand　dollars　in　cash　in　the　bank；　ready　to　issue　forth　and　do　their　bidding　at　the　mere　writing　of　a　few　figures　and　a　signature　on　a　piece　of　paper。　　In　a　sense　they　knew　that　for　many　years　the　family's　annual　expenses　had　ranged　between　forty　and　fifty　thousand；　but　in　the　sense　of　actuality　they　knew　nothing　about　ita　state　of　affairs　common　enough　in　families　where　the　man　is　in　absolute　control　and　spends　all　he　makes。　　Money　always　had　been　forthcomcoming；｛sic｝　therefore　money　always　would　be　forthcoming。

The　mourning　and　the　loss　of　the　person　who　had　filled　and　employed　their　lives　caused　the　widow　and　the　daughter　to　live　very　quietly　during　the　succeeding　year。　　They　spent　only　half　of　their　capital。　　For　reasons　of　selfish　and　far…sighted　prudence　which　need　no　detailing　Frank　moved　away　to　New　York　within　six　months　of　his　father's　death　and　reduced　communication　between　himself　and　wife　and　his　mother　and　sister　to　a　frigid　and　rapidly　congealing　minimum。　He　calculated　that　by　the　time　their　capital　was　con…　sumed　they　would　have　left　no　feeling　of　claim　upon　him　or　he　feeling　of　duty　toward　them。

It　was　not　until　eighteen　months　after　her　father's　death；　when　the　total　capital　was　sunk　to　less　than　fifteen　thousand　dollars；　that　Mildred　awakened　to　the　truth　of　their　plight。　　A　few　months　at　most；　and　they　would　have　to　give　up　that　beautiful　house　which　had　been　her　home　all　her　life。　　She　tried　to　grasp　the　meaning　of　the　facts　as　her　intelligence　presented　them　to　her；　but　she　could　not。　　She　had　no　practical　training　whatever。　　She　had　been　brought　up　as　a　rich　man's　child；　to　be　married　to　a　rich　man；　and　never　to　know　anything　of　the　material　details　of　life　beyond　what　was　necessary　in　managing　servants　after　the　indifferent　fashion　of　the　usual　American　woman　of　the　comfortable　classes。　　She　had　always　had　a　maid；　she　could　not　even　dress　herself　properly　without　the　maid's　assistance。　　Life　without　a　maid　was　inconceivable；　life　without　servants　was　impossible。

She　wandered　through　the　house；　through　the　grounds。　　She　said　to　herself　again　and　again：　　‘‘We　have　got　to　give　up　all　this；　and　be　miserably　poor　with　not　a　servant；　with　less　than　the　tenement　people　have。''　　But　the　words　conveyed　no　meaning　to　her。　She　said　to　herself　again　and　again：　　‘‘I　must　rouse　myself。　　I　must　do　something。　　I　mustmust　must！''　　But　she　did　not　rouse；　because　there　was　nothing　to　rouse。　　So　far　as　practical　life　was　concerned　she　was　as　devoid　of　ideas　as　a　new…born　baby。

There　was　but　the　one　hopemarriage；　a　rich　marriage。　　It　is　the　habit　of　men　who　can　take　care　of　themselves　and　of　women　who　are　securely　well　taken　care　of　to　scorn　the　woman　or　the　helpless…bred　man　who　marries　for　money　or　even　entertains　that　idea。　How　little　imagination　these　scorners　have！　　To　marry　for　a　mere　living；　hardly　better　than　one　could　make　for　oneself；　assuredly　does　show　a　pitiful　lack　of　self…　reliance；　a　melancholy　lack　of　self…respect。　　But　for　men　or　women　all　their　lives　used　to　luxury　and　with　no　ability　whatever　at　earning　moneyfor　such　persons　to　marry　money　in　order　to　save　themselves　from　the　misery　and　shame　that　poverty　means　to　them　is　the　most　natural；　the　most　human　action　conceivable。　　The　man　or　the　woman　who　says　he　or　she　would　not　do　it；　either　is　a　hypocrite　or　is　talking　without　thinking。　You　may　in　honesty　criticize　and　condemn　a　social　system　that　suffers　men　and　women　to　be　so　crudely　and　criminally　miseducated　by　being　given　luxury　they　did　not　earn。　　But　to　condemn　the　victims　of　that　system　for　acting　as　its　logic　compels　is　sheer　folly　or　sheer　phariseeism。

Would　Mildred　Gower　have　married　for　money？　　As　the　weeks　fled；　as　the　bank　account　dwindled；　she　would　have　grasped　eagerly　at　any　rich　man　who　might　have　offered　himselfno　matter　how　repellent　he　might　have　been。　　She　did　not　want　a　bare　living；　she　did　not　want　what　passes　with　the　mass　of　middle…class　people　for　comfort。　　She　wanted　what　she　hadthe　beautiful　and　spacious　house；　the　costly　and　fashionable　clothing；　the　servants；　the　carriages　and　motors；　the　thousand　and　one　comforts；　luxuries；　and　vanities　to　which　she　had　always　been　used。　　In　the　brain　of　a　young　woman　of　poor　or　only　comfortably　off　family　the　thoughts　that　seethed　in　Mildred　Gower's　brain　would　have　been　so　many　indications　of　depravity。　　In　Mildred　Gower's　brain　they　were　the　natural；　the　inevitable；　thoughts。　They　indicated　everything　as　to　her　training；　nothing　as　to　her　character。　　So；　when　she；　thinking　only　of　a　rich　marriage　with　no　matter　whom；　and　contrasting　herself　with　the　fine　women　portrayed　in　the　novels　and　plays；　condemned　herself　as　shameless　and　degraded；　she　did　herself　grave　injustice。

But　no　rich　man；　whether　attractive　or　repulsive；　offered。　　Indeed；　no　man　of　any　kind　offered。　　Instead；　it　was　her　mother　who　married。

A　widower　named　James　Presbury；　elderly；　with　an　income　of　five　to　six　thousand　a　year　from　inherited　wealth；　stumbled　into　Hanging　Rock　to　live；　was　impressed　by　the　style　the　widow　Gower　maintained；　believed　the　rumor　that　her　husband　had　left　her　better　off　than　was　generally　thought；　proposed；　and　was　accepted。　　And　two　years　and　a　month　after　Henry　Gower's　death　his　widow　became　Mrs。　James　Presbury　and　ceased　to　veil　from　her　new　husband　the　truth　as　to　her　affairs。

Mildred　had　thought　that；　than　the　family　quarrels　incident　to　settling　her　father's　estate；　human　nature　could　no　lower　descend。　　She　was　now　to　be　disillusioned。　When　a　young　man　or　a　young　woman　blunders　into　a　poor　marriage　in　trying　to　make　a　rich　one；　he　or　she　is　usually　withheld　from　immediate　and　frank　expression　by　the　timidity　of　youth。　　Not　so　the　elderly　man　or　woman。　　As　we　grow　older；　no　mat…　ter　how　timidly　conventional　we　are　by　nature；　we　become；　through　selfishness　or　through　indifference　to　the　opinion　of　others　or　through　impatience　of　petty　restraint；　more　and　more　outspoken。　　Old　Presbury　discovered　how　he　had　tricked　himself　four　days　after　the　wedding。　　He　and　his　bride　were　at　the　Waldorf　in　New　York；　a…honeymooning。

The　bride　had　never　professed　to　be　rich。　　She　had　simply　continued　in　her　lifelong　way；　had　simply　acted　rich。　　She　well　knew　the　gaudy　delusions　her　admirer　was　entertaining；　and　she　saw　to　it　that　nothing　was　said　or　done　to　disturb　him。　　She　inquired　into　his　affairs；　made　sure　of　the　substantiality　of　the　comparatively　small　income　he　possessed；　decided　to　accept　him　as　her　best　available　chance　to　escape　becoming　a　charge　upon　her　anything　but　eager　and　generous　relatives。　　She　awaited　the　explosion　with　serenity。　She　cared　not　a　flip　for　Presbury；　who　was　a　soft　and　silly　old　fool；　full　of　antiquated　compliments　and　so