a mortal antipathy-第55章
按键盘上方向键 ← 或 → 可快速上下翻页,按键盘上的 Enter 键可回到本书目录页,按键盘上方向键 ↑ 可回到本页顶部!
————未阅读完?加入书签已便下次继续阅读!
behind him。
All these dispositions were quickly and quietly made; and everything
was ready for the transfer of the patient to the house of the
hospitable physician。 Paolo was at the doctor's; superintending the
arrangement of Maurice's effects and making all ready for his master。
The nurse in attendance; a trustworthy man enough in the main;
finding his patient in a tranquil sleep; left his bedside for a
little fresh air。 While he was at the door he heard a shouting which
excited his curiosity; and he followed the sound until he found
himself at the border of the lake。 It was nothing very wonderful
which had caused the shouting。 A Newfoundland dog had been showing
off his accomplishments; and some of the idlers were betting as to
the time it would take him to bring back to his master the various
floating objects which had been thrown as far from the shore as
possible。 He watched the dog a few minutes; when his attention was
drawn to a light wherry; pulled by one young lady and steered by
another。 It was making for the shore; which it would soon reach。
The attendant remembered all at once; that he had left his charge;
and just before the boat came to land he turned and hurried back to
the patient。 Exactly how long he had been absent he could not have
said;perhaps a quarter of an hour; perhaps longer; the time
appeared short to him; wearied with long sitting and watching。
It had seemed; when he stole away from Maurice's bedside; that he was
not in the least needed。 The patient was lying perfectly quiet; and
to all appearance wanted nothing more than letting alone。 It was
such a comfort to look at something besides the worn features of a
sick man; to hear something besides his labored breathing and faint;
half…whispered words; that the temptation to indulge in these
luxuries for a few minutes had proved irresistible。
Unfortunately; Maurice's slumbers did not remain tranquil during the
absence of the nurse。 He very soon fell into a dream; which began
quietly enough; but in the course of the sudden transitions which
dreams are in the habit of undergoing became successively anxious;
distressing; terrifying。 His earlier and later experiences came up
before him; fragmentary; incoherent; chaotic even; but vivid as
reality。 He was at the bottom of a coal…mine in one of those long;
narrow galleries; or rather worm…holes; in which human beings pass a
large part of their lives; like so many larvae boring their way into
the beams and rafters of some old building。 How close the air was in
the stifling passage through which he was crawling! The scene
changed; and he was climbing a slippery sheet of ice with desperate
effort; his foot on the floor of a shallow niche; his hold an icicle
ready to snap in an instant; an abyss below him waiting for his foot
to slip or the icicle to break。 How thin the air seemed; how
desperately hard to breathe! He was thinking of Mont Blanc; it may
be; and the fearfully rarefied atmosphere which he remembered well as
one of the great trials in his mountain ascents。 No; it was not Mont
Blanc;it was not any one of the frozen Alpine summits; it was Hecla
that he was climbing
The smoke of the burning mountain was wrapping itself around him; he
was choking with its dense fumes; he heard the flames roaring around
him; he felt the hot lava beneath his feet; he uttered a faint cry;
and awoke。
The room was full of smoke。 He was gasping for breath; strangling in
the smothering oven which his chamber had become。
The house was on fire!
He tried to call for help; but his voice failed him; and died away in
a whisper。 He made a desperate effort; and rose so as to sit up in
the bed for an instant; but the effort was too much for him; and he
sank back upon his pillow; helpless。 He felt that his hour had come;
for he could not live in this dreadful atmosphere; and he was left
alone。 He could hear the crackle of fire as the flame crept along
from one partition to another。 It was a cruel fate to be left to
perish in that way;the fate that many a martyr had had to face;to
be first strangled and then burned。 Death had not the terror for him
that it has for most young persons。 He was accustomed to thinking of
it calmly; sometimes wistfully; even to such a degree that the
thought of self…destruction had come upon him as a temptation。 But
here was death in an unexpected and appalling shape。 He did not know
before how much he cared to live。 All his old recollections came
before him as it were in one long; vivid flash。 The closed vista of
memory opened to its far horizon…line; and past and present were
pictured in a single instant of clear vision。 The dread moment which
had blighted his life returned in all its terror。 He felt the
convulsive spring in the form of a faint; impotent spasm;the rush
of air;the thorns of the stinging and lacerating cradle into which
he was precipitated。 One after another those paralyzing seizures
which had been like deadening blows on the naked heart seemed to
repeat themselves; as real as at the moment of their occurrence。 The
pictures passed in succession with such rapidity that they appeared
almost as if simultaneous。 The vision of the 〃inward eye 〃 was so
intensified in this moment of peril that an instant was like an hour
of common existence。 Those who have been very near drowning know
well what this description means。 The development of a photograph
may not explain it; but it illustrates the curious and familiar fact
of the revived recollections of the drowning man's experience。 The
sensitive plate has taken one look at a scene; and remembers it all;
Every little circumstance is there;the hoof in air; the wing in
flight; the leaf as it falls; the wave as it breaks。 All there; but
invisible; potentially present; but impalpable; inappreciable; as if
not existing at all。 A wash is poured over it; and the whole scene
comes out in all its perfection of detail。 In those supreme moments
when death stares a man suddenly in the face the rush of unwonted
emotion floods the undeveloped pictures of vanished years; stored
away in the memory; the vast panorama of a lifetime; and in one swift
instant the past comes out as vividly as if it were again the
present。 So it was at this moment with the sick man; as he lay
helpless and felt that he was left to die。 For he saw no hope of
relief: the smoke was drifting in clouds into the room; the flames
were very near; if he was not reached and rescued immediately it was
all over with him。
His past life had flashed before him。 Then all at once rose the
thought of his future;of all its possibilities; of the vague hopes
which he had cherished of late that his mysterious doom would be
lifted from him。 There was something; then; to be lived for;
something! There was a new life; it might be; in store for him; and
such a new life! He thought of all he was losing。 Oh; could he but
have lived to know the meaning of love! And the passionate desire of
life came over him;not the dread of death; but the longing for what
the future might yet have of happiness for him。
All this took place in the course of a very few moments。 Dreams and
visions have little to do with measured time; and ten minutes;
possibly fifteen or twenty; were all that had passed since the
beginning of those nightmare terrors which were evidently suggested
by the suffocating air he was breathing。
What had happened? In the confusion of moving books and other
articles to the doctor's house; doors and windows had been forgotten。
Among the rest a window opening into the cellar; where some old
furniture had been left by a former occupant; had been left unclosed。
One of the lazy natives; who had lounged by the house smoking a bad
cigar; had thrown the burning stump in at this open window。 He had
no particular intention of doing mischief; but he had that
indifference to consequenc