the brotherhood of consolation-第9章
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was keenly excited。 Letting his eyes fall by chance； as people will
when their souls are launched in meditation； they rested mechanically
on the two open pages of the book； almost unconsciously he read the
following heading：
CHAPTER XII。
THE ROYAL WAY OF THE HOLY CROSS
He took up the book； a sentence of that noble chapter caught his eye
like a flash of light：
〃He has walked before thee； bearing his cross； he died for thee；
that thou mightest bear thy cross； and be glad to die upon it。
〃Go where thou wilt； seek what thou wilt； never canst thou find a
nobler； surer path than the royal way of the holy cross。
〃Dispose and order all things according to thy desires and thine
own judgment and still thou shalt find trials to suffer； whether
thou wilt or no； and so the cross is there； be it pain of body or
pain of mind。
〃Sometimes God will seem to leave thee； sometimes men will harass
thee。 But； far worse； thou wilt find thyself a burden to thyself；
and no remedy will deliver thee； no consolation comfort thee：
until it pleases God to end thy trouble thou must bear it； for it
is God's will that we suffer without consolation； that we may go
to him without one backward look； humble through tribulation。〃
〃What a strange book！〃 thought Godefroid； turning over the leaves。
Then his eyes lighted on the following words：
〃When thou hast reached the height of finding all afflictions
sweet； since they have made thee love the love of Jesus Christ；
then know thyself happy； for thou hast found thy paradise in this
world。〃
Annoyed by this simplicity （the characteristic of strength）； angry at
being foiled by a book； he closed the volume； but even then he saw； in
letters of gold on the green morocco cover； the words：
SEEK THAT WHICH IS ETERNAL； AND THAT ONLY。
〃Have they found it here？〃 he asked himself。
He went out to buy the handsomest copy he could find of the 〃Imitation
of Jesus Christ〃 thinking that Madame de la Chanterie would wish to
read her chapter that night。 When he reached the street he stood a
moment near the door； uncertain which way to take and debating in what
direction he was likely to find a bookseller。 As he stood there he
heard the heavy sound of the massive porte…cochere closing。
Two men were leaving the hotel de la Chanterie。 If the reader has
fully understood the character of this old house he will know that it
was one of the ancient mansions of the olden time。 Manon； herself；
when she called Godefroid that morning； had asked him； smiling； how he
had slept in the hotel de la Chanterie。
Godefroid followed the two men without the slightest intention of
watching them； they took him for an accidental passer； and spoke in
tones which enabled him to hear distinctly in those lonely streets。
The two men passed along the rue Massillon beside the church and
crossed the open space in front of it。
〃Well； you see； old man； it is easy enough to catch their sous。 Say
what they want you to say； that's all。〃
〃But we owe money。〃
〃To whom？〃
〃To that lady〃
〃I'd like to see that old body try to get it； I'd〃
〃You'd pay her。〃
〃Well； you're right； for if I paid her I'd get more another time。〃
〃Wouldn't it be better to do as they advise； and build up a good
business？〃
〃Pooh！〃
〃But she said she would get some one to lend us the money。〃
〃Then we should have to give up the life of〃
〃Well； I'd rather； I'm sick of it； it isn't being a man at all to be
drunk half one's time。〃
〃Yes； but you know the abbe turned his back on old Marin the other
day； he refused him everything。〃
〃Because old Marin tried to swindle； and nobody can succeed in that
but millionnaires。〃
Just then the two men； whose dress seemed to show that they were
foremen in some workshop； turned abruptly round towards the place
Maubert by the bridge of the Hotel…Dieu。 Godefroid stepped aside to
let them pass。 Seeing him so close behind them they looked rather
anxiously at each other； and their faces expressed a regret for having
spoken。
Godefroid was the more interested by this conversation because it
reminded him of the scene between the Abbe de Veze and the workman the
day of his first visit。
Thinking over this circumstance； he went as far as a bookseller's in
the rue Saint…Jacques； whence he returned with a very handsome copy of
the finest edition published in France of the 〃Imitation of Jesus
Christ。〃 Walking slowly back； in order that he might arrive exactly at
the dinner hour； he recalled his own sensations during this morning
and he was conscious of a new impulse in his soul。 He was seized by a
sudden and deep curiosity； but his curiosity paled before an
inexplicable desire。 He was drawn to Madame de la Chanterie； he felt
the keenest desire to attach himself to her； to devote himself to her；
to please her； to deserve her praise： in short； he felt the first
emotions of platonic love； he saw glimpses of the untold grandeur of
that soul； and he longed to know it in its entirety。 He grew impatient
to enter the inner lives of these pure Catholics。 In that small
company of faithful souls； the majesty of practical religion was so
thoroughly blended with all that is most majestic in a French woman
that Godefroid resolved to leave no stone unturned to make himself
accepted as a true member of the little body。 These feelings would
have been unnaturally sudden in a busy Parisian eagerly occupied with
life； but Godefroid was； as we have seen； in the position of a
drowning man who catches at every floating branch thinking it a solid
stay； and his soul； ploughed and furrowed with trial； was ready to
receive all seed。
He found the four friends in the salon； and he presented the book to
Madame de la Chanterie； saying：
〃I did not like to deprive you of it to…night。〃
〃God grant；〃 she said； smiling； as she looked at the magnificent
volume； 〃that this may be your last excess of elegance。〃
Looking at the clothes of the four men present and observing how in
every particular they were reduced to mere utility and neatness； and
seeing； too； how rigorously the same principle was applied to all the
details of the house； Godefroid understood the value of the reproach
so courteously made to him。
〃Madame；〃 he said； 〃the persons whom you obliged this morning are
scoundrels； I overheard； without intending it； what they said to each
other when they left the house； it was full of the basest
ingratitude。〃
〃They were the two locksmiths of the rue Mouffetard；〃 said Madame de
la Chanterie to Monsieur Nicolas； 〃that is your affair。〃
〃The fish gets away more than once before it is caught；〃 said Monsieur
Alain； laughing。
The perfect indifference of Madame de la Chanterie on hearing of the
immediate ingratitude of persons to whom she had； no doubt； given
money； surprised Godefroid； who became thoughtful。
The dinner was enlivened by Monsieur Alain and Monsieur Joseph； but
Monsieur Nicolas remained quiet； sad； and cold； he bore on his
features the ineffaceable imprint of some bitter grief； some eternal
sorrow。 Madame de la Chanterie paid equal attentions to all。 Godefroid
felt himself observed by these persons； whose prudence equalled their
piety； his vanity led him to imitate their reserve； and he measured
his words。
This first day was much more interesting than those which succeeded
it。 Godefroid； who found himself set aside from all the serious
conferences； was obliged； during several hours in mornings and
evenings when he was left wholly to himself； to have recourse to the
〃Imitation of Jesus Christ；〃 and he ended by studying that book as a
man studies a book when he has but one； or is a prisoner。 A book is
then like a woman with whom we live in solitude； we must either hate
or adore that woman； and； in like manner； we must either enter into
the soul of the author or not read ten lines of his book。
Now； it is impossible not to be impressed by the 〃Imitation of Jesus
Christ；〃 which is to dogma what action is to thought。 Catholicism
vibrates in it； pulses； breathes； and lives； body to body； with human
life。 The book is a sure friend。 It speaks to all passions； all
difficulties； ev
