grace abounding to the chief of sinners-第11章
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Rev。 i。 18； 1 Thess。 iv。 17； 18。
112。 Once I was troubled to know whether the Lord Jesus was man as well as God； and God as well as man： and truly； in those days； let men say what they would； unless I had it with evidence from heaven； all was nothing to me； I counted myself not set down in any truth of God。 Well； I was much troubled about this point； and could not tell how to be resolved； at last； that in Rev。 v。 6 came into my mind： AND I BEHELD； AND； TO； IN THE MIDST OF THE THRONE； AND OF THE FOUR BEASTS； AND IN THE MIDST OF THE ELDERS； STOOD A LAMB； AS IT HAD BEEN SLAIN。 In the midst of the throne； thought I； there is the Godhead； in the midst of the elders； there is His manhood； but； oh！ methought this did glister！ It was a goodly touch； and gave me sweet satisfaction。 That other scripture also did help me much in this； FOR UNTO US A CHILD IS BORN； UNTO US A SON IS GIVEN； AND THE GOVERNMENT SHALL BE UPON HIS SHOULDER： AND HIS NAME SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL； COUNSELLOR； THE MIGHTY GOD； THE EVERLASTING FATHER； THE PRINCE OF PEACE； etc。 Isa。 ix。 6。
123。 Also besides these teachings of God in His word； the Lord made use of two things to confirm me in this truth； the one was the errors of the Quakers and the other was the guilt of sin； for as the Quakers did oppose this truth； so God did the more confirm me in it； by leading me into the scripture that did wonderfully maintain it。
124。 The errors that this people then maintained； were：…
'1。 That the holy scriptures were not the word of God。
'2。 That every man in the world had the spirit of Christ； grace； faith； etc。
'3。 That Christ Jesus； as crucified； and dying sixteen hundred years ago； did not satisfy divine justice for the sins of the people。
'4。 That Christ's flesh and blood were within the saints。
'5。 That the bodies of the good and bad that are buried in the church…yard； shall not arise again。
'6。 That the resurrection is past with good men already。
'7。 That that man Jesus； that was crucified between two thieves； on mount CALVARY； in the land of CANAAN； by JERUSALEM； was not ascended above the starry heavens。
'8。 That He should not； even the same Jesus that died by the hands of the Jews； come again at the last day； and as man； judge all nations；' etc。
125。 Many more vile and abominable things were in those days fomented by them； by which I was driven to a more narrow search of the scriptures； and was through their light and testimony； not only enlightened； but greatly confirmed and comforted in the truth： And； as I said； the guilt of sin did help me much； for still as that would come upon me； the blood of Christ did take it off again； and again； and again； and that too sweetly； according to the scripture。 O FRIENDS！ CRY TO GOD TO REVEAL JESUS CHRIST UNTO YOU； THERE IS NONE TEACHETH LIKE HIM。
126。 It would be too long here to stay； to tell you in particular； how God did set me down in all the things of Christ； and how He did； that He might so do； lead me into His words； yea； and also how He did open them unto me； and make them shine before me； and cause them to dwell with me； talk with me； and comfort me over and over； both of His own being； and the being of His Son； and Spirit； and word； and gospel。
127。 Only this； as I said before； I will say unto you again； that in general； He was pleased to take this course with me； first； to suffer me to be afflicted with temptations concerning them； and then reveal them unto me； as sometimes I should lie under great guilt for sin； even crushed to the ground therewith； and then the Lord would show me the death of Christ； yea； so sprinkle my conscience with His blood； that I should find； and that before I was aware； that in that conscience； where but just now did reign and rage the law； even there would rest and abide the peace and love of God； through Christ。
128。 Now I had an evidence； as I thought； of my salvation； from heaven； with many golden seals thereon； all hanging in my sight。 Now could I remember this manifestation； and the other discovery of grace； with comfort； and should often long and desire that the last day were come； that I might be for ever inflamed with the sight； and joy； and communion of Him； Whose head was crowned with thorns； Whose face was spit upon； and body broken； and soul made an offering for my sins。 For whereas before I lay continually trembling at the mouth of hell； now methought I was got so far therefrom； that I could not； when I looked back； scarce discern it！ And oh！ thought I； that I were fourscore years old now； that I might die quickly； that my soul might be gone to rest。
129。 But before I had got thus far out of these my temptations； I did greatly long to see some ancient godly man's experience； who had writ some hundreds of years before I was born； for those who had writ in our days； I thought （but I desire them now to pardon me） that they had writ only that which others felt； or else had； through the strength of their wits and parts； studied to answer such objections as they perceived others were perplexed with； without going down themselves into the deep。 Well； after many such longings in my mind； the God； in Whose hands are all our days and ways； did cast into my hand （one day） a book OF MARTIN LUTHER'S； it was his Comment on the GALATIANS； it also was so old； that it was ready to fall piece from piece if I did but turn it over。 Now I was pleased much that such an old book had fallen into my hand； the which when I had but a little way perused； I found my condition in his experience so largely and profoundly handled； as if his book had been written out of my heart。 This made me marvel： for thus thought I； THIS MAN COULD NOT KNOW ANY THING OF THE STATE OF CHRISTIANS NOW； BUT MUST NEEDS WRITE AND SPEAK THE EXPERIENCE OF FORMER DAYS。
130。 Besides； he doth most gravely also in that book； debate of the rise of these temptations； namely； blasphemy； desperation； and the like； showing that the law of MOSES； as well as the devil； death； and hell； hath a very great hand therein： the which； at first； was very strange to me； but considering and watching； I found it so indeed。 But of particulars here； I intend nothing； only this methinks I must let fall before all men … I do prefer this book of MARTIN LUTHER upon the GALATIANS （excepting the Holy Bible） before all the books that ever I had seen； as most fit for a wounded conscience。
131。 And now I found； as I thought； that I loved Christ dearly： Oh！ methought my soul cleaved unto Him； my affections cleaved unto Him； I felt love to Him as hot as fire； and now； as JOB said； I THOUGHT I SHOULD DIE IN MY NEST； but I did quickly find； that my great love was but little； and that I； who had； as I thought； such burning love to Jesus Christ； could let Him go again for a very trifle； … God can tell how to abase us； and can hide pride from man。 Quickly after this my love was tried to purpose。
132。 For after the Lord had； in this manner； thus graciously delivered me from this great and sore temptation； and had set me down so sweetly in the faith of His holy gospel； and had given me such strong consolation and blessed evidence from heaven； touching my interest in His love through Christ； the tempter came upon me again； and that with a more grievous and dreadful temptation than before。
133。 And that was； TO SELL AND PART WITH THIS MOST BLESSED CHRIST； TO EXCHANGE HIM FOR THE THINGS OF THIS LIFE； FOR ANY THING。 The temptation lay upon me for the space of a year； and did follow me so continually； that I was not rid of it one day in a month： no； not sometimes one hour in many days together； unless when I was asleep。
134。 And though； in my judgment； I was persuaded； that those who were once effectually in Christ （as I hoped； through His grace； I had seen myself） could never lose Him for ever； THE LAND SHALL NOT BE SOLD FOR EVER； FOR THE LAND IS MINE； saith God。 Lev。 xxv。 23。 Yet it was a continual vexation to me； to think that I should have so much as one such thought within me against a Christ； a Jesus； that had done for me as He had done； and yet then I had almos
