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that sentiment; nor can any picture of the man be drawn that does 

not in proportion dwell upon it。  This is a delicate task; but if 

we are to leave behind us (as we wish) some presentment of the 

friend we have lost; it is a task that must be undertaken。



For all his play of mind and fancy; for all his indulgence … and; 

as time went on; he grew indulgent … Fleeming had views of duty 

that were even stern。  He was too shrewd a student of his fellow…

men to remain long content with rigid formulae of conduct。  Iron…

bound; impersonal ethics; the procrustean bed of rules; he soon saw 

at their true value as the deification of averages。  'As to Miss (I 

declare I forget her name) being bad;' I find him writing; 'people 

only mean that she has broken the Decalogue … which is not at all 

the same thing。  People who have kept in the high…road of Life 

really have less opportunity for taking a comprehensive view of it 

than those who have leaped over the hedges and strayed up the 

hills; not but what the hedges are very necessary; and our stray 

travellers often have a weary time of it。  So; you may say; have 

those in the dusty roads。'  Yet he was himself a very stern 

respecter of the hedgerows; sought safety and found dignity in the 

obvious path of conduct; and would palter with no simple and 

recognised duty of his epoch。  Of marriage in particular; of the 

bond so formed; of the obligations incurred; of the debt men owe to 

their children; he conceived in a truly antique spirit:  not to 

blame others; but to constrain himself。  It was not to blame; I 

repeat; that he held these views; for others; he could make a large 

allowance; and yet he tacitly expected of his friends and his wife 

a high standard of behaviour。  Nor was it always easy to wear the 

armour of that ideal。



Acting upon these beliefs; conceiving that he had indeed 'given 

himself' (in the full meaning of these words) for better; for 

worse; painfully alive to his defects of temper and deficiency in 

charm; resolute to make up for these; thinking last of himself:  

Fleeming was in some ways the very man to have made a noble; uphill 

fight of an unfortunate marriage。  In other ways; it is true he was 

one of the most unfit for such a trial。  And it was his beautiful 

destiny to remain to the last hour the same absolute and romantic 

lover; who had shown to his new bride the flag…draped vessels in 

the Mersey。  No fate is altogether easy; but trials are our 

touchstone; trials overcome our reward; and it was given to 

Fleeming to conquer。  It was given to him to live for another; not 

as a task; but till the end as an enchanting pleasure。  'People may 

write novels;' he wrote in 1869; 'and other people may write poems; 

but not a man or woman among them can write to say how happy a man 

may be; who is desperately in love with his wife after ten years of 

marriage。'  And again in 1885; after more than twenty…six years of 

marriage; and within but five weeks of his death:  'Your first 

letter from Bournemouth;' he wrote; 'gives me heavenly pleasure … 

for which I thank Heaven and you too … who are my heaven on earth。'  

The mind hesitates whether to say that such a man has been more 

good or more fortunate。



Any woman (it is the defect of her sex) comes sooner to the stable 

mind of maturity than any man; and Jenkin was to the end of a most 

deliberate growth。  In the next chapter; when I come to deal with 

his telegraphic voyages and give some taste of his correspondence; 

the reader will still find him at twenty…five an arrant school…boy。  

His wife besides was more thoroughly educated than he。  In many 

ways she was able to teach him; and he proud to be taught; in many 

ways she outshone him; and he delighted to be outshone。  All these 

superiorities; and others that; after the manner of lovers; he no 

doubt forged for himself; added as time went on to the humility of 

his original love。  Only once; in all I know of his career; did he 

show a touch of smallness。  He could not learn to sing correctly; 

his wife told him so and desisted from her lessons; and the 

mortification was so sharply felt that for years he could not be 

induced to go to a concert; instanced himself as a typical man 

without an ear; and never sang again。  I tell it; for the fact that 

this stood singular in his behaviour; and really amazed all who 

knew him; is the happiest way I can imagine to commend the tenor of 

his simplicity; and because it illustrates his feeling for his 

wife。  Others were always welcome to laugh at him; if it amused 

them; or if it amused him; he would proceed undisturbed with his 

occupation; his vanity invulnerable。  With his wife it was 

different:  his wife had laughed at his singing; and for twenty 

years the fibre ached。  Nothing; again; was more notable than the 

formal chivalry of this unmannered man to the person on earth with 

whom he was the most familiar。  He was conscious of his own innate 

and often rasping vivacity and roughness and he was never forgetful 

of his first visit to the Austins and the vow he had registered on 

his return。  There was thus an artificial element in his punctilio 

that at times might almost raise a smile。  But it stood on noble 

grounds; for this was how he sought to shelter from his own 

petulance the woman who was to him the symbol of the household and 

to the end the beloved of his youth。



I wish in this chapter to chronicle small beer; taking a hasty 

glance at some ten years of married life and of professional 

struggle; and reserving till the next all the more interesting 

matter of his cruises。  Of his achievements and their worth; it is 

not for me to speak:  his friend and partner; Sir William Thomson; 

has contributed a note on the subject; which will be found in the 

Appendix; and to which I must refer the reader。  He is to conceive 

in the meanwhile for himself Fleeming's manifold engagements:  his 

service on the Committee on Electrical Standards; his lectures on 

electricity at Chatham; his chair at the London University; his 

partnership with Sir William Thomson and Mr。 Varley in many 

ingenious patents; his growing credit with engineers and men of 

science; and he is to bear in mind that of all this activity and 

acquist of reputation; the immediate profit was scanty。  Soon after 

his marriage; Fleeming had left the service of Messrs。 Liddell & 

Gordon;  and entered into a general engineering partnership with 

Mr。 Forde; a gentleman in a good way of business。  It was a 

fortunate partnership in this; that the parties retained their 

mutual respect unlessened and separated with regret; but men's 

affairs; like men; have their times of sickness; and by one of 

these unaccountable variations; for hard upon ten years the 

business was disappointing and the profits meagre。  'Inditing 

drafts of German railways which will never get made':  it is thus I 

find Fleeming; not without a touch of bitterness; describe his 

occupation。  Even the patents hung fire at first。  There was no 

salary to rely on; children were coming and growing up; the 

prospect was often anxious。  In the days of his courtship; Fleeming 

had written to Miss Austin a dissuasive picture of the trials of 

poverty; assuring her these were no figments but truly bitter to 

support; he told her this; he wrote; beforehand; so that when the 

pinch came and she suffered; she should not be disappointed in 

herself nor tempted to doubt her own magnanimity:  a letter of 

admirable wisdom and solicitude。  But now that the trouble came; he 

bore it very lightly。  It was his principle; as he once prettily 

expressed it; 'to enjoy each day's happiness; as it arises; like 

birds or children。'  His optimism; if driven out at the door; would 

come in again by the window; if it found nothing but blackness in 

the present; would hit upon some ground of consolation in the 

future or the past。  And his coura

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