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spoiled a little of his pleasure in the praiseshe thought they were
unqualified and enthusiastic praisesshe had been heaping upon Alice。 He
wished to go to bed with them all sweet and unalloyed in his thought; to
sleep; to dream upon his perfect triumph。
Mrs。 Pasmer was a long time in undressing; and in calming down after the
demands which the different events of the evening had made upon her
resources。
〃It has certainly been a very mixed evening; Alice;〃 she said; as she took
the pins out of her back hair and let it fall; and she continued to talk
as she went back and forth between their rooms。 〃What do you think of
banjo…playing for young ladies? Isn't it rather rowdy? Decidedly rowdy;
I think。 And Dan's Yankee story! I expected to see the old gentleman get
up and perform some trick。〃
〃I suppose they do it to amuse Mrs。 Mavering;〃 said Alice; with cold
displeasure。
〃Oh; it's quite right;〃 tittered Mrs。 Pasmer。 〃It would be as much as
their lives are worth if they didn't。 You can see that she rules them
with a rod of iron。 What a will! I'm glad you're not going to come under
her sway; I really think you couldn't be safe from her in the same
hemisphere; it's well you're going abroad at once。 They're a very self…
concentrated family; don't you thinkvery self…satisfied? Of course
that's the danger of living off by themselves as they do: they get to
thinking there's nobody else in the world。 You would simply be absorbed
by them: it's a hair…breadth escape。
How splendidly Dan contrasts with the others! Oh; he's delightful; he's a
man of the world。 Give me the world; after all! And he's so considerate
of their rustic conceit! What a house! It's perfectly baronialand
ridiculous。 In any other country it would mean somethingsociety;
entertainments; troops of guests; but here it doesn't mean anything but
money。 Not that money isn't a very good thing; I wish we had more of it。
But now you see how very little it can do by itself。 You looked very
well; Alice; and behaved with great dignity; perhaps too much。 You ought
to enter a little more into the spirit of things; even if you don't
respect them。 That oldest girl isn't particularly pleased; I fancy;
though it doesn't matter really。〃
Alice replied to her mother from time to time with absent Yeses and Noes;
she sat by the window looking out on the hillside lawn before the house;
the moon had risen; and poured a flood of snowy light over it; in which
the cold statues dimly shone; and the firs; in clumps and singly;
blackened with an inky solidity。 Beyond wandered the hills; their bare
pasturage broken here and there by blotches of woodland。
After her mother had gone to bed she turned her light down and resumed her
seat by the window; pressing her hot forehead against the pane; and losing
all sense of the scene without in the whirl of her thoughts。
After this; evening of gay welcome in Dan's family; and those moments of
tenderness with him; her heart was troubled。 She now realised her
engagement as something exterior to herself and her own family; and
confronted for the first time its responsibilities; its ties; and its
claims。 It was not enough to be everything to Dan; she could not be that
unless she were something to his family。 She did not realise this
vividly; but with the remoteness which all verities except those of
sensation have for youth。
Her uneasiness was full of exultation; of triumph; she knew she had been
admired by Dan's family; and she experienced the sweetness of having
pleased them for his sake; his happy eyes shone before her; but she was
touched in her self…love by what her mother had coarsely characterised in
them。 They had regarded her liking them as a matter of course; his mother
had ignored her even in pretending to decry Dan to her。 But again this
was very remote; very momentary。 It was no nearer; no more lasting on the
surface of her happiness; than the flying whiff's of thin cloud that
chased across the moon and lost themselves in the vast blue around it。
XXXV。
People came to the first of Mrs。 James Bellingham's receptions with the
expectation of pleasure which the earlier receptions of the season awaken
even in the oldest and wisest。 But they tried to dissemble their
eagerness in a fashionable tardiness。 〃We get later and later;〃 said Mrs。
'Brinkley to John Munt; as she sat watching the slow gathering of the
crowd。 By half…past eleven it had not yet hidden Mrs。 Bellingham; where
she stood near the middle of the room; from the pleasant corner they had
found after accidentally arriving together。 Mr。 Brinkley had not come; he
said he might not be too old for receptions; but he was too good; in
either case he preferred to stay at home。 〃We used to come at nine
o'clock; and now we come at I'm getting into a quotation from Mother
Goose; I think。〃
〃I thought it was Browning;〃 said Munt; with his witticism manner。
Neither he nor Mrs。 Brinkley was particularly glad to be together; but at
Mrs。 James Bellingham's it was well not to fling any companionship away
till you were sure of something else。 Besides; Mrs。 Brinkley was indolent
and good…natured; and Munt was active and good…natured; and they were well
fitted to get on for ten or fifteen minutes。 While they talked she kept
an eye out for other acquaintance; and he stood alert to escape at the
first chance。 〃How is it we are here so earlyor rather you are?〃 she
pursued irrelevantly。
〃Oh; I don't know;〃 said Munt; accepting the implication of his superior
fashion with pleasure。 〃I never mind being among the first。 It's rather
interesting to see people come indon't you think?〃
〃That depends a good deal on the people。 I don't find a great variety in
their smirks and smiles to Mrs。 Bellingham; I seem to be doing them all
myself。 And there's a monotony about their apprehension and helplessness
when they're turned adrift that's altogether too much like my own。 No;
Mr。 Munt; I can't agree with you that it's interesting to see people come
in。 It's altogether too autobiographical。 What else have you to
suggest?〃
〃I'm afraid I'm at the end of my string;〃 said Munt。 〃I suppose we shall
see the Pasmers and young Mavering here to…night。〃
Mrs。 Brinkley turned and looked sharply at him。
〃You've heard of the engagement?〃 he asked。
〃No; decidedly; I haven't。 And after his flight from Campobello it's the
last thing I expected to hear of。 When did it come out?〃
〃Only within a few days。 They've been keeping it rather quiet。 Mrs。
Pasmer told me herself。〃
Mrs。 Brinkley gave herself a moment for reflection。 〃Well; if he can
stand it; I suppose I can。〃
〃That isn't exactly what people are saying to Mrs。 Pasmer; Mrs。 Brinkley;〃
suggested Munt; with his humorous manner。
〃I dare say they're trying to make her believe that her daughter is
sacrificed。 That's the way。 But she knows better。〃
〃There's no doubt but she's informed herself。 She put me through my
catechism about the Maverings the day of the picnic down there。〃
〃Do you know them?〃
〃Bridge Mavering and I were at Harvard together。〃
〃Tell me about them。〃 Mrs。 Brinkley listened to Munt's praises of his old
friend with an attention superficially divided with the people to whom she
bowed and smiled。 The room was filling up。 〃Well;〃 she said at the end;
〃he's a sweet young fellow。 I hope he likes his Pasmers。〃
〃I guess there's no doubt about his liking one of themthe principal
one。〃
〃Yes; if she is the principal one。〃 There was an implication in
everything she said that Dan Mavering had been hoodwinked by Mrs。 Pasmer。
Mature ladies always like to imply something of the sort in these cases。
They like to ignore the prime agency of youth and love; and pretend that
marriage is a game that parents play at with us; as if we were in an old
comedy; it is a tradition。 〃Will he take her home to live?〃
〃No。 I heard that they're all going abroadfor a year; or two at least。〃
〃Ah! I thought so;〃 cried Mrs。 Brinkley。 She looked up with whimsical
pleasure in the uncertainty of an old gentleman who is staring hard at her
through his glasses。 〃Well;〃 she said with a plea