sartor resartus-第24章
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CHAPTER IV。 GETTING UNDER WAY。
〃Thus nevertheless；〃 writes our Autobiographer； apparently as quitting College； 〃was there realized Somewhat； namely； I； Diogenes Teufelsdrockh： a visible Temporary Figure （_Zeitbild_）； occupying some cubic feet of Space； and containing within it Forces both physical and spiritual； hopes； passions； thoughts； the whole wondrous furniture； in more or less perfection； belonging to that mystery； a Man。 Capabilities there were in me to give battle； in some small degree； against the great Empire of Darkness： does not the very Ditcher and Delver； with his spade； extinguish many a thistle and puddle； and so leave a little Order； where he found the opposite？ Nay your very Day…moth has capabilities in this kind； and ever organizes something （into its own Body； if no otherwise）； which was before Inorganic； and of mute dead air makes living music； though only of the faintest； by humming。
〃How much more； one whose capabilities are spiritual； who has learned； or begun learning； the grand thaumaturgic art of Thought！ Thaumaturgic I name it； for hitherto all Miracles have been wrought thereby； and henceforth innumerable will be wrought； whereof we； even in these days； witness some。 Of the Poet's and Prophet's inspired Message； and how it makes and unmakes whole worlds； I shall forbear mention： but cannot the dullest hear Steam…engines clanking around him？ Has he not seen the Scottish Brass…smith's IDEA （and this but a mechanical one） travelling on fire…wings round the Cape； and across two Oceans； and stronger than any other Enchanter's Familiar； on all hands unweariedly fetching and carrying： at home； not only weaving Cloth； but rapidly enough overturning the whole old system of Society； and； for Feudalism and Preservation of the Game； preparing us； by indirect but sure methods； Industrialism and the Government of the Wisest？ Truly a Thinking Man is the worst enemy the Prince of Darkness can have； every time such a one announces himself； I doubt not； there runs a shudder through the Nether Empire； and new Emissaries are trained； with new tactics； to； if possible； entrap him； and hoodwink and handcuff him。
〃With such high vocation had I too； as denizen of the Universe； been called。 Unhappy it is； however； that though born to the amplest Sovereignty； in this way； with no less than sovereign right of Peace and War against the Time…Prince （_Zeitfurst_）； or Devil； and all his Dominions； your coronation…ceremony costs such trouble； your sceptre is so difficult to get at； or even to get eye on！〃
By which last wire…drawn similitude does Teufelsdrockh mean no more than that young men find obstacles in what we call 〃getting under way〃？ 〃Not what I Have；〃 continues he； 〃but what I Do is my Kingdom。 To each is given a certain inward Talent； a certain outward Environment of Fortune； to each； by wisest combination of these two； a certain maximum of Capability。 But the hardest problem were ever this first： To find by study of yourself； and of the ground you stand on； what your combined inward and outward Capability specially is。 For； alas； our young soul is all budding with Capabilities； and we see not yet which is the main and true one。 Always too the new man is in a new time； under new conditions； his course can be the _fac…simile_ of no prior one； but is by its nature original。 And then how seldom will the outward Capability fit the inward： though talented wonderfully enough； we are poor； unfriended； dyspeptical； bashful； nay what is worse than all； we are foolish。 Thus； in a whole imbroglio of Capabilities； we go stupidly groping about； to grope which is ours； and often clutch the wrong one： in this mad work must several years of our small term be spent； till the purblind Youth； by practice； acquire notions of distance； and become a seeing Man。 Nay； many so spend their whole term； and in ever…new expectation； ever…new disappointment； shift from enterprise to enterprise； and from side to side： till at length； as exasperated striplings of threescore…and…ten； they shift into their last enterprise； that of getting buried。
〃Such； since the most of us are too ophthalmic； would be the general fate； were it not that one thing saves us： our Hunger。 For on this ground； as the prompt nature of Hunger is well known； must a prompt choice be made： hence have we； with wise foresight； Indentures and Apprenticeships for our irrational young； whereby； in due season； the vague universality of a Man shall find himself ready…moulded into a specific Craftsman； and so thenceforth work； with much or with little waste of Capability as it may be； yet not with the worst waste； that of time。 Nay even in matters spiritual； since the spiritual artist too is born blind； and does not； like certain other creatures； receive sight in nine days； but far later； sometimes never；is it not well that there should be what we call Professions； or Bread…studies （_Brodzwecke_）； preappointed us？ Here； circling like the gin…horse； for whom partial or total blindness is no evil； the Bread…artist can travel contentedly round and round； still fancying that it is forward and forward； and realize much： for himself victual； for the world an additional horse's power in the grand corn…mill or hemp…mill of Economic Society。 For me too had such a leading…string been provided； only that it proved a neck…halter； and had nigh throttled me； till I broke it off。 Then； in the words of Ancient Pistol； did the world generally become mine oyster； which I； by strength or cunning； was to open； as I would and could。 Almost had I deceased （_fast war ich umgekommen_）； so obstinately did it continue shut。〃
We see here； significantly foreshadowed； the spirit of much that was to befall our Autobiographer； the historical embodiment of which； as it painfully takes shape in his Life； lies scattered； in dim disastrous details； through this Bag _Pisces_； and those that follow。 A young man of high talent； and high though still temper； like a young mettled colt； 〃breaks off his neck…halter；〃 and bounds forth； from his peculiar manger； into the wide world； which； alas； he finds all rigorously fenced in。 Richest clover…fields tempt his eye； but to him they are forbidden pasture： either pining in progressive starvation； he must stand； or； in mad exasperation； must rush to and fro； leaping against sheer stone…walls； which he cannot leap over； which only lacerate and lame him； till at last； after thousand attempts and endurances； he； as if by miracle； clears his way； not indeed into luxuriant and luxurious clover； yet into a certain bosky wilderness where existence is still possible； and Freedom； though waited on by Scarcity； is not without sweetness。 In a word； Teufelsdrockh having thrown up his legal Profession； finds himself without landmark of outward guidance； whereby his previous want of decided Belief； or inward guidance； is frightfully aggravated。 Necessity urges him on； Time will not stop； neither can he； a Son of Time； wild passions without solacement； wild faculties without employment； ever vex and agitate him。 He too must enact that stern Monodrama； _No Object and no Rest_； must front its successive destinies； work through to its catastrophe； and deduce therefrom what moral he can。
Yet let us be just to him； let us admit that his 〃neck…halter〃 sat nowise easy on him； that he was in some degree forced to break it off。 If we look at the young man's civic position； in this Nameless capital； as he emerges from its Nameless University； we can discern well that it was far from enviable。 His first Law…Examination he has come through triumphantly； and can even boast that the _Examen Rigorosum_ need not have frightened him： but though he is hereby 〃an _Auscultator_ of respectability；〃 what avails it？ There is next to no employment to be had。 Neither； for a youth without connections； is the process of Expectation very hopeful in itself； nor for one of his disposition much cheered from without。 〃 My fellow Auscultators；〃 he says； 〃were Auscultators： they dressed； and digested； and talked articulate words； other vitality showed they almost none。 Small speculation in those eyes； that they did glare withal！ Sense neither for the high nor for the deep；
