dream days-第4章

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hamper　to　Edward　at　school。　　Only　one　hamper　a　term　was　permitted

him；　so　its　preparation　was　a　sort　of　blend　of　revelry　and

religious　ceremony。　　After　the　main　corpus　of　the　thing　had　been

carefully　selected　and　safely　bestowedthe　pots　of　jam；　the

cake；　the　sausages；　and　the　apples　that　filled　up　corners　so

nicelyafter　the　last　package　had　been　wedged　in；　the　girls　had

deposited　their　own　private　and　personal　offerings　on　the　top。　　I

forget　their　precise　nature；　anyhow；　they　were　nothing　of　any

particular　practical　use　to　a　boy。　　But　they　had　involved　some

contrivance　and　labour；　some　skimping　of　pocket　money；　and　much

delightful　cloud…building　as　to　the　effect　on　their　enraptured

recipient。　　Well；　yesterday　there　had　come　a　terse

acknowledgment　from　Edward；　heartily　commending　the　cakes　and　the

jam；　stamping　the　sausages　with　the　seal　of　Smith　major's

approval；　and　finally　hinting　that；　fortified　as　he　now　was；

nothing　more　was　necessary　but　a　remittance　of　five　shillings　in

postage　stamps　to　enable　him　to　face　the　world　armed　against

every　buffet　of　fate。　　That　was　all。　　Never　a　word　or　a　hint　of

the　personal　tributes　or　of　his　appreciation　of　them。　　To　usto

Harold　and　me；　that　isthe　letter　seemed　natural　and　sensible

enough。　　After　all；　provender　was　the　main　thing；　and　five

shillings　stood　for　a　complete　equipment　against　the　most

unexpected　turns　of　luck。　　The　presents　were　very　well　in　their

wayvery　nice；　and　so　onbut　life　was　a　serious　matter；　and　the

contest　called　for　cakes　and　half　crowns　to　carry　it　on；　not　gew…

gaws　and　knitted　mittens　and　the　like。　　The　girls；　however；

in　their　obstinate　way；　persisted　in　taking　their　own　view　of　the

slight。　　Hence　it　was　that　I　received　my　second　rebuff　of　the

morning。



Somewhat　disheartened；　I　made　my　way　downstairs　and　out　into　the

sunlight；　where　I　found　Harold　playing　conspirators　by　himself　on

the　gravel。　　He　had　dug　a　small　hole　in　the　walk　and　had　laid　an

imaginary　train　of　powder　thereto；　and；　as　he　sought　refuge　in

the　laurels　from　the　inevitable　explosion；　I　heard　him　murmur：　

〃‘My　God！'　said　the　Czar；　‘my　plans　are　frustrated！'〃　　It　seemed

an　excellent　occasion　for　being　a　black　puma。　　Harold　liked　black

pumas；　on　the　whole；　as　well　as　any　animal　we　were　familiar　with。



So　I　launched　myself　on　him；　with　the　appropriate　howl；　rolling

him　over　on　the　gravel。



Life　may　be　said　to　be　composed　of　things　that　come　off　and

things　that　don't　come　off。　　This　thing；　unfortunately；　was　one

of　the　things　that　didn't　come　off。　　From　beneath　me　I　heard　a

shrill　cry　of；　〃Oh；　it's　my　sore　knee！〃　　And　Harold　wriggled

himself　free　from　the　puma's　clutches；　bellowing　dismally。　　Now；

I　honestly　didn't　know　he　had　a　sore　knee；　and；　what's　more；　he

knew　I　didn't　know　he　had　a　sore　knee。　　According　to　boy　ethics；

therefore；　his　attitude　was　wrong；　sore　knee　or　not；　and　no

apology　was　due　from　me。　　I　made　half…way　advances；　however；

suggesting　we　should　lie　in　ambush　by　the　edge　of　the　pond　and

cut　off　the　ducks　as　they　waddled　down　in　simple；　unsuspecting

single　file；　then　hunt　them　as　bisons　flying　scattered　over　the

vast　prairie。　　A　fascinating　pursuit　this；　and　strictly　illicit。　

But　Harold　would　none　of　my　overtures；　and　retreated　to　the　house

wailing　with　full　lungs。



Things　were　getting　simply　infernal。　　I　struck　out　blindly　for

the　open　country；　and　even　as　I　made　for　the　gate　a　shrill　voice

from　a　window　bade　me　keep　off　the　flower…beds。　　When　the　gate

had　swung　to　behind　me　with　a　vicious　click　I　felt　better；　and

after　ten　minutes　along　the　road　it　began　to　grow　on　me　that　some

radical　change　was　needed；　that　I　was　in　a　blind　alley；　and　that

this　intolerable　state　of　things　must　somehow　cease。　　All　that　I

could　do　I　had　already　done。　　As　well…meaning　a　fellow　as　ever

stepped　was　pounding　along　the　road　that　day；　with　an　exceeding

sore　heart；　one　who　only　wished　to　live　and　let　live；　in　touch

with　his　fellows；　and　appreciating　what　joys　life　had　to　offer。　

What　was　wanted　now　was　a　complete　change　of　environment。　　Some

where　in　the　world；　I　felt　sure；　justice　and　sympathy　still

resided。　　There　were　places　called　pampas；　for　instance；　that

sounded　well。　　League　upon　league　of　grass；　with　just　an

occasional　wild　horse；　and　not　a　relation　within　the　horizon！　　To

a　bruised　spirit　this　seemed　a　sane　and　a　healing　sort　of

existence。　　There　were　other　pleasant　corners；　again；　where　you

dived　for　pearls　and　stabbed　sharks　in　the　stomach　with　your　big

knife。　　No　relations　would　be　likely　to　come　interfering　with　you

when　thus　blissfully　occupied。　　And　yet　I　did　not　wishjust

yetto　have　done　with　relations　entirely。　　They　should　be　made

to　feel　their　position　first；　to　see　themselves　as　they　really

were；　and　to　wishwhen　it　was　too　latethat　they　had　behaved

more　properly。



Of　all　professions；　the　army　seemed　to　lend　itself　the　most

thoroughly　to　the　scheme。　　You　enlisted；　you　followed　the　drum；

you　marched；　fought；　and　ported　arms；　under　strange　skies；

through　unrecorded　years。　　At　last；　at　long　last；

your　opportunity　would　come；　when　the　horrors　of　war　were

flickering　through　the　quiet　country…side　where　you　were　cradled

and　bred；　but　where　the　memory　of　you　had　long　been　dim。　　Folk

would　run　together；　clamorous；　palsied　with　fear；　and　among　the

terror…stricken　groups　would　figure　certain　aunts。　　〃What　hope　is

left　us？〃　they　would　ask　themselves；　〃save　in　the　clemency　of　the

General；　the　mysterious；　invincible　General；　of　whom　men　tell

such　romantic　tales？〃　　And　the　army　would　march　in；　and　the　guns

would　rattle　and　leap　along　the　village　street；　and；　last　of　all；

youyou；　the　General；　the　fabled　heroyou　would　enter；　on　your

coal…black　charger；　your　pale　set　face　seamed　by　an　interesting

sabre…cut。　　And　thenbut　every　boy　has　rehearsed　this　familiar

piece　a　score　of　times。　　You　are　magnanimous；　in　finethat　goes

without　saying；　you　have　a　coal…black　horse；　and　a　sabre…cut；

and　you　can　afford　to　be　very　magnanimous。　　But　all　the　same

you　give　them　a　good　talking…to。



This　pleasant　conceit　simply　ravished　my　soul　for　some　twenty

minutes；　and　then　the　old　sense　of　injury　began　to　well　up

afresh；　and　to　call　for　new　plasters　and　soothing　syrups。　　This

time　I　took　refuge　in　happy　thoughts　of　the　sea。　　The　sea　was　my

real　sphere；　after　all。　　On　the　sea；　in　especial；　you　could

combine　distinction　with　lawlessness；　whereas　the　army　seemed　to

be　always　weighted　by　a　certain　plodding　submission　to

discipline。　　To　be　sure；　by　all　accounts；　the　life　was　at　first　a

rough　one。　　But　just　then　I　wanted　to　suffer　keenly；　I　wanted　to

be　a　poor　devil　of　a　cabin　boy；　kicked；　beaten；　and　sworn　atfor

a　time。　　Perhaps　some　hint；　some　inkling　of　my　sufferings　might

reach　their　ears。　　In　due　course　the　sloop　or　felucca　would　turn

upit　always　didthe　rakish…looking　craft；　black　of　hull；

low　in　the　water；　and　bristling　with　guns；　the　jolly　Roger

flapping　overhead；　and　myself　for　sole　commander。　　By　and　by；　as

usually　happened；　an　East　Indiaman　would　come　sailing　along　full

of　relationsnot　a　necessary　relation　would　be　missing。　　And　the

crew　should　walk　the　plank；　and　the　captain　should　dance　from　his

own　yardarm；　and　then　I　would　take　the　passengers　in　handthat

miserable　group　of　well…known　figures　cowering　on　the　quarter…

deck！and　thenand　then　the　same　old　performance：　the　air　thick

with　magnanimity。　　In　all　the　repertory　of　heroes；　none　is　more

truly　magnanimous　than　your　pirate　chief。



When　at　last　I　brought　myself　back　from　the　future　to　the　actual

present；　I　found　that　these　delectable　visions　had　helped　me　over

a　longer　stretch　of　road　than　I　had　imagined；　and　I　looked

around　and　took　my　bearings。　　To　the　right　of　me　was　a　long　low

building　of　grey　stone；　new；　and　yet　not　smugly　so；　new；　and　yet

possessing　distinction；　marked　with　a　character　that　did　not

depend　on　lichen　or　on　crumbling　semi…effacement　of　moulding　and

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