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man struck。 It was sometimes so distressing; so instant; that I
lay in the heather on the top of the island; with my face hid;
kicking my heels for agony。 And now; when I can hear the actual
concussion of the air and hills; when I KNOW personally the people
who stand exposed to it; I am able to go on TANT BIEN QUE MAL with
a letter to James Payn! The blessings of age; though mighty small;
are tangible。 I have heard a great deal of them since I came into
the world; and now that I begin to taste of them … Well! But this
is one; that people do get cured of the excess of sensibility; and
I had as lief these people were shot at as myself … or almost; for
then I should have some of the fun; such as it is。
You are to conceive me; then; sitting in my little gallery room;
shaken by these continual spasms of cannon; and with my eye more or
less singly fixed on the imaginary figure of my dear James Payn。 I
try to see him in bed; no go。 I see him instead jumping up in his
room in Waterloo Place (where EX HYPOTHESI he is not); sitting on
the table; drawing out a very black briar…root pipe; and beginning
to talk to a slim and ill…dressed visitor in a voice that is good
to hear and with a smile that is pleasant to see。 (After a little
more than half an hour; the voice that was ill to hear has ceased;
the cannonade is over。) And I am thinking how I can get an
answering smile wafted over so many leagues of land and water; and
can find no way。
I have always been a great visitor of the sick; and one of the sick
I visited was W。 E。 Henley; which did not make very tedious visits;
so I'll not get off much purgatory for them。 That was in the
Edinburgh Infirmary; the old one; the true one; with Georgius
Secundus standing and pointing his toe in a niche of the facade;
and a mighty fine building it was! And I remember one winter's
afternoon; in that place of misery; that Henley and I chanced to
fall in talk about James Payn himself。 I am wishing you could have
heard that talk! I think that would make you smile。 We had mixed
you up with John Payne; for one thing; and stood amazed at your
extraordinary; even painful; versatility; and for another; we found
ourselves each students so well prepared for examinations on the
novels of the real Mackay。 Perhaps; after all; this is worth
something in life … to have given so much pleasure to a pair so
different in every way as were Henley and I; and to be talked of
with so much interest by two such (beg pardon) clever lads!
The cheerful Lang has neglected to tell me what is the matter with
you; so; I'm sorry to say; I am cut off from all the customary
consolations。 I can't say; 'Think how much worse it would be if
you had a broken leg!' when you may have the crushing repartee up
your sleeve; 'But it is my leg that is broken。' This is a pity。
But there are consolations。 You are an Englishman (I believe); you
are a man of letters; you have never been made C。B。; your hair was
not red; you have played cribbage and whist; you did not play
either the fiddle or the banjo; you were never an aesthete; you
never contributed to …'S JOURNAL; your name is not Jabez Balfour;
you are totally unconnected with the Army and Navy departments; I
understand you to have lived within your income … why; cheer up!
here are many legitimate causes of congratulation。 I seem to be
writing an obituary notice。 ABSIT OMEN! But I feel very sure that
these considerations will have done you more good than medicine。
By the by; did you ever play piquet? I have fallen a victim to
this debilitating game。 It is supposed to be scientific; God save
the mark; what self…deceivers men are! It is distinctly less so
than cribbage。 But how fascinating! There is such material
opulence about it; such vast ambitions may be realised … and are
not; it may be called the Monte Cristo of games。 And the thrill
with which you take five cards partakes of the nature of lust … and
you draw four sevens and a nine; and the seven and nine of a suit
that you discarded; and O! but the world is a desert! You may see
traces of discouragement in my letter: all due to piquet! There
has been a disastrous turn of the luck against me; a month or two
ago I was two thousand ahead; now; and for a week back; I have been
anything from four thousand eight hundred to five thousand two
hundred astern。 If I have a sixieme; my beast of a partner has a
septieme; and if I have three aces; three kings; three queens; and
three knaves (excuse the slight exaggeration); the devil holds
quatorze of tens! … I remain; my dear James Payn; your sincere and
obliged friend … old friend let me say;
ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON。
Letter: TO MISS MIDDLETON
VAILIMA; SAMOA; SEPTEMBER 9; 1894。
DEAR MISS MIDDLETON; … Your letter has been like the drawing up of
a curtain。 Of course I remember you very well; and the Skye
terrier to which you refer … a heavy; dull; fatted; graceless
creature he grew up to be … was my own particular pet。 It may
amuse you; perhaps; as much as 'The Inn' amused me; if I tell you
what made this dog particularly mine。 My father was the natural
god of all the dogs in our house; and poor Jura took to him of
course。 Jura was stolen; and kept in prison somewhere for more
than a week; as I remember。 When he came back Smeoroch had come
and taken my father's heart from him。 He took his stand like a
man; and positively never spoke to my father again from that day
until the day of his death。 It was the only sign of character he
ever showed。 I took him up to my room and to be my dog in
consequence; partly because I was sorry for him; and partly because
I admired his dignity in misfortune。
With best regards and thanks for having reminded me of so many
pleasant days; old acquaintances; dead friends; and … what is
perhaps as pathetic as any of them … dead dogs; I remain; yours
truly;
ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON。
Letter: TO A。 CONAN DOYLE
VAILIMA; SAMOA; SEPTEMBER 9; 1894。
MY DEAR CONAN DOYLE; … If you found anything to entertain you in my
TREASURE ISLAND article; it may amuse you to know that you owe it
entirely to yourself。 YOUR 'First Book' was by some accident read
aloud one night in my Baronial 'All。 I was consumedly amused by
it; so was the whole family; and we proceeded to hunt up back
IDLERS and read the whole series。 It is a rattling good series;
even people whom you would not expect came in quite the proper tone
… Miss Braddon; for instance; who was really one of the best where
all are good … or all but one! 。。。 In short; I fell in love with
'The First Book' series; and determined that it should be all our
first books; and that I could not hold back where the white plume
of Conan Doyle waved gallantly in the front。 I hope they will
republish them; though it's a grievous thought to me that that
effigy in the German cap … likewise the other effigy of the noisome
old man with the long hair; telling indelicate stories to a couple
of deformed negresses in a rancid shanty full of wreckage … should
be perpetuated。 I may seem to speak in pleasantry … it is only a
seeming … that German cap; sir; would be found; when I come to die;
imprinted on my heart。 Enough … my heart is too full。 Adieu。 …
Yours very truly;
ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
(in a German cap; damn 'em!)
Letter: TO CHARLES BAXTER
'VAILIMA; SEPTEMBER 1894。'
MY DEAR CHARLES; … 。 。 。 Well; there is no more Edmund Baxter now;
and I think I may say I know how you feel。 He was one of the best;
the kindest; and the most genial men I ever knew。 I shall always
remember his brisk; cordial ways and the essential goodness which
he showed me whenever we met with gratitude。 And the always is
such a little while now! He is another