4 breaking dawn破晓-第116章
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mouthpiece。
The news about Alice was oddly comforting。 Clearly； she was on some obscure mission of her own as
she avoided whatever Aro had planned for her。
Edward was thrilled to have the Amazons with us； because Zafrina was enormously talented； her gift
could make a very dangerous offensive weapon。 Not that Edward was asking for Zafrina to side with us
in the battle； but if the Volturi did not pause when they saw our witnesses； perhaps they would pause for
a different kind of scene。
〃It's a very straightforward illusion；〃 Edward explained when it turned out that I couldn't see anything； as
usual。 Zafrina was intrigued and amused by my immunity—something she'd never encountered
before—and she hovered restlessly while Edward described what I was missing。 Edward's eyes
unfocused slightly as he continued。 〃She can make most people see whatever she wants them to
see—see that； and nothing else。 For example； right now I would appear to be alone in the middle of a
rain forest。 It's so clear I might possibly believe it； except for the fact that I can still feel you in my arms。〃
Zafrina's lips twitched into her hard version of a smile。 A second later； Edward's eyes focused again； and
he grinned back。
〃Impressive；〃 he said。
Renesmee was fascinated with the conversation； and she reached out fearlessly toward Zafrina。
〃Can I see？〃 she asked。
〃What would you like to see？〃 Zafrina asked。
〃What you showed Daddy。〃
Zafrina nodded； and I watched anxiously as Renesmee's eyes stared blankly into space。 A second later；
Renesmee's dazzling smile lit up her face。
〃More；〃 she commanded。
After that； it was hard to keep Renesmee away from Zafrina and her pretty pictures。 I worried；
because I was quite sure that Zafrina was able to create images that were not pretty at all。 But through
Renesmee's thoughts I
could see Zafrina's visions for myself—they were as clear as any of Renesmee's own memories； like they
were real—and thus judge for myself whether they were appropriate or not。
Though I didn't give her up easily； I had to admit it was a good thing Zafrina was keeping Renesmee
entertained。 I needed my hands。 I had so much to learn； both physically and mentally； and the time was
so short。
My first attempt at learning to fight did not go well。
Edward had me pinned in about two seconds。 But instead of letting me wrestle my way free—which I
absolutely could have—he'd leaped up and away from me。 I knew immediately that something was
wrong； he was still as stone； staring across the meadow we were practicing in。
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Tm sorry； Bella；〃 he said。
〃No； I'm fine；〃 I said。 〃Let's go again。〃
〃I can't。〃
〃What do you mean； you can't？ We just started。〃
He didn't answer。
〃Look； I know I'm no good at this； but I can't get better if you don't help me。〃
He said nothing。 Playfully； I sprang at him。 He made no defense at all； and we both fell to the ground。 He
was motionless as I pressed my lips to his jugular。
〃I win；〃 I announced。
His eyes narrowed； but he said nothing。
〃Edward？ What's wrong？ Why won't you teach me？〃
A full minute passed before he spoke again。
〃I just can't。。。 bear it。 Emmett and Rosalie know as much as I do。 Tanya and Eleazar probably know
more。 Ask someone else。〃
〃That's not fair！ You're good at this。 You helped Jasper before—you fought with him and all the others；
too。 Why not me？ What did I do wrong？〃
He sighed； exasperated。 His eyes were dark； barely any gold to lighten the black。
〃Looking at you that way； analyzing you as a target。 Seeing all the ways I can kill you 。。 。〃 He flinched。 〃It
just makes it too real for me。 We don't have so much time that it will really make a difference who your
teacher is。 Anyone can teach you the fundamentals。〃
I scowled。
He touched my pouting lower lip and smiled。 〃Besides； it's unnecessary。 The Volturi will stop。 They will
be made to understand。〃
〃But if they don't！ I need to learn this。〃
〃Find another teacher。〃
That was not our last conversation on the subject； but I never swayed him an inch from his decision。
Emmett was more than willing to help； though his teaching felt to me a lot like revenge for all the lost
arm…wrestling matches。 If I could still bruise； I would have been purple from head to toe。 Rose； Tanya；
and Eleazar all were patient and supportive。 Their lessons reminded me of Jasper's fighting instructions to
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the others last June； though those memories were fuzzy and indistinct。 Some of the visitors found my
education entertaining； and some even offered assistance。 The nomad Garrett took a few turns—he was
a surprisingly good teacher； he interacted so easily with others in general that I wondered how he'd never
found a coven。 I even fought once with Zafrina while Renesmee watched from Jacob's arms。 I learned
several tricks； but I never asked for her help again。 In truth； though I liked Zafrina very much and I knew
she wouldn't really hurt me； the wild woman scared me to death。
I learned many things from my teachers； but I had the sense that my knowledge was still impossibly
basic。 I had no idea how many seconds I would last against Alec and Jane。 I only prayed that it would be
long enough to help。
Every minute of the day that I wasn't with Renesmee or learning to fight； I was in the backyard working
with Kate； trying to push my internal shield outside of my own brain to protect someone else。 Edward
encouraged me in this training。 I knew he hoped I would find a way of contributing that satisfied me while
also keeping me out of the line of fire。
It was just so hard。 There was nothing to get a hold of； nothing solid to work with。 I had only my raging
desire to be of use； to be able to keep Edward； Renesmee； and as much of my family as possible safe
with me。 Over and over I tried to force the nebulous shield outside of myself； with only faint； sporadic
success。 It felt like I was wrestling to stretch an invisible rubber band—a band that would change from
concrete tangibility into insubstantial smoke at any random moment。
Only Edward was willing to be our guinea pig—to receive shock after shock from Kate while I grappled
incompetently with the insides of my head。 We worked for hours at a time； and I felt like I should be
covered in sweat from the exertion； but of course my perfect body didn't betray me that way。 My
weariness was all mental。
It killed me that it was Edward who had to suffer； my arms wrapped uselessly around him while he
winced over and over from Kate's low〃 setting。 I tried as hard as I could to push my shield around us
both； every now and then I would get it； and then it would slip away again。
I hated this practice； and I wished that Zafrina would help instead of Kate。 Then all Edward would have
to do was look at Zafrina's illusions until I could stop him from seeing them。 But Kate insisted that I
needed better motivation—by which she meant my hatred of watching Edward's pain。 I was beginning to
doubt her assertion from the first day we'd met—that she wasn't sadistic about the use of her gift。 She
seemed to be enjoying herself to me。
〃Hey；〃 Edward said cheerfully； trying to hide any evidence of distress in his voice。 Anything to keep me
from fighting practice。 〃That one barely stung。 Good job； Bella。〃
I took a deep breath； trying to grasp exactly what I'd done right； i tested the elastic band； struggling to
force it to remain solid as I stretched it away from me。
〃Again； Kate；〃 I grunted through my clenched teeth。
Kate pressed her palm to Edward's shoulder。
He sighed in relief。 〃Nothing that time。〃
