memoirs of carwin the biloquist-第11章
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acy of this instrument depended upon its existence being unknown。 To confide the secret to one； was to put an end to my privilege： how widely the knowledge would thenceforth be diffused； I had no power to foresee。
Each day multiplied the impediments to confidence。 Shame hindered me from acknowledging my past reserves。 Ludloe； from the nature of our intercourse； would certainly account my reserve； in this respect； unjustifiable； and to excite his indignation or contempt was an unpleasing undertaking。 Now； if I should resolve to persist in my new path； this reserve must be dismissed： I must make him master of a secret which was precious to me beyond all others； by acquainting him with past concealments； I must risk incurring his suspicion and his anger。 These reflections were productive of considerable embarrassment。
There was； indeed； an avenue by which to escape these difficulties； if it did not； at the same time； plunge me into greater。 My confessions might； in other respects； be unbounded； but my reserves； in this particular； might be continued。 Yet should I not expose myself to formidable perils？ Would my secret be for ever unsuspected and undiscovered？
When I considered the nature of this faculty； the impossibility of going farther than suspicion； since the agent could be known only by his own confession； and even this confession would not be believed by the greater part of mankind； I was tempted to conceal it。
In most cases； if I had asserted the possession of this power； I should be treated as a liar； it would be considered as an absurd and audacious expedient to free myself from the suspicion of having entered into compact with a daemon； or of being myself an emissary of the grand foe。 Here； however； there was no reason to dread a similar imputation； since Ludloe had denied the preternatural pretensions of these airy sounds。
My conduct on this occasion was nowise influenced by the belief of any inherent sanctity in truth。 Ludloe had taught me to model myself in this respect entirely with a view to immediate consequences。 If my genuine interest； on the whole； was promoted by veracity； it was proper to adhere to it； but； if the result of my investigation were opposite； truth was to be sacrificed without scruple。
*Paraguay。
Chapter VII。
Meanwhile； in a point of so much moment； I was not hasty to determine。 My delay seemed to be； by no means； unacceptable to Ludloe； who applauded my discretion； and warned me to be circumspect。 My attention was chiefly absorbed by considerations connected with this subject； and little regard was paid to any foreign occupation or amusement。
One evening； after a day spent in my closet； I sought recreation by walking forth。 My mind was chiefly occupied by the review of incidents which happened in Spain。 I turned my face towards the fields； and recovered not from my reverie； till I had proceeded some miles on the road to Meath。 The night had considerably advanced； and the darkness was rendered intense； by the setting of the moon。 Being somewhat weary； as well as undetermined in what manner next to proceed； I seated myself on a grassy bank beside the road。 The spot which I had chosen was aloof from passengers； and shrowded in the deepest obscurity。
Some time elapsed； when my attention was excited by the slow approach of an equipage。 I presently discovered a coach and six horses； but unattended； except by coachman and postillion； and with no light to guide them on their way。 Scarcely had they passed the spot where I rested； when some one leaped from beneath the hedge； and seized the head of the fore…horses。 Another called upon the coachman to stop； and threatened him with instant death if he disobeyed。 A third drew open the coach…door； and ordered those within to deliver their purses。 A shriek of terror showed me that a lady was within； who eagerly consented to preserve her life by the loss of her money。
To walk unarmed in the neighbourhood of Dublin； especially at night； has always been accounted dangerous。 I had about me the usual instruments of defence。 I was desirous of rescuing this person from the danger which surrounded her； but was somewhat at a loss how to effect my purpose。 My single strength was insufficient to contend with three ruffians。 After a moment's debate； an expedient was suggested； which I hastened to execute。
Time had not been allowed for the ruffian who stood beside the carriage to receive the plunder； when several voices； loud； clamorous； and eager； were heard in the quarter whence the traveller had come。 By trampling with quickness； it was easy to imitate the sound of many feet。 The robbers were alarmed； and one called upon another to attend。 The sounds increased； and； at the next moment； they betook themselves to flight； but not till a pistol was discharged。 Whether it was aimed at the lady in the carriage； or at the coachman； I was not permitted to discover； for the report affrighted the horses； and they set off at full speed。
I could not hope to overtake them： I knew not whither the robbers had fled； and whether； by proceeding； I might not fall into their hands。 。 。 。 。 These considerations induced me to resume my feet； and retire from the scene as expeditiously as possible。 I regained my own habitation without injury。
I have said that I occupied separate apartments from those of Ludloe。 To these there were means of access without disturbing the family。 I hasted to my chamber； but was considerably surprized to find； on entering my apartment； Ludloe seated at a table； with a lamp before him。
My momentary confusion was greater than his。 On discovering who it was； he assumed his accustomed looks； and explained appearances； by saying； that he wished to converse with me on a subject of importance； and had therefore sought me at this secret hour； in my own chamber。 Contrary to his expectation； I was absent。 Conceiving it possible that I might shortly return； he had waited till now。 He took no further notice of my absence； nor manifested any desire to know the cause of it； but proceeded to mention the subject which had brought him hither。 These were his words。
You have nothing which the laws permit you to call your own。 Justice entitles you to the supply of your physical wants； from those who are able to supply them； but there are few who will acknowledge your claim； or spare an atom of their superfluity to appease your cravings。 That which they will not spontaneously give； it is not right to wrest from them by violence。 What then is to be done？
Property is necessary to your own subsistence。 It is useful； by enabling you to supply the wants of others。 To give food； and clothing； and shelter； is to give life； to annihilate temptation； to unshackle virtue； and propagate felicity。 How shall property be gained？
You may set your understanding or your hands at work。 You may weave stockings； or write poems； and exchange them for money； but these are tardy and meagre schemes。 The means are disproportioned to the end； and I will not suffer you to pursue them。 My justice will supply your wants。
But dependance on the justice of others is a precarious condition。 To be the object is a less ennobling state than to be the bestower of benefit。 Doubtless you desire to be vested with competence and riches； and to hold them by virtue of the law； and not at the will of a benefactor。 。 。 。 。 。 He paused as if waiting for my assent to his positions。 I readily expressed my concurrence； and my desire to pursue any means compatible with honesty。 He resumed。
There are various means； besides labour； violence； or fraud。 It is right to select the easiest within your reach。 It happens that the easiest is at hand。 A revenue of some thousands a year； a stately mansion in the city； and another in Kildare； old and faithful domestics； and magnificent furniture； are good things。 Will you have them？
A gift like that； replied I； will be attended by momentous conditions。 I cannot decide upon its value； until I know these conditions。
The sole condition is your consent to receive them。 Not even the airy obligation of gratitude will be created by acceptance。 On the contrary； by accepting them；
