letters of two brides-第33章

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again；　and　through　whom　I　am　able　to　picture　to　myself　this　brave
love；　this　jealousy　all　on　fire　at　a　look；　these　whisperings　in　the
ear；　these　joys　which　create　for　women；　as　it　were；　a　new　atmosphere；
a　new　daylight；　fresh　life！　Ah！　pet；　I　too　understand　love。　Don't
weary　of　telling　me　everything。　Keep　faithful　to　our　bond。　I　promise；
in　my　turn；　to　spare　you　nothing。

Nayto　conclude　in　all　seriousnessI　will　not　conceal　from　you　that；
on　reading　your　letter　a　second　time；　I　was　seized　with　a　dread　which
I　could　not　shake　off。　This　superb　love　seems　like　a　challenge　to
Providence。　Will　not　the　sovereign　master　of　this　earth；　Calamity；
take　umbrage　if　no　place　be　left　for　him　at　your　feast？　What　mighty
edifice　of　fortune　has　he　not　overthrown？　Oh！　Louise；　forget　not；　in
all　this　happiness；　your　prayers　to　God。　Do　good；　be　kind　and
merciful；　let　your　moderation；　if　it　may　be；　avert　disaster。　Religion
has　meant　much　more　to　me　since　I　left　the　convent　and　since　my
marriage；　but　your　Paris　news　contains　no　mention　of　it。　In　your
glorification　of　Felipe　it　seems　to　me　you　reverse　the　saying；　and
invoke　God　less　than　His　saint。

But；　after　all；　this　panic　is　only　excess　of　affection。　You　go　to
church　together；　I　do　not　doubt；　and　do　good　in　secret。　The　close　of
this　letter　will　seem　to　you　very　primitive；　I　expect；　but　think　of
the　too　eager　friendship　which　prompts　these　fearsa　friendship　of
the　type　of　La　Fontaine's；　which　takes　alarms　at　dreams；　at　half…
formed；　misty　ideas。　You　deserve　to　be　happy；　since；　through　it　all；
you　still　think　of　me；　no　less　than　I　think　of　you；　in　my　monotonous
life；　which；　though　it　lacks　color；　is　yet　not　empty；　and；　if
uneventful；　is　not　unfruitful。　God　bless　you；　then！



XXIX

M。　DE　L'ESTORADE　TO　THE　BARONNE　DE　MACUMER
December　1825。

Madame；It　is　the　desire　of　my　wife　that　you　should　not　learn　first
from　the　formal　announcement　of　an　event　which　has　filled　us　with　joy。
Renee　has　just　given　birth　to　a　fine　boy；　whose　baptism　we　are
postponing　till　your　return　to　Chantepleurs。　Renee　and　I　both
earnestly　hope　that　you　may　then　come　as　far　as　La　Crampade；　and　will
consent　to　act　as　godmother　to　our　firstborn。　In　this　hope；　I　have　had
him　placed　on　the　register　under　the　name　of　Armand…Louis　de
l'Estorade。

Our　dear　Renee　suffered　much；　but　bore　it　with　angelic　patience。　You；
who　know　her；　will　easily　understand　that　the　assurance　of　bringing
happiness　to　us　all　supported　her　through　this　trying　apprenticeship
to　motherhood。

Without　indulging　in　the　more　or　less　ludicrous　exaggerations　to　which
the　novel　sensation　of　being　a　father　is　apt　to　give　rise；　I　may　tell
you　that　little　Armand　is　a　beautiful　infant；　and　you　will　have　no
difficulty　in　believing　it　when　I　add　that　he　has　Renee's　features　and
eyes。　So　far；　at　least；　this　gives　proof　of　intelligence。

The　physician　and　accoucheur　assure　us　that　Renee　is　now　quite　out　of
danger；　and　as　she　is　proving　an　admirable　nurseNature　has　endowed
her　so　generously！my　father　and　I　are　able　to　give　free　rein　to　our
joy。　Madame；　may　I　be　allowed　to　express　the　hope　that　this　joy；　so
vivid　and　intense；　which　has　brought　fresh　life　into　our　house；　and
has　changed　the　face　of　existence　for　my　dear　wife；　may　ere　long　be
yours？

Renee　has　had　a　suite　of　rooms　prepared；　and　I　only　wish　I　could　make
them　worthy　of　our　guests。　But　the　cordial　friendliness　of　the
reception　which　awaits　you　may　perhaps　atone　for　any　lack　of　splendor。

I　have　heard　from　Renee；　madame；　of　your　kind　thought　in　regard　to　us；
and　I　take　this　opportunity　of　thanking　you　for　it；　the　more　gladly
because　nothing　could　now　be　more　appropriate。　The　birth　of　a　grandson
has　reconciled　my　father　to　sacrifices　which　bear　hardly　on　an　old
man。　He　has　just　bought　two　estates；　and　La　Crampade　is　now　a　property
with　an　annual　rental　of　thirty　thousand　francs。　My　father　intends
asking　the　King's　permission　to　form　an　entailed　estate　of　it；　and　if
you　are　good　enough　to　get　for　him　the　title　of　which　you　spoke　in
your　last　letter；　you　will　have　already　done　much　for　your　godson。

For　my　part；　I　shall　carry　out　your　suggestions　solely　with　the　object
of　bringing　you　and　Renee　together　during　the　sessions　of　the　Chamber。
I　am　working　hard　with　the　view　of　becoming　what　is　called　a
specialist。　But　nothing　could　give　me　greater　encouragement　in　my
labors　than　the　thought　that　you　will　take　an　interest　in　my　little
Armand。　Come；　then；　we　beg　of　you；　and　with　your　beauty　and　your
grace；　your　playful　fancy　and　your　noble　soul；　enact　the　part　of　good
fairy　to　my　son　and　heir。　You　will　thus；　madame；　add　undying　gratitude
to　the　respectful　regard　of
Your　very　humble；　obedient　servant；
LOUIS　DE　L'ESTORADE。



XXX

LOUISE　DE　MACUMER　TO　RENEE　DE　L'ESTORADE
January　1826。

Macumer　has　just　wakened　me；　darling；　with　your　husband's　letter。
First　and　foremostYes。　We　shall　be　going　to　Chantepleurs　about　the
end　of　April。　To　me　it　will　be　a　piling　up　of　pleasure　to　travel；　to
see　you；　and　to　be　the　godmother　of　your　first　child。　I　must；　please；
have　Macumer　for　godfather。　To　take　part　in　a　ceremony　of　the　Church
with　another　as　my　partner　would　be　hateful　to　me。　Ah！　if　you　could
see　the　look　he　gave　me　as　I　said　this；　you　would　know　what　store　this
sweetest　of　lovers　sets　on　his　wife！

〃I　am　the　more　bent　on　our　visiting　La　Crampade　together；　Felipe；〃　I
went　on；　〃because　I　might　have　a　child　there。　I　too；　you　know；　would
be　a　mother！　。　。　。　And　yet；　can　you　fancy　me　torn　in　two　between　you
and　the　infant？　To　begin　with；　if　I　saw　any　creaturewere　it　even　my
own　sontaking　my　place　in　your　heart；　I　couldn't　answer　for　the
consequences。　Medea　may　have　been　right　after　all。　The　Greeks　had　some
good　notions！〃

And　he　laughed。

So；　my　sweetheart；　you　have　the　fruit　without　the　flowers；　I　the
flowers　without　the　fruit。　The　contrast　in　our　lives　still　holds　good。
Between　the　two　of　us　we　have　surely　enough　philosophy　to　find　the
moral　of　it　some　day。　Bah！　only　ten　months　married！　Too　soon；　you　will
admit；　to　give　up　hope。

We　are　leading　a　gay；　yet　far　from　empty　life；　as　is　the　way　with
happy　people。　The　days　are　never　long　enough　for　us。　Society；　seeing
me　in　the　trappings　of　a　married　woman；　pronounces　the　Baronne　de
Macumer　much　prettier　than　Louise　de　Chaulieu：　a　happy　love　is　a　most
becoming　cosmetic。　When　Felipe　and　I　drive　along　the　Champs…Elysees　in
the　bright　sunshine　of　a　crisp　January　day；　beneath　the　trees；　frosted
with　clusters　of　white　stars；　and　face　all　Paris　on　the　spot　where
last　year　we　met　with　a　gulf　between　us；　the　contrast　calls　up　a
thousand　fancies。　Suppose；　after　all；　your　last　letter　should　be　right
in　its　forecast；　and　we　are　too　presumptuous！

If　I　am　ignorant　of　a　mother's　joys；　you　shall　tell　me　about　them；　I
will　learn　by　sympathy。　But　my　imagination　can　picture　nothing　to
equal　the　rapture　of　love。　You　will　laugh　at　my　extravagance；　but；　I
assure　you；　that　a　dozen　times　in　as　many　months　the　longing　has
seized　me　to　die　at　thirty；　while　life　was　still　untarnished；　amidst
the　roses　of　love；　in　the　embrace　of　passion。　To　bid　farewell　to　the
feast　at　its　brightest；　before　disappointment　has　come；　having　lived
in　this　sunshine　and　celestial　air；　and　well…nigh　spent　myself　in
love；　not　a　leaf　dropped　from　my　crown；　not　an　illusion　perished　in　my
heart；　what　a　dream　is　there！　Think　what　it　would　be　to　bear　about　a
young　heart　in　an　aged　body；　to　see　only　cold；　dumb　faces　around　me；
where　even　strangers　used　to　smile；　to　be　a　worthy　matron！　Can　Hell
have　a　worse　torture？

On　this　very　subject；　in　fact；　Felipe　and　I　have　had　our　first
quarrel。　I　contended　that　he　ought　to　have　sufficient　moral　strength
to　kill　me　in　my　sleep　when　I　have　reached　thirty；　so　that　I　might
pass　from　one　dream　to　another。　The　wretch　declined。　I　threatened　to
leave　him　alone　in　the　world；　and；　poor　child；　he　turned　white　as　a
sheet。　My　dear；　this　distinguished　statesman　is　neither　more　nor　less
than　a　baby。　It　is　incredible　what　youth　and　simplicity　he　contrived
to　hide　away。　Now　that　I　allow　myself　to　think　aloud　with　him；　as　I　do
with　you；　and　have　no　secrets　from　him；　we　are　always