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e　throws　up　his　arms　and　legs。　She　has　about　as　much　intention　of　eloping　with　him　as　a　little　girl　might　have　of　eloping　with　a　pasteboard　Jim　Crow。　If　you　were　to　have　a　frank　explanation　with　her；　Blanche　would　very　soon　throw　Jim　Crow　out　of　the　window。　I　very　humbly　entreat　you　to　cease　thinking　of　me。　I　don't　know　what　wrong　you　have　ever　done　me；　or　what　kindness　I　have　ever　done　you；　that　you　should　feel　obliged　to　trouble　your　head　about　me。　　You　see　all　I　amI　tell　you　now。　I　am　nothing　in　the　least　remarkable。　　As　for　your　thinking　ill　of　me　at　Baden；　I　never　knew　it　nor　cared　about　it。　If　it　had　been　so；　you　see　how　I　should　have　got　over　it。　Dear　Mr。　Wright；　we　might　be　such　good　friends；　if　you　would　only　believe　me。　　She　's　so　pretty；　so　charming；　so　universally　admired。　　You　said　just　now　you　had　bored　me；　but　it　's　nothingin　spite　of　all　the　compliments　you　have　paid　me　to　the　way　I　have　bored　you。　　If　she　could　only　know　it　that　I　have　bored　you！　　Let　her　see　for　half　an　hour　that　I　am　out　of　your　mindthe　rest　will　take　care　of　itself。　She　might　so　easily　have　made　a　quarrel　with　me。　　The　way　she　has　behaved　to　me　is　one　of　the　prettiest　things　I　have　ever　seen；　and　you　shall　see　the　way　I　shall　always　behave　to　her！　Don't　think　it　necessary　to　say　out　of　politeness　that　I　have　not　bored　you；　it　is　not　in　the　least　necessary。　You　know　perfectly　well　that　you　are　disappointed　in　the　charm　of　my　society。　　And　I　have　done　my　best；　too。　I　can　honestly　affirm　that！'　　For　some　time　he　said　nothing；　and　then　he　remarked　that　I　was　very　clever；　but　he　did　n't　see　a　word　of　sense　in　what　I　said。　　'It　only　proves；'　I　said；　'that　the　merit　of　my　conversation　is　smaller　than　you　had　taken　it　into　your　head　to　fancy。　　But　I　have　done　you　good；　all　the　same。　　Don't　contradict　me；　you　don't　know　yet；　and　it　's　too　late　for　us　to　argue　about　it。　　You　will　tell　me　to…morrow。'〃






CHAPTER　XXX

Some　three　evenings　after　he　received　this　last　report　of　the　progress　of　affairs　in　Paris；　Bernard；　upon　whom　the　burden　of　exile　sat　none　the　more　lightly　as　the　days　went　on；　turned　out　of　the　Strand　into　one　of　the　theatres。　　He　had　been　gloomily　pushing　his　way　through　the　various　London　densities　the　November　fog；　the　nocturnal　darkness；　the　jostling　crowd。　He　was　too　restless　to　do　anything　but　walk；　and　he　had　been　saying　to　himself；　for　the　thousandth　time；　that　if　he　had　been　guilty　of　a　misdemeanor　in　succumbing　to　the　attractions　of　the　admirable　girl　who　showed　to　such　advantage　in　letters　of　twelve　pages；　his　fault　was　richly　expiated　by　these　days　of　impatience　and　bereavement。　　He　gave　little　heed　to　the　play；　his　thoughts　were　elsewhere；　and；　while　they　rambled；　his　eyes　wandered　round　the　house。　　Suddenly；　on　the　other　side　of　it；　he　beheld　Captain　Lovelock；　seated　squarely　in　his　orchestra…stall；　but；　if　Bernard　was　not　mistaken；　paying　as　little　attention　to　the　stage　as　he　himself　had　done。　The　Captain's　eyes；　it　is　true；　were　fixed　upon　the　scene；　his　head　was　bent　a　little；　his　magnificent　beard　rippled　over　the　expanse　of　his　shirt…front。　But　Bernard　was　not　slow　to　see　that　his　gaze　was　heavy　and　opaque；　and　that；　though　he　was　staring　at　the　actresses；　their　charms　were　lost　upon　him。　He　saw　that；　like　himself；　poor　Lovelock　had　matter　for　reflection　in　his　manly　breast；　and　he　concluded　that　Blanche's　ponderous　swain　was　also　suffering　from　a　sense　of　disjunction。　Lovelock　sat　in　the　same　posture　all　the　evening；　and　that　his　imagination　had　not　projected　itself　into　the　play　was　proved　by　the　fact　that　during　the　entractes　he　gazed　with　the　same　dull　fixedness　at　the　curtain。　　Bernard　forebore　to　interrupt　him；　we　know　that　he　was　not　at　this　moment　socially　inclined；　and　he　judged　that　the　Captain　was　as　little　so；　inasmuch　as　causes　even　more　imperious　than　those　which　had　operated　in　his　own　case　must　have　been　at　the　bottom　of　his　sudden　appearance　in　London。　On　leaving　the　theatre；　however；　Bernard　found　himself　detained　with　the　crowd　in　the　vestibule　near　the　door；　which；　wide　open　to　the　street；　was　a　scene　of　agitation　and　confusion。　It　had　come　on　to　rain；　and　the　raw　dampness　mingled　itself　with　the　dusky　uproar　of　the　Strand。　　At　last；　among　the　press　of　people；　as　he　was　passing　out；　our　hero　became　aware　that　he　had　been　brought　into　contact　with　Lovelock；　who　was　walking　just　beside　him。　　At　the　same　moment　Lovelock　noticed　him　looked　at　him　for　an　instant；　and　then　looked　away。　But　he　looked　back　again　the　next　instant；　and　the　two　men　then　uttered　that　inarticulate　and　inexpressive　exclamation　which　passes　for　a　sign　of　greeting　among　gentlemen　of　the　Anglo…Saxon　race；　in　their　moments　of　more　acute　self…consciousness。

〃Oh；　are　you　here？〃　said　Bernard。　　〃I　thought　you　were　in　Paris。〃

〃No；　I　ain't　in　Paris；〃　Lovelock　answered　with　some　dryness。　〃Tired　of　the　beastly　hole！〃

〃Oh；　I　see；〃　said　Bernard。　　〃Excuse　me　while　I　put　up　my　umbrella。〃

He　put　up　his　umbrella；　and　from　under　it；　the　next　moment；　he　saw　the　Captain　waving　two　fingers　at　him　out　of　the　front　of　a　hansom。　When　he　returned　to　his　hotel　he　found　on　his　table　a　letter　superscribed　in　Gordon　Wright's　hand。　　This　communication　ran　as　follows：

〃I　believe　you　are　making　a　fool　of　me。　　In　Heaven's　name；　come　back　to　Paris！　　G。　W。〃

Bernard　hardly　knew　whether　to　regard　these　few　words　as　a　further　declaration　of　war；　or　as　an　overture　to　peace；　but　he　lost　no　time　in　complying　with　the　summons　they　conveyed。　He　started　for　Paris　the　next　morning；　and　in　the　evening；　after　he　had　removed　the　dust　of　his　journey　and　swallowed　a　hasty　dinner；　he　rang　at　Mrs。　Vivian's　door。　　This　lady　and　her　daughter　gave　him　a　welcome　whichI　will　not　say　satisfied　him；　but　which；　at　least；　did　something　toward　soothing　the　still　unhealed　wounds　of　separation。

〃And　what　is　the　news　of　Gordon？〃　he　presently　asked。

〃We　have　not　seen　him　in　three　days；〃　said　Angela。

〃He　is　cured；　dear　Bernard；　he　must　be。　　Angela　has　been　wonderful；〃　Mrs。　Vivian　declared。

〃You　should　have　seen　mamma　with　Blanche；〃　her　daughter　said；　smiling。　〃It　was　most　remarkable。〃

Mrs。　Vivian　smiled；　too；　very　gently。

〃Dear　little　Blanche！　　Captain　Lovelock　has　gone　to　London。〃

〃Yes；　he　thinks　it　a　beastly　hole。　　Ah；　no；〃　Bernard　added；　〃I　have　got　it　wrong。〃

But　it　little　mattered。　　Late　that　night；　on　his　return　to　his　own　rooms；　Bernard　sat　gazing　at　his　fire。　　He　had　not　begun　to　undress；　he　was　thinking　of　a　good　many　things。　He　was　in　the　midst　of　his　reflections　when　there　came　a　rap　at　his　door；　which　the　next　moment　was　flung　open。　Gordon　Wright　stood　there；　looking　at　himwith　a　gaze　which　Bernard　returned　for　a　moment　before　bidding　him　to　come　in。　Gordon　came　in　and　came　up　to　him；　then　he　held　out　his　hand。　Bernard　took　it　with　great　satisfaction；　his　last　feeling　had　been　that　he　was　very　weary　of　this　ridiculous　quarrel；　and　it　was　an　extreme　relief　to　find　it　was　over。

〃It　was　very　good　of　you　to　go　to　London；〃　said　Gordon；　looking　at　him　with　all　the　old　serious　honesty　of　his　eyes。

〃I　have　always　tried　to　do　what　I　could　to　oblige　you；〃　Bernard　answered；　smiling。

〃You　must　have　cursed　me　over　there；〃　Gordon　went　on。

〃I　did；　a　little。　　As　you　were　cursing　me　here；　it　was　permissible。〃

〃That　's　over　now；〃　said　Gordon。　　〃I　came　to　welcome　you　back。　It　seemed　to　me　I　could　n't　lay　my　head　on　my　pillow　without　speaking　to　you。〃

〃I　am　glad　to　get　back；〃　Bernard　admitted；　smiling　still。　〃I　can't　deny　that。　　And　I　find　you　as　I　believed　I　should。〃　Then　he　added；　seriously〃I　knew　Angela　would　keep　us　good　friends。〃

For　a　moment　Gordon　said　nothing。　　Then；　at　last

〃Yes；　for　that　purpose　it　did　n't　matter　which　of　us　should　marry　her。　If　it　had　been　I；〃　he　added；　〃she　would　have　made　you　accept　it。〃

〃Ah；　I　don't　know！〃　　Bernard　exclaimed。

〃I　am　sure　of　it；〃　said　Gordon　earnestlyalmost　argumentatively。　〃She　's　an　extraordinary　woman。〃

〃Keeping　you　good　friends　with　methat　's　a　great　thing。　But　it　's　nothing　to　her　keeping　you　good　friends　with　your　wife。〃

Gordon　looked　at　Bernard　for　an　instant；　then　he　fixed　his　eyes　for　some　time　on　the　fire。

〃Yes；　that　is　the　greatest　of　all　things。　　A　man　should　va