tales from two hemispheres[1].(两个半球的故事)-第13章
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which everywhere met him； that his torpidity gradually thawed away； and
he began to look more like his former self。
Toward autumn he received an invitation to visit a country clergyman
in the North； a distant relative of his father's； and there whiled away his
time； fishing and shooting； until winter came。 But as Christmas drew
near； and the day wrestled feebly with the all…conquering night； the old
sorrow revived。 In the darkness which now brooded over land and sea；
the thoughts needed no longer be on guard against themselves； they could
roam far and wide as they listed。 Where was Edith now； the sweet； the
wonderful Edith？ Was there yet the same dancing light in her beautiful
eyes； the same golden sheen in her hair； the same merry ring in her voice？
And had she not said that when he was content to be only her friend； he
might return to her； and she would receive him in the old joyous and
confiding way？ Surely there was no life to him apart from her： why
should he not be her friend？ Only a glimpse of her lovely faceah； it
was worth a lifetime； it would consecrate an age of misery； a glimpse of
Edith's face。 Thus ran his fancies day by day； and the night only lent a
deeper intensity to the yearnings of the day。 He walked about as in a
dream； seeing nothing； heeding nothing； while this one strong desireto
see Edith once more throbbed and throbbed with a slow； feverish
perseverance within him。 EdithEdith； the very name had a strange；
potent fascination。 Every thought whispered 〃Edith；〃his pulse beat
〃Edith；〃and his heart repeated the beloved name。 It was his pulse…beat；…
…his heartbeat；his life…beat。
And one morning as he stood absently looking at his fingers against
the lightand they seemed strangely wan and transparentthe thought at
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last took shape。 It rushed upon him with such vehemence； that he could
no more resist it。 So he bade the clergyman good…bye； gathered his few
worldly goods together and set out for Bergen。 There he found an
English steamer which carried him to Hull； and a few weeks later； he was
once more in New York。
It was late one evening in January that a tug…boat arrived and took the
cabin passengers ashore。 The moon sailed tranquilly over the deep blue
dome of the sky； the stars traced their glittering paths of light from the
zenith downward； and it was sharp； bitter cold。 Northward over the river
lay a great bank of cloud； dense； gray and massive； the spectre of the
coming snow…storm。 There it lay so huge and fantastically human；
ruffling itself up； as fowls do； in defense against the cold。 Halfdan
walked on at a brisk ratestrange to say； all the street… cars he met went
the wrong waystartling every now and then some precious memory；
some word or look or gesture of Edith's which had hovered long over
those scenes； waiting for his recognition。 There was the great jewel…store
where Edith had taken him so often to consult his taste whenever a friend
of hers was to be married。 It was there that they had had an amicable
quarrel over that bronze statue of Faust which she had found beautiful；
while he； with a rudeness which seemed now quite incomprehensible； had
insisted that it was not。 And when he had failed to convince her； she had
given him her hand in token of reconciliation and Edith had a wonderful
way of giving her hand； which made any one feel that it was a peculiar
privilege to press itand they had walked out arm in arm into the animated；
gas… lighted streets； with a delicious sense of snugness and security； being
all the more closely united for their quarrel。 Here； farther up the avenue；
they had once been to a party； and he had danced for the first time in his
life with Edith。 Here was Delmonico's； where they had had such
fascinating luncheons together； where she had got a stain on her dress； and
he had been forced to observe that her dress was then not really a part of
herself； since it was a thing that could not be stained。 Her dress had
always seemed to him as something absolute and final； exalted above
criticism； incapable of improvement。
As I have said； Halfdan walked briskly up the avenue； and it was
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something after eleven when he reached the house which he sought。 The
great cloud…bank in the north had then begun to expand and stretched its
long misty arms eastward and westward over the heavens。 The windows
on the ground…floor were dark； but the sleeping apartments in the upper
stories were lighted。 In Edith's room the inside shutters were closed； but
one of the windows was a little down at the top。 And as he stood gazing
with tremulous happiness up to that window； a stanza from Heine which
he and Edith had often read together； came into his head。 It was the story
of the youth who goes to the Madonna at Kevlar and brings her as a votive
offering a heart of wax； that she may heal him of his love and his sorrow。
〃I bring this waxen image； The image of my heart；
Heal thou my bitter sorrow； And cure my deadly smart！〃＇4＇
＇4＇ Translation； from 〃Exotics。 By J。 F。 C。 & C。 L。〃
Then came the thought that for him； too； as for the poor youth of
Cologne； there was healing only in death。 And still in this moment he
was so near Edith； should see her perhaps； and the joy at this was stronger
than all else； stronger even than death。 So he sat down beside the steps
of the mansion opposite； where there was some shelter from the wind； and
waited patiently till Edith should close her win… dow。 He was cold；
perhaps； but； if so； he hardly knew it； for the near joy of seeing her
throbbed warmly in his veins。 Ah； therethe blinds were thrown open；
Edith； in all the lithe magnificence of her wonderful form； stood out clear
and beautiful against the light within； she pushed up the lower window in
order to reach the upper one； and for a moment leaned out over the sill。
Once more her wondrous profile traced itself in strong relief against the
outer gloom。 There came a cry from the street below； a feeble
involuntary one； but still distinctly audible。 Edith peered anxiously out
into the darkness； but the darkness had grown denser and she could see
nothing。 The window was fastened； the shutters closed； and the broad
pathway of light which she had flung out upon the night had vanished。
Halfdan closed his eyes trying to retain the happy vision。 Yes； there
she stood still； and there was a heavenly smile upon her lipsugh； he
shiveredthe snow swept in a wild whirl up the street。 He wrapped his
plaid more closely about him； and strained his eyes to catch one more
