the sorrows of young werther-第4章
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isconceive his position with regard to his mistress; or question the propriety of her conduct; touched me particularly。 The charming manner with which he described her form and person; which; without possessing the graces of youth; won and attached him to her; is inexpressible; and must be left to the imagination。 I have never in my life witnessed or fancied or conceived the possibility of such intense devotion; such ardent affections; united with so much purity。 Do not blame me if I say that the recollection of this innocence and truth is deeply impressed upon my very soul; that this picture of fidelity and tenderness haunts me everywhere; and that my own heart; as though enkindled by the flame; glows and burns within me。
I mean now to try and see her as soon as I can: or perhaps; on second thoughts; I had better not; it is better I should behold her through the eyes of her lover。 To my sight; perhaps; she would not appear as she now stands before me; and why should I destroy so sweet a picture?
JUNE 16。
〃Why do I not write to you?〃 You lay claim to learning; and ask such a question。 You should have guessed that I am well that is to say in a word; I have made an acquaintance who has won my heart: I have I know not。
To give you a regular account of the manner in which I have become acquainted with the most amiable of women would be a difficult task。 I am a happy and contented mortal; but a poor historian。
An angel! Nonsense! Everybody so describes his mistress; and yet I find it impossible to tell you how perfect she is; or why she is so perfect: suffice it to say she has captivated all my senses。
So much simplicity with so much understauding so mild; and yet so resolute a mind so placid; and a life so active。
But all this is ugly balderdash; which expresses not a single character nor feature。 Some other time but no; not some other time; now; this very instant; will I tell you all about it。 Now or never。 Well; between ourselves; since I commenced my letter; I have been three times on the point of throwing down my pen; of ordering my horse; and riding out。 And yet I vowed this morning that I would not ride to…day; and yet every moment I am rushing to the window to see how high the sun is。
I could not restrain myself go to her I must。 I have just returned; Wilhelm; and whilst I am taking supper I will write to you。 What a delight it was for my soul to see her in the midst of her dear; beautiful children; eight brothers and sisters!
But; if I proceed thus; you will be no wiser at the end of my letter than you were at the beginning。 Attend; then; and I will compel myself to give you the details。
I mentioned to you the other day that I had become acquainted with S; the district judge; and that he had invited me to go and visit him in his retirement; or rather in his little kingdom。 But I neglected going; and perhaps should never have gone; if chance had not discovered to me the treasure which lay concealed in that retired spot。 Some of our young people had proposed giving a ball in the country; at which I consented to be present。 I offered my hand for the evening to a pretty and agreeable; but rather commonplace; sort of girl from the immediate neighbourhood; and it was agreed that I should engage a carriage; and call upon Charlotte; with my partner and her aunt; to convey them to the ball。 My companion informed me; as we drove along through the park to the hunting…lodge; that I should make the acquaintance of a very charming young lady。 〃Take care;〃 added the aunt; 〃that you do not lose your heart。〃 〃Why?〃 said I。 〃Because she is already engaged to a very worthy man;〃 she replied; 〃who is gone to settle his affairs upon the death of his father; and will succeed to a very considerable inheritance。〃 This information possessed no interest for me。 When we arrived at the gate; the sun was setting behind the tops of the mountains。 The atmosphere was heavy; and the ladies expressed their fears of an approaching storm; as masses of low black clouds were gathering in the horizon。 I relieved their anxieties by pretending to be weather…wise; although I myself had some apprehensions lest our pleasure should be interrupted。
I alighted; and a maid came to the door; and requested us to wait a moment for her mistress。 I walked across the court to a well…built house; and; ascending the flight of steps in front; opened the door; and saw before me the most charming spectacle I had ever witnessed。 Six children; from eleven to two years old; were running about the hall; and surrounding a lady of middle height; with a lovely figure; dressed in a robe of simple white; trimmed with pink ribbons。 She was holding a rye loaf in her hand; and was cutting slices for the little ones all around; in proportion to their age and appetite。 She performed her task in a graceful and affectionate manner; each claimant awaiting his turn with outstretched hands; and boisterously shouting his thanks。 Some of them ran away at once; to enjoy their evening meal; whilst others; of a gentler disposition; retired to the courtyard to see the strangers; and to survey the carriage in which their Charlotte was to drive away。 〃Pray forgive me for giving you the trouble to come for me; and for keeping the ladies waiting: but dressing; and arranging some household duties before I leave; had made me forget my children's supper; and they do not like to take it from any one but me。〃 I uttered some indifferent compliment: but my whole soul was absorbed by her air; her voice; her manner; and I had scarcely recovered myself when she ran into her room to fetch her gloves and fan。 The young ones threw inquiring glances at me from a distance; whilst I approached the youngest; a most delicious little creature。 He drew back; and Charlotte; entering at the very moment; said; 〃Louis; shake hands with your cousin。〃 The little fellow obeyed willingly; and I could not resist giving him a hearty kiss; notwithstanding his rather dirty face。 〃Cousin;〃 said I to Charlotte; as I handed her down; 〃do you think I deserve the happiness of being related to you?〃 She replied; with a ready smile; 〃Oh! I have such a number of cousins; that I should be sorry if you were the most undeserving of them。〃 In taking leave; she desired her next sister; Sophy; a girl about eleven years old; to take great care of the children; and to say good…bye to papa for her when he came home from his ride。 She enjoined to the little ones to obey their sister Sophy as they would herself; upon which some promised that they would; but a little fair…haired girl; about six years old; looked discontented; and said; 〃But Sophy is not you; Charlotte; and we like you best。〃 The two eldest boys had clambered up the carriage; and; at my request; she permitted them to accompany us a little way through the forest; upon their promising to sit very still; and hold fast。
We were hardly seated; and the ladies had scarcely exchanged compliments; making the usual remarks upon each other's dress; and upon the company they expected to meet; when Charlotte stopped the carriage; and made her brothers get down。 They insisted upon kissing her hands once more; which the eldest did with all the tenderness of a youth of fifteen; but the other in a lighter and more careless manner。 She desired them again to give her love to the children; and we drove off。
The aunt inquired of Charlotte whether she had finished the book she had last sent her。 〃No;〃 said Charlotte; 〃I did not like it: you can have it again。 And the one before was not much better。〃 I was surprised; upon asking the title; to hear that it was ____。 (We feel obliged to suppress the passage in the letter; to prevent any one from feeling aggrieved; although no author need pay much attention to the opinion of a mere girl; or that of an unsteady young man。)
I found penetration and character in everything she said: every expression seemed to brighten her features with new charms; with new rays of genius; which unfolded by degrees; as she felt herself understood。
〃When I was younger;〃 she observed; 〃I loved nothing so much as romances。 Nothing could equal my delight when; on some holiday; I could settle down quietly in a co