the dwelling place of ligh-第7章
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the monotony; yes; and the sordidness of home; when she let herself in at the
door and climbed the dark and narrow stairway; that her feet grew leaden。 In
spite of the fact that Hannah was a good housekeeper and prided herself on
cleanliness; the tiny flat reeked with the smell of cooking; and Janet; from
the upper hall; had a glimpse of a thin; angular woman with a scrawny neck;
with scant grey hair tightly drawn into a knot; in a gingham apron covering an
old dress bending over the kitchen stove。 And occasionally; despite a
resentment that fate should have dealt thus inconsiderately with the family;
Janet felt pity welling within her。 After supper; when Lise had departed with
her best young man; Hannah would occasionally; though grudgingly; permit Janet
to help her with the dishes。
〃You work all day; you have a right to rest。〃
〃But I don't want to rest;〃 Janet would declare; and rub the dishes the harder。
With the spirit underlying this protest; Hannah sympathized。 Mother and
daughter were alike in that both were inarticulate; but Janet had a secret
contempt for Hannah's uncomplaining stoicism。 She loved her mother; in a way;
especially at certain times;though she often wondered why she was unable to
realize more fully the filial affection of tradition; but in moments of
softening; such as these; she was filled with rage at the thought of any woman
endowed with energy permitting herself to be overtaken and overwhelmed by such
a fate as Hannah's: divorce; desertion; anything; she thought; would have been
betteranything but to be cheated out of life。 Feeling the fires of rebellion
burning hotly within her;rebellion against environment and driving necessity
she would glance at her mother and ask herself whether it were possible that
Hannah had ever known longings; had ever been wrung by inexpressible desires;
desires in which the undiscovered spiritual was so alarmingly compounded with
the undiscovered physical。 She would have died rather than speak to Hannah of
these unfulfilled experiences; and the mere thought of confiding them to any
person appalled her。 Even if there existed some wonderful; understanding being
to whom she might be able thus to empty her soul; the thought of the ecstasy of
that kenosis was too troubling to be dwelt upon。
She had tried reading; with unfortunate results;perhaps because no Virgil had
as yet appeared to guide her through the mysteries of that realm。 Her
schooling had failed to instil into her a discriminating taste for literature;
and when; on occasions; she had entered the Public Library opposite the Common
it had been to stare hopelessly at rows of books whose authors and titles
offered no clue to their contents。 Her few choices had not been happy; they
had failed to interest and thrill。。。
Of the Bumpus family Lise alone found refuge; distraction; and excitement in
the vulgar modern world by which they were surrounded; and of whose
heedlessness and remorselessness they were the victims。 Lise went out into it;
became a part of it; returning only to sleep and eat;a tendency Hannah found
unaccountable; and against which even her stoicism was not wholly proof。
Scarce an evening went by without an expression of uneasiness from Hannah。
〃She didn't happen to mention where she was going; did she; Janet?〃 Hannah
would query; when she had finished her work and put on her spectacles to read
the Banner。
〃To the movies; I suppose;〃 Janet would reply。 Although well aware that her
sister indulged in other distractions; she thought it useless to add to
Hannah's disquietude。 And if she had little patience with Lise; she had less
with the helpless attitude of her parents。
〃Well;〃 Hannah would add; 〃I never can get used to her going out nights the way
she does; and with young men and women I don't know anything about。 I wasn't
brought up that way。 But as long as she's got to work for a living I guess
there's no help for it。〃
And she would glance at Edward。 It was obviously due to his inability
adequately to cope with modern conditions that his daughters were forced to
toil; but this was the nearest she ever came to reproaching him。 If he heard;
he acquiesced humbly; and in silence: more often than not he was oblivious;
buried in the mazes of the Bumpus family history; his papers spread out on the
red cloth of the dining…room table; under the lamp。 Sometimes in his
simplicity and with the enthusiasm that demands listeners he would read aloud
to them a letter; recently received from a distant kinsman; an Alpheus Bumpus;
let us say; who had migrated to California in search of wealth and fame; and
who had found neither。 In spite of age and misfortunes; the liberal attitude
of these western members of the family was always a matter of perplexity to
Edward。
〃He tells me they're going to give women the ballot;doesn't appear to be much
concerned about his own womenfolks going to the polls。〃
〃Why shouldn't they; if they want to?〃 Janet would exclaim; though she had
given little thought to the question。
Edward would mildly ignore this challenge。
〃He has a house on what they call Russian Hill; and he can watch the vessels as
they come in from Japan;〃 he would continue in his precise voice; emphasizing
admirably the last syllables of the words 〃Russian;〃 〃vessels;〃 and 〃Japan。〃
〃Wouldn't you like to see the letter?〃
To do Hannah justice; although she was quite incapable of sharing his passion;
she frequently feigned an interest; took the letter; presently handing it on to
Janet who; in deciphering Alpheus's trembling calligraphy; pondered over his
manifold woes。 Alpheus's son; who had had a good position in a sporting goods
establishment on Market Street; was sick and in danger of losing it; the son's
wife expecting an addition to the family; the house on Russian Hill mortgaged。
Alpheus; a veteran of the Civil War; had been for many years preparing his
reminiscences; but the newspapers nowadays seemed to care nothing for matters
of solid worth; and so far had refused to publish them。。。。 Janet; as she read;
reflected that these letters invariably had to relate tales of failures; of
disappointed hopes; she wondered at her father's perennial interest in
failures;provided they were those of his family; and the next evening; as he
wrote painfully on his ruled paper; she knew that he in turn was pouring out
his soul to Alpheus; recounting; with an emotion by no means unpleasurable; to
this sympathetic but remote relative the story of his own failure!
If the city of Hampton was emblematic of our modern world in which
haphazardness has replaced order; Fillmore Street may be likened to a back eddy
of the muddy and troubled waters; in which all sorts of flotsam and jetsam had
collected。 Or; to find perhaps an even more striking illustration of the
process that made Hampton in general and Fillmore Street in particular; one had
only to take the trolley to Glendale; the Italian settlement on the road
leading to the old New England village of Shrewsbury。 Janet sometimes walked
there; alone or with her friend Eda Rawle。 Disintegration itselfin a
paradoxically pathetic attempt at reconstructionhad built Glendale。 Human
hands; Italian hands。 Nor; surprising though it may seem; were these
descendants of the people of the Renaissance in the least offended by their
handiwork。 When the southern European migration had begun and real estate
became valuable; one by one the more decorous edifices of the old American
order had been torn down and carried piecemeal by sons of Italy to the bare
hills of Glendale; there to enter into new combinations representing; to an eye
craving harmony; the last word of a chaos; of a mental indigestion; of a colour
scheme crying aloud to heaven for retribution。 Standing alone and bare amidst
its truck gardens; hideous; extreme; though typical of the entire settlement;
composed of fragments ripped from once…appropriate settings; is a house with a
tiny body painted strawberry…red; with scroll…work shutters a tender green;
surmounting the structure and almost equalling it in size is a sky…blue cupola;
once the white crown of the Sutter mansion; the pride of o