the sorrows of young werther-第15章
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ppiness which I may enjoy on this earth。
I have lately become acquainted with a Miss B； a very agreeable girl； who has retained her natural manners in the midst of artificial life。 Our first conversation pleased us both equally； and； at taking leave； I requested permission to visit her。 She consented in so obliging a manner； that I waited with impatience for the arrival of the happy moment。 She is not a native of this place； but resides here with her aunt。 The countenance of the old lady is not prepossessing。 I paid her much attention； addressing the greater part of my conversation to her； and； in less than half an hour； I discovered what her niece subsequently acknowledged to me； that her aged aunt； having but a small fortune； and a still smaller share of understanding； enjoys no satisfaction except in the pedigree of her ancestors； no protection save in her noble birth； and no enjoyment but in looking from her castle over the heads of the humble citizens。 She was； no doubt； handsome in her youth； and in her early years probably trifled away her time in rendering many a poor youth the sport of her caprice： in her riper years she has submitted to the yoke of a veteran officer； who； in return for her person and her small independence； has spent with her what we may designate her age of brass。 He is dead； and she is now a widow； and deserted。 She spends her iron age alone； and would not be approached； except for the loveliness of her niece。
JANUARY 8； 1772。
What beings are men； whose whole thoughts are occupied with form and ceremony； who for years together devote their mental and physical exertions to the task of advancing themselves but one step； and endeavouring to occupy a higher place at the table。 Not that such persons would otherwise want employment： on the contrary； they give themselves much trouble by neglecting important business for such petty trifles。 Last week a question of precedence arose at a sledging…party； and all our amusement was spoiled。
The silly creatures cannot see that it is not place which constitutes real greatness； since the man who occupies the first place but seldom plays the principal part。 How many kings are governed by their ministers how many ministers by their secretaries？ Who； in such cases； is really the chief？ He； as it seems to me； who can see through the others； and possesses strength or skill enough to make their power or passions subservient to the execution of his own designs。
JANUARY 20。
I must write to you from this place； my dear Charlotte； from a small room in a country inn； where I have taken shelter from a severe storm。 During my whole residence in that wretched place D； where I lived amongst strangers； strangers； indeed； to this heart； I never at any time felt the smallest inclination to correspond with you； but in this cottage； in this retirement； in this solitude； with the snow and hail beating against my lattice…pane； you are my first thought。 The instant I entered； your figure rose up before me； and the remembrance！ O my Charlotte； the sacred； tender remembrance！ Gracious Heaven！ restore to me the happy moment of our first acquaintance。
Could you but see me； my dear Charlotte； in the whirl of dissipation； how my senses are dried up； but my heart is at no time full。 I enjoy no single moment of happiness： all is vain nothing touches me。 I stand； as it were； before the raree…show： I see the little puppets move； and I ask whether it is not an optical illusion。 I am amused with these puppets； or； rather； I am myself one of them： but； when I sometimes grasp my neighbour's hand； I feel that it is not natural； and I withdraw mine with a shudder。 In the evening I say I will enjoy the next morning's sunrise； and yet I remain in bed： in the day I promise to ramble by moonlight； and I； nevertheless； remain at home。 I know not why I rise； nor why I go to sleep。
The leaven which animated my existence is gone： the charm which cheered me in the gloom of night； and aroused me from my morning slumbers； is for ever fled。
I have found but one being here to interest me； a Miss B。 She resembles you； my dear Charlotte； if any one can possibly resemble you。 〃Ah！〃 you will say； 〃he has learned how to pay fine compliments。〃 And this is partly true。 I have been very agreeable lately； as it was not in my power to be otherwise。 I have； moreover； a deal of wit： and the ladies say that no one understands flattery better； or falsehoods you will add； since the one accomplishment invariably accompanies the other。 But I must tell you of Miss B。 She has abundance of soul； which flashes from her deep blue eyes。 Her rank is a torment to her； and satisfies no one desire of her heart。 She would gladly retire from this whirl of fashion； and we often picture to ourselves a life of undisturbed happiness in distant scenes of rural retirement： and then we speak of you； my dear Charlotte； for she knows you； and renders homage to your merits； but her homage is not exacted； but voluntary； she loves you； and delights to hear you made the subject of conversation。
Oh； that I were sitting at your feet in your favourite little room； with the dear children playing around us！ If they became troublesome to you； I would tell them some appalling goblin story； and they would crowd round me with silent attention。 The sun is setting in glory； his last rays are shining on the snow； which covers the face of the country： the storm is over； and I must return to my dungeon。 Adieu！ Is Albert with you？ and what is he to you？ God forgive the question。
FEBRUARY 8。
For a week past we have had the most wretched weather： but this to me is a blessing； for； during my residence here； not a single fine day has beamed from the heavens； but has been lost to me by the intrusion of somebody。 During the severity of rain； sleet； frost； and storm； I congratulate myself that it cannot be worse indoors than abroad； nor worse abroad than it is within doors； and so I become reconciled。 When the sun rises bright in the morning； and promises a glorious day； I never omit to exclaim； 〃There； now； they have another blessing from Heaven； which they will be sure to destroy： they spoil everything； health； fame； happiness； amusement； and they do this generally through folly； ignorance； or imbecility； and always； according to their own account； with the best intentions！〃 I could often beseech them； on my bended knees； to be less resolved upon their own destruction。
FEBRUARY 17。
I fear that my ambassador and I shall not continue much longer together。 He is really growing past endurance。 He transacts his business in so ridiculous a manner； that I am often compelled to contradict him； and do things my own way； and then； of course； he thinks them very ill done。 He complained of me lately on this account at court； and the minister gave me a reprimand； a gentle one it is true； but still a reprimand。 In consequence of this； I was about to tender my resignation； when I received a letter； to which I submitted with great respect； on account of the high； noble； and generous spirit which dictated it。 He endeavoured to soothe my excessive sensibility； paid a tribute to my extreme ideas of duty； of good example； and of perseverance in business； as the fruit of my youthful ardour； an impulse which he did not seek to destroy； but only to moderate； that it might have proper play and be productive of good。 So now I am at rest for another week； and no longer at variance with myself。 Content and peace of mind are valuable things： I could wish； my dear friend； that these precious jewels were less transitory。
FERRUARY 20。
God bless you； my dear friends； and may he grant you that happiness which he denies to me！
I thank you； Albert； for having deceived me。 I waited for the news that your wedding…day was fixed； and I intended on that day； with solemnity； to take down Charlotte's profile from the wall； and to bury it with some other papers I possess。 You are now united； and her picture still remains here。 Well； let it remain！ Why should it not？ I know that I am still one of your society； that I still occupy a place uninjured in Charlotte's heart； that I hold the second place therein； and I intend to
