dona perecta-第48章
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I may argue； fall altogether on your sister。 Dona Perfecta's responsibility is certainly very great。 What will be the extent of mine！ Ah； dear father！ believe nothing of what you hear about me； believe only what I shall tell you。 If they tell you that I have committed a deliberate piece of villany； answer that it is a lie。 It is difficult； very difficult； for me to judge myself； in the state of disquietude in which I am； but I dare assure you that I have not deliberately given cause for scandal。 You know well to what extremes passion can lead when circumstances favor its fierce； its all…invading growth。
〃What is most bitter to me is the thought of having employed artifice； deceit； and base concealmentsI who was truth itself。 I am humiliated in my own estimation。 But is this the greatest perversity into which the soul can fall？ Am I beginning now； or have I ended？ I cannot tell。 If Rosario with her angelic hand does not take me out of this hell of my conscience； I desire that you should come to take me out of it。 My cousin is an angel； and suffering； as she has done； for my sake； she has taught me a great many things that I did not know before。
〃Do not be surprised at the incoherence of what I write。 Diverse emotions inflame me； thoughts at times assail me truly worthy of my immortal soul； but at times also I fall into a lamentable state of dejection； and I am reminded of the weak and degenerate characters whose baseness you have painted to me in such strong colors； in order that I might abhor them。 In the state in which I am to…day I am ready for good or for evil。 God have pity upon me！ I already know what prayer isa solemn and reflexive supplication； so personal that it is not compatible with formulas learned by heart； an expansion of the soul which dares to reach out toward its source； the opposite of remorse； in which the soul； at war with itself； seeks in vain to defend itself by sophisms and concealments。 You have taught me many good things； but now I am practising； as we engineers say； I am studying on the ground； and in this way my knowledge will become broadened and confirmed。 I begin to imagine now that I am not so wicked as I myself believe。 Am I right？
〃I end this letter in haste。 I must send it with some soldiers who are going in the direction of the station at Villahorrenda； for the post… office of this place is not to be trusted。〃
〃APRIL 14。
〃It would amuse you； dear father； if I could make you understand the ideas of the people of this wretched town。 You know already that almost all the country is up in arms。 It was a thing to be anticipated； and the politicians are mistaken if they imagine that it will be over in a couple of days。 Hostility to us and to the Government is innate in the Orbajosan's mind； and forms a part of it as much as his religious faith。 Confining myself to the particular question with my aunt； I will tell you a singular thingthe poor lady； who is penetrated by the spirit of feudalism to the marrow of her bones； has taken it into her head that I am going to attack her house and carry off her daughter； as the gentlemen of the Middle Ages attacked an enemy's castle to consummate some outrage。 Don't laugh； for it is the truthsuch are the ideas of these people。 I need not tell you that she regards me as a monster； as a sort of heretic Moorish king； and of the officers here who are my friends she has no better opinion。 In Dona Perfecta's house it is a matter of firm belief that the army and I have formed a diabolical and anti…religious coalition to rob Orbajosa of its treasures； its faith； and its maidens。 I am sure that your sister firmly believes that I am going to take her house by assault； and there is not a doubt but that behind the door some barricade has been erected。
〃But it could not be otherwise。 Here they have the most antiquated ideas respecting society； religion； the state； property。 The religious exaltation which impels them to employ force against the Government； to defend a faith which no one has attacked； and which； besides； they do not possess； revives in their mind the feudal sentiment； and as they would settle every question by brute force； with the sword and with fire； killing all who do not think as they do； they believe that no one in the world employs other methods。
〃Far from intending to perform quixotic deeds in this lady's house； I have in reality saved her some annoyances from which the rest of the town have not escaped。 Owing to my friendship with the brigadier she has not been obliged to present； as was ordered； a list of those of the men in her service who have joined the insurgents； and if her house was searched I have certain knowledge that it was only for form's sake； and if the six men there were disarmed； they have been replaced by six others； and nothing has been done to her。 You see to what my hostility to that lady is reduced。
〃It is true that I have the support of the military chiefs； but I make use of it solely to escape being insulted or ill…used by these implacable people。 The probabilities of my success consist in the fact that the authorities recently appointed by the commander of the brigade are all my friends。 I derive from them the moral force which enables me to intimidate these people。 I don't know whether I shall find myself compelled to commit some violent action； but don't be alarmed； for the assault and the taking of the house is altogether a wild； feudal idea of your sister。 Chance has placed me in an advantageous position。 Rage； the passion that burns within me； will impel me to profit by it。 I don't know how far I may go。〃
〃APRIL 17。
〃Your letter has given me great consolation。 Yes； I can attain my object； employing only the resources of the law； which will be completely effectual for it。 I have consulted the authorities of this place； and they all approve of the course you indicate。 I am very glad of it。 Since I have put into my cousin's mind the idea of disobedience； let it at least be under the protection of the law。 I will do what you bid me； that is to say I will renounce the somewhat unworthy collaboration of Pinzon； I will break up the terrorizing solidarity which I established with the soldiers； I will cease to make a display of the power I derived from them； I will have done with adventures； and at the fitting moment I will act with calmness； prudence； and all the benignity possible。 It is better so。 My coalition； half…serious； half… jesting； with the army； had for its object to protect me against the violence of the Orbajosans and of the servants and the relations of my aunt。 For the rest； I have always disapproved of the idea of what we call armed intervention。
〃The friend who aided me has been obliged to leave the house； but I am not entirely cut off from communication with my cousin。 The poor girl shows heroic valor in the midst of her sufferings； and will obey me blindly。
〃Set your mind at rest about my personal safety。 For my part； I have no fear and I am quite tranquil。〃
〃APRIL 20。
〃To…day I can write only a few lines。 I have a great deal to do。 All will be ended within two or three days。 Don't write to me again to this miserable town。 I shall soon have the happiness of embracing you。
〃PEPE。〃
CHAPTER XXIX
FROM PEPE REY TO ROSARITO POLENTINOS
〃Give Estebanillo the key of the garden and charge him to take care about the dog。 The boy is mine； body and soul。 Fear nothing！ I shall be very sorry if you cannot come down stairs as you did the other night。 Do all you can to manage it。 I will be in the garden a little after midnight。 I will then tell you what course I have decided upon； and what you are to do。 Tranquillize your mind； my dear girl； for I have abandoned all imprudent or violent expedients。 I will tell you every thing when I see you。 There is much to tell； and it must be spoken； not written。 I can picture to myself your terror and anxiety at the thought of my being so near you。 But it is a week since I have seen you。 I have sworn that this separation from you shall soon be ended； and it will be ended。 My heart tells me that I shall see you。 I swear that I will see you。〃
CHAPTER XXX
BEATING UP THE GAME
A man and a woman entered the hotel of the wi
