memoir of fleeming jenkin-第16章
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that sentiment; nor can any picture of the man be drawn that does
not in proportion dwell upon it。 This is a delicate task; but if
we are to leave behind us (as we wish) some presentment of the
friend we have lost; it is a task that must be undertaken。
For all his play of mind and fancy; for all his indulgence … and;
as time went on; he grew indulgent … Fleeming had views of duty
that were even stern。 He was too shrewd a student of his fellow…
men to remain long content with rigid formulae of conduct。 Iron…
bound; impersonal ethics; the procrustean bed of rules; he soon saw
at their true value as the deification of averages。 'As to Miss (I
declare I forget her name) being bad;' I find him writing; 'people
only mean that she has broken the Decalogue … which is not at all
the same thing。 People who have kept in the high…road of Life
really have less opportunity for taking a comprehensive view of it
than those who have leaped over the hedges and strayed up the
hills; not but what the hedges are very necessary; and our stray
travellers often have a weary time of it。 So; you may say; have
those in the dusty roads。' Yet he was himself a very stern
respecter of the hedgerows; sought safety and found dignity in the
obvious path of conduct; and would palter with no simple and
recognised duty of his epoch。 Of marriage in particular; of the
bond so formed; of the obligations incurred; of the debt men owe to
their children; he conceived in a truly antique spirit: not to
blame others; but to constrain himself。 It was not to blame; I
repeat; that he held these views; for others; he could make a large
allowance; and yet he tacitly expected of his friends and his wife
a high standard of behaviour。 Nor was it always easy to wear the
armour of that ideal。
Acting upon these beliefs; conceiving that he had indeed 'given
himself' (in the full meaning of these words) for better; for
worse; painfully alive to his defects of temper and deficiency in
charm; resolute to make up for these; thinking last of himself:
Fleeming was in some ways the very man to have made a noble; uphill
fight of an unfortunate marriage。 In other ways; it is true he was
one of the most unfit for such a trial。 And it was his beautiful
destiny to remain to the last hour the same absolute and romantic
lover; who had shown to his new bride the flag…draped vessels in
the Mersey。 No fate is altogether easy; but trials are our
touchstone; trials overcome our reward; and it was given to
Fleeming to conquer。 It was given to him to live for another; not
as a task; but till the end as an enchanting pleasure。 'People may
write novels;' he wrote in 1869; 'and other people may write poems;
but not a man or woman among them can write to say how happy a man
may be; who is desperately in love with his wife after ten years of
marriage。' And again in 1885; after more than twenty…six years of
marriage; and within but five weeks of his death: 'Your first
letter from Bournemouth;' he wrote; 'gives me heavenly pleasure …
for which I thank Heaven and you too … who are my heaven on earth。'
The mind hesitates whether to say that such a man has been more
good or more fortunate。
Any woman (it is the defect of her sex) comes sooner to the stable
mind of maturity than any man; and Jenkin was to the end of a most
deliberate growth。 In the next chapter; when I come to deal with
his telegraphic voyages and give some taste of his correspondence;
the reader will still find him at twenty…five an arrant school…boy。
His wife besides was more thoroughly educated than he。 In many
ways she was able to teach him; and he proud to be taught; in many
ways she outshone him; and he delighted to be outshone。 All these
superiorities; and others that; after the manner of lovers; he no
doubt forged for himself; added as time went on to the humility of
his original love。 Only once; in all I know of his career; did he
show a touch of smallness。 He could not learn to sing correctly;
his wife told him so and desisted from her lessons; and the
mortification was so sharply felt that for years he could not be
induced to go to a concert; instanced himself as a typical man
without an ear; and never sang again。 I tell it; for the fact that
this stood singular in his behaviour; and really amazed all who
knew him; is the happiest way I can imagine to commend the tenor of
his simplicity; and because it illustrates his feeling for his
wife。 Others were always welcome to laugh at him; if it amused
them; or if it amused him; he would proceed undisturbed with his
occupation; his vanity invulnerable。 With his wife it was
different: his wife had laughed at his singing; and for twenty
years the fibre ached。 Nothing; again; was more notable than the
formal chivalry of this unmannered man to the person on earth with
whom he was the most familiar。 He was conscious of his own innate
and often rasping vivacity and roughness and he was never forgetful
of his first visit to the Austins and the vow he had registered on
his return。 There was thus an artificial element in his punctilio
that at times might almost raise a smile。 But it stood on noble
grounds; for this was how he sought to shelter from his own
petulance the woman who was to him the symbol of the household and
to the end the beloved of his youth。
I wish in this chapter to chronicle small beer; taking a hasty
glance at some ten years of married life and of professional
struggle; and reserving till the next all the more interesting
matter of his cruises。 Of his achievements and their worth; it is
not for me to speak: his friend and partner; Sir William Thomson;
has contributed a note on the subject; which will be found in the
Appendix; and to which I must refer the reader。 He is to conceive
in the meanwhile for himself Fleeming's manifold engagements: his
service on the Committee on Electrical Standards; his lectures on
electricity at Chatham; his chair at the London University; his
partnership with Sir William Thomson and Mr。 Varley in many
ingenious patents; his growing credit with engineers and men of
science; and he is to bear in mind that of all this activity and
acquist of reputation; the immediate profit was scanty。 Soon after
his marriage; Fleeming had left the service of Messrs。 Liddell &
Gordon; and entered into a general engineering partnership with
Mr。 Forde; a gentleman in a good way of business。 It was a
fortunate partnership in this; that the parties retained their
mutual respect unlessened and separated with regret; but men's
affairs; like men; have their times of sickness; and by one of
these unaccountable variations; for hard upon ten years the
business was disappointing and the profits meagre。 'Inditing
drafts of German railways which will never get made': it is thus I
find Fleeming; not without a touch of bitterness; describe his
occupation。 Even the patents hung fire at first。 There was no
salary to rely on; children were coming and growing up; the
prospect was often anxious。 In the days of his courtship; Fleeming
had written to Miss Austin a dissuasive picture of the trials of
poverty; assuring her these were no figments but truly bitter to
support; he told her this; he wrote; beforehand; so that when the
pinch came and she suffered; she should not be disappointed in
herself nor tempted to doubt her own magnanimity: a letter of
admirable wisdom and solicitude。 But now that the trouble came; he
bore it very lightly。 It was his principle; as he once prettily
expressed it; 'to enjoy each day's happiness; as it arises; like
birds or children。' His optimism; if driven out at the door; would
come in again by the window; if it found nothing but blackness in
the present; would hit upon some ground of consolation in the
future or the past。 And his coura