sartor resartus-第37章
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n in this generation？ An outflush of foolish young Enthusiasm； like the first fallow…crop； wherein are as many weeds as valuable herbs： this all parched away； under the Droughts of practical and spiritual Unbelief； as Disappointment； in thought and act； often…repeated gave rise to Doubt； and Doubt gradually settled into Denial！ If I have had a second…crop； and now see the perennial greensward； and sit under umbrageous cedars； which defy all Drought （and Doubt）； herein too； be the Heavens praised； I am not without examples； and even exemplars。〃
So that； for Teufelsdrockh； also； there has been a 〃glorious revolution：〃 these mad shadow…hunting and shadow…hunted Pilgrimings of his were but some purifying 〃Temptation in the Wilderness；〃 before his apostolic work （such as it was） could begin； which Temptation is now happily over； and the Devil once more worsted！ Was 〃that high moment in the _Rue de l'Enfer_；〃 then； properly the turning…point of the battle； when the Fiend said； _Worship me； or be torn in shreds_； and was answered valiantly with an _Apage Satana_？Singular Teufelsdrockh； would thou hadst told thy singular story in plain words！ But it is fruitless to look there； in those Paper…bags； for such。 Nothing but innuendoes； figurative crotchets： a typical Shadow； fitfully wavering； prophetico…satiric； no clear logical Picture。 〃How paint to the sensual eye；〃 asks he once； 〃what passes in the Holy…of…Holies of Man's Soul； in what words； known to these profane times； speak even afar…off of the unspeakable？〃 We ask in turn： Why perplex these times； profane as they are； with needless obscurity； by omission and by commission？ Not mystical only is our Professor； but whimsical； and involves himself； now more than ever； in eye…bewildering _chiaroscuro_。 Successive glimpses； here faithfully imparted； our more gifted readers must endeavor to combine for their own behoof。
He says： 〃The hot Harmattan wind had raged itself out； its howl went silent within me； and the long…deafened soul could now hear。 I paused in my wild wanderings； and sat me down to wait； and consider； for it was as if the hour of change drew nigh。 I seemed to surrender； to renounce utterly； and say： Fly； then； false shadows of Hope； I will chase you no more； I will believe you no more。 And ye too； haggard spectres of Fear； I care not for you； ye too are all shadows and a lie。 Let me rest here： for I am way…weary and life…weary； I will rest here； were it but to die： to die or to live is alike to me； alike insignificant。〃And again： 〃Here； then； as I lay in that CENTRE OF INDIFFERENCE； cast； doubtless by benignant upper Influence； into a healing sleep； the heavy dreams rolled gradually away； and I awoke to a new Heaven and a new Earth。 The first preliminary moral Act； Annihilation of Self （_Selbst…todtung_）； had been happily accomplished； and my mind's eyes were now unsealed； and its hands ungyved。〃
Might we not also conjecture that the following passage refers to his Locality； during this same 〃healing sleep；〃 that his Pilgrim…staff lies cast aside here； on 〃the high table…land；〃 and indeed that the repose is already taking wholesome effect on him？ If it were not that the tone； in some parts； has more of riancy； even of levity； than we could have expected！ However； in Teufelsdrockh； there is always the strangest Dualism： light dancing； with guitar…music； will be going on in the fore…court； while by fits from within comes the faint whimpering of woe and wail。 We transcribe the piece entire。
〃Beautiful it was to sit there； as in my skyey Tent； musing and meditating； on the high table…land； in front of the Mountains； over me； as roof； the azure Dome； and around me； for walls； four azure…flowing curtains；namely； of the Four azure Winds； on whose bottom…fringes also I have seen gilding。 And then to fancy the fair Castles that stood sheltered in these Mountain hollows； with their green flower…lawns； and white dames and damosels； lovely enough： or better still； the straw…roofed Cottages； wherein stood many a Mother baking bread； with her children round her：all hidden and protectingly folded up in the valley…folds； yet there and alive； as sure as if I beheld them。 Or to see； as well as fancy； the nine Towns and Villages； that lay round my mountain…seat； which； in still weather； were wont to speak to me （by their steeple…bells） with metal tongue； and； in almost all weather； proclaimed their vitality by repeated Smoke…clouds； whereon； as on a culinary horologe； I might read the hour of the day。 For it was the smoke of cookery； as kind housewives at morning； midday； eventide； were boiling their husbands' kettles； and ever a blue pillar rose up into the air； successively or simultaneously； from each of the nine； saying； as plainly as smoke could say： Such and such a meal is getting ready here。 Not uninteresting！ For you have the whole Borough； with all its love…makings and scandal…mongeries； contentions and contentments； as in miniature； and could cover it all with your hat。If； in my wide Way…farings； I had learned to look into the business of the World in its details； here perhaps was the place for combining it into general propositions； and deducing inferences therefrom。
〃Often also could I see the black Tempest marching in anger through the Distance： round some Schreckhorn； as yet grim…blue； would the eddying vapor gather； and there tumultuously eddy； and flow down like a mad witch's hair； till； after a space； it vanished； and； in the clear sunbeam； your Schreckhorn stood smiling grim…white； for the vapor had held snow。 How thou fermentest and elaboratest； in thy great fermenting…vat and laboratory of an Atmosphere； of a World； O Nature！Or what is Nature？ Ha！ why do I not name thee GOD？ Art not thou the 'Living Garment of God'？ O Heavens； is it； in very deed； HE； then； that ever speaks through thee； that lives and loves in thee； that lives and loves in me？
〃Fore…shadows； call them rather fore…splendors； of that Truth； and Beginning of Truths； fell mysteriously over my soul。 Sweeter than Dayspring to the Shipwrecked in Nova Zembla； ah； like the mother's voice to her little child that strays bewildered； weeping； in unknown tumults； like soft streamings of celestial music to my too…exasperated heart； came that Evangel。 The Universe is not dead and demoniacal； a charnel…house with spectres； but godlike； and my Father's！
〃With other eyes； too； could I now look upon my fellowman： with an infinite Love； an infinite Pity。 Poor； wandering； wayward man！ Art thou not tried； and beaten with stripes； even as I am？ Ever； whether thou bear the royal mantle or the beggar's gabardine； art thou not so weary； so heavy…laden； and thy Bed of Rest is but a Grave。 O my Brother； my Brother； why cannot I shelter thee in my bosom； and wipe away all tears from thy eyes！Truly； the din of many…voiced Life； which； in this solitude； with the mind's organ； I could hear； was no longer a maddening discord； but a melting one； like inarticulate cries； and sobbings of a dumb creature； which in the ear of Heaven are prayers。 The poor Earth； with her poor joys； was now my needy Mother； not my cruel Stepdame； Man； with his so mad Wants and so mean Endeavors； had become the dearer to me； and even for his sufferings and his sins； I now first named him Brother。 Thus was I standing in the porch of that '_Sanctuary of Sorrow_；' by strange； steep ways had I too been guided thither； and ere long its sacred gates would open； and the '_Divine Depth of Sorrow_' lie disclosed to me。〃
The Professor says； he here first got eye on the Knot that had been strangling him； and straightway could unfasten it； and was free。 〃A vain interminable controversy；〃 writes he； 〃touching what is at present called Origin of Evil； or some such thing； arises in every soul； since the beginning of the world； and in every soul； that would pass from idle Suffering into actual Endeavoring； must first be put an end to。 The most； in our time； have to go content with a simple； incomplete enough Suppression of this controversy； to a few some Solution of it is indispensable。 In every new era； too； such Solution comes out in different terms； and ever the Solution of the last era has become obsolete； and i
