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periods of adolescent storm and stress phenomena of which he also
got statistics; but they are very much more intense。 Bodily
accompaniments; loss of sleep and appetite; for example; are much
more frequent in them。 〃The essential distinction appears to be
that conversion intensifies but shortens the period by bringing
the person to a definite crisis。〃'101'
'101' E。 D。 Starbuck: The Psychology of Religion; pp。 224; 262。
The conversions which Dr。 Starbuck here has in mind are of course
mainly those of very commonplace persons; kept true to a
pre…appointed type by instruction; appeal; and example。 The
particular form which they affect is the result of suggestion and
imitation。'102' If they went through their growth…crisis in other
faiths and other countries; although the essence of the change
would be the same (since it is one in the main so inevitable);
its accidents would be different。 In Catholic lands; for example;
and in our own Episcopalian sects; no such anxiety and conviction
of sin is usual as in sects that encourage revivals。 The
sacraments being more relied on in these more strictly
ecclesiastical bodies; the individual's personal acceptance of
salvation needs less to be accentuated and led up to。
'102' No one understands this better than Jonathan Edwards
understood it already。 Conversion narratives of the more
commonplace sort must always be taken with the allowances which
he suggests:
〃A rule received and established by common consent has a very
great; though to many persons an insensible influence in forming
their notions of the process of their own experience。 I know
very well how they proceed as to this matter; for I have had
frequent opportunities of observing their conduct。 Very often
their experience at first appears like a confused chaos; but then
those parts are selected which bear the nearest resemblance to
such particular steps as are insisted on; and these are dwelt
upon in their thoughts; and spoken of from time to time; till
they grow more and more conspicuous in their view; and other
parts which are neglected grow more and more obscure。 Thus what
they have experienced is insensibly strained; so as to bring it
to an exact conformity to the scheme already established in their
minds。 And it becomes natural also for ministers; who have to
deal with those who insist upon distinctness and clearness of
method; to do so too。〃 Treatise on Religious Affections。
But every imitative phenomenon must once have had its original;
and I propose that for the future we keep as close as may be to
the more first…hand and original forms of experience。 These are
more likely to be found in sporadic adult cases。
Professor Leuba; in a valuable article on the psychology of
conversion;'103' subordinates the theological aspect of the
religious life almost entirely to its moral aspect。 The
religious sense he defines as 〃the feeling of unwholeness; of
moral imperfection; of sin; to use the technical word;
accompanied by the yearning after the peace of unity。〃 〃The word
'religion;'〃 he says; 〃is getting more and more to signify the
conglomerate of desires and emotions springing from the sense of
sin and its release〃; and he gives a large number of examples; in
which the sin ranges from drunkenness to spiritual pride; to show
that the sense of it may beset one and crave relief as urgently
as does the anguish of the sickened flesh or any form of physical
misery。
'103' Studies in the Psychology of Religious Phenomena; American
Journal of Psychology; vii。 309 (1896)。
Undoubtedly this conception covers an immense number of cases。 A
good one to use as an example is that of Mr。 S。 H。 Hadley; who
after his conversion became an active and useful rescuer of
drunkards in New York。 His experience runs as follows:
〃One Tuesday evening I sat in a saloon in Harlem; a homeless;
friendless; dying drunkard。 I had pawned or sold everything that
would bring a drink。 I could not sleep unless I was dead drunk。
I had not eaten for days; and for four nights preceding I had
suffered with delirium tremens; or the horrors; from midnight
till morning。 I had often said; 'I will never be a tramp。 I
will never be cornered; for when that time comes; if ever it
comes; I will find a home in the bottom of the river。' But the
Lord so ordered it that when that time did come I was not able to
walk one quarter of the way to the river。 As I sat there
thinking; I seemed to feel some great and mighty presence。 I did
not know then what it was。 I did learn afterwards that it was
Jesus; the sinner's friend。 I walked up to the bar and pounded
it with my fist till I made the glasses rattle。 Those who stood
by drinking looked on with scornful curiosity。 I said I would
never take another drink; if I died on the street; and really I
felt as though that would happen before morning。 Something said;
'If you want to keep this promise; go and have yourself locked
up。' I went to the nearest station…house and had myself locked
up。
〃I was placed in a narrow cell; and it seemed as though all the
demons that could find room came in that place with me。 This was
not all the company I had; either。 No; praise the Lord: that
dear Spirit that came to me in the saloon was present; and
said; Pray。 I did pray; and though I did not feel any great
help; I kept on praying。 As soon as I was able to leave my cell
I was taken to the police court and remanded back to the cell。 I
was finally released; and found my way to my brother's house;
where every care was given me。 While lying in bed the
admonishing Spirit never left me; and when I arose the following
Sabbath morning I felt that day would decide my fate; and toward
evening it came into my head to go to Jerry M'Auley's Mission。 I
went。 The house was packed; and with great difficulty I made my
way to the space near the platform。 There I saw the apostle to
the drunkard and the outcastthat man of God; Jerry M'Auley。 He
rose; and amid deep silence told his experience。 There was a
sincerity about this man that carried conviction with it; and I
found myself saying; 'I wonder if God can save me?' I listened
to the testimony of twenty…five or thirty persons; every one of
whom had been saved from rum; and I made up my mind that I would
be saved or die right there。 When the invitation was given; I
knelt down with a crowd of drunkards。 Jerry made the first
prayer。 Then Mrs。 M'Auley prayed fervently for us。 Oh; what a
conflict was going on for my poor soul! A blessed whisper said;
'Come'; the devil said; 'Be careful。' I halted but a moment; and
then; with a breaking heart; I said; 'Dear Jesus; can you help
me?' Never with mortal tongue can I describe that moment。
Although up to that moment my soul had been filled with
indescribable gloom; I felt the glorious brightness of the
noonday sun shine into my heart。 I felt I was a free man。 Oh;
the precious feeling of safety; of freedom; of resting on Jesus!
I felt that Christ with all his brightness and power had come
into my life; that; indeed; old things had passed away and all
things had become new。
〃From that moment till now I have never wanted a drink of
whiskey; and I have never seen money enough to make me take one。
I promised God that night that if he would take away the appetite
for strong drink; I would