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were；　on　the　things　about　us？



Next　morning　he　rose；　not　having　slept。　The　heartache；　that

terrible　malady　of　the　soul；　had　made　rapid　inroads。　To　lose　the

bliss　we　dreamed　of；　to　renounce　our　whole　future；　is　a　keener

pang　than　that　caused　by　the　loss　of　known　happiness；　however

complete　it　may　have　been；　for　is　not　Hope　better　than　Memory？

The　thoughts　into　which　our　spirit　is　suddenly　plunged　are　like　a

shoreless　sea；　in　which　we　may　swim　for　a　moment；　but　where　our

love　is　doomed　to　drown　and　die。　And　it　is　a　frightful　death。　Are

not　our　feelings　the　most　glorious　part　of　our　life？　It　is　this

partial　death　which；　in　certain　delicate　or　powerful　natures；

leads　to　the　terrible　ruin　produced　by　disenchantment；　by　hopes

and　passions　betrayed。　Thus　it　was　with　the　young　painter。　He

went　out　at　a　very　early　hour　to　walk　under　the　fresh　shade　of

the　Tuileries；　absorbed　in　his　thoughts；　forgetting　everything　in

the　world。



There　by　chance　he　met　one　of　his　most　intimate　friends；　a

school…fellow　and　studio…mate；　with　whom　he　had　lived　on　better

terms　than　with　a　brother。



〃Why；　Hippolyte；　what　ails　you？〃　asked　Francois　Souchet；　the

young　sculptor　who　had　just　won　the　first　prize；　and　was　soon　to

set　out　for　Italy。



〃I　am　most　unhappy；〃　replied　Hippolyte　gravely。



〃Nothing　but　a　love　affair　can　cause　you　grief。　Money；　glory；

respectyou　lack　nothing。〃



Insensibly　the　painter　was　led　into　confidences；　and　confessed

his　love。　The　moment　he　mentioned　the　Rue　de　Suresnes；　and　a

young　girl　living　on　the　fourth　floor；　〃Stop；　stop；〃　cried

Souchet　lightly。　〃A　little　girl　I　see　every　morning　at　the　Church

of　the　Assumption；　and　with　whom　I　have　a　flirtation。　But；　my

dear　fellow；　we　all　know　her。　The　mother　is　a　Baroness。　Do　you

really　believe　in　a　Baroness　living　up　four　flights　of　stairs？

Brrr！　Why；　you　are　a　relic　of　the　golden　age！　We　see　the　old


mother　here；　in　this　avenue；　every　day；　why；　her　face；　her

appearance；　tell　everything。　What；　have　you　not　known　her　for

what　she　is　by　the　way　she　holds　her　bag？〃



The　two　friends　walked　up　and　down　for　some　time；　and　several

young　men　who　knew　Souchet　or　Schinner　joined　them。　The　painter's

adventure；　which　the　sculptor　regarded　as　unimportant；　was

repeated　by　him。



〃So　he；　too；　has　seen　that　young　lady！〃　said　Souchet。



And　then　there　were　comments；　laughter；　innocent　mockery；　full　of

the　liveliness　familiar　to　artists；　but　which　pained　Hippolyte

frightfully。　A　certain　native　reticence　made　him　uncomfortable　as

he　saw　his　heart's　secret　so　carelessly　handled；　his　passion

rent；　torn　to　tatters；　a　young　and　unknown　girl；　whose　life

seemed　to　be　so　modest；　the　victim　of　condemnation；　right　or

wrong；　but　pronounced　with　such　reckless　indifference。　He

pretended　to　be　moved　by　a　spirit　of　contradiction；　asking　each

for　proofs　of　his　assertions；　and　their　jests　began　again。



〃But；　my　dear　boy；　have　you　seen　the　Baroness'　shawl？〃　asked

Souchet。



〃Have　you　ever　followed　the　girl　when　she　patters　off　to　church

in　the　morning？〃　said　Joseph　Bridau；　a　young　dauber　in　Gros'

studio。



〃Oh；　the　mother　has　among　other　virtues　a　certain　gray　gown；

which　I　regard　as　typical；〃　said　Bixiou；　the　caricaturist。



〃Listen；　Hippolyte；〃　the　sculptor　went　on。　〃Come　here　at　about

four　o'clock；　and　just　study　the　walk　of　both　mother　and

daughter。　If　after　that　you　still　have　doubts！　well；　no　one　can

ever　make　anything　of　you；　you　would　be　capable　of　marrying　your

porter's　daughter。



Torn　by　the　most　conflicting　feelings；　the　painter　parted　from

his　friends。　It　seemed　to　him　that　Adelaide　and　her　mother　must

be　superior　to　these　accusations；　and　at　the　bottom　of　his　heart

he　was　filled　with　remorse　for　having　suspected　the　purity　of

this　beautiful　and　simple　girl。　He　went　to　his　studio；　passing

the　door　of　the　rooms　where　Adelaide　was；　and　conscious　of　a　pain

at　his　heart　which　no　man　can　misapprehend。　He　loved　Mademoiselle

de　Rouville　so　passionately　that；　in　spite　of　the　theft　of　the

purse；　he　still　worshiped　her。　His　love　was　that　of　the　Chevalier

des　Grieux　admiring　his　mistress；　and　holding　her　as　pure；　even

on　the　cart　which　carries　such　lost　creatures　to　prison。　〃Why

should　not　my　love　keep　her　the　purest　of　women？　Why　abandon　her

to　evil　and　to　vice　without　holding　out　a　rescuing　hand　to　her？〃



The　idea　of　this　mission　pleased　him。　Love　makes　a　gain　of

everything。　Nothing　tempts　a　young　man　more　than　to　play　the　part

of　a　good　genius　to　a　woman。　There　is　something　inexplicably

romantic　in　such　an　enterprise　which　appeals　to　a　highly…strung

soul。　Is　it　not　the　utmost　stretch　of　devotion　under　the　loftiest

and　most　engaging　aspect？　Is　there　not　something　grand　in　the

thought　that　we　love　enough　still　to　love　on　when　the　love　of

others　dwindles　and　dies？



Hippolyte　sat　down　in　his　studio；　gazed　at　his　picture　without

doing　anything　to　it；　seeing　the　figures　through　tears　that

swelled　in　his　eyes；　holding　his　brush　in　his　hand；　going　up　to

the　canvas　as　if　to　soften　down　an　effect；　but　not　touching　it。

Night　fell；　and　he　was　still　in　this　attitude。　Roused　from　his

moodiness　by　the　darkness；　he　went　downstairs；　met　the　old

admiral　on　the　way；　looked　darkly　at　him　as　he　bowed；　and　fled。



He　had　intended　going　in　to　see　the　ladies；　but　the　sight　of

Adelaide's　protector　froze　his　heart　and　dispelled　his　purpose。

For　the　hundredth　time　he　wondered　what　interest　could　bring　this

old　prodigal；　with　his　eighty　thousand　francs　a　year；　to　this

fourth　story；　where　he　lost　about　forty　francs　every　evening；　and

he　thought　he　could　guess　what　it　was。



The　next　and　following　days　Hippolyte　threw　himself　into　his

work；　and　to　try　to　conquer　his　passion　by　the　swift　rush　of

ideas　and　the　ardor　of　composition。　He　half　succeeded。　Study

consoled　him；　though　it　could　not　smother　the　memories　of　so　many

tender　hours　spent　with　Adelaide。



One　evening；　as　he　left　his　studio；　he　saw　the　door　of　the

ladies'　rooms　half　open。　Somebody　was　standing　in　the　recess　of

the　window；　and　the　position　of　the　door　and　the　staircase　made

it　impossible　that　the　painter　should　pass　without　seeing

Adelaide。　He　bowed　coldly；　with　a　glance　of　supreme　indifference；

but　judging　of　the　girl's　suffering　by　his　own；　he　felt　an　inward

shudder　as　he　reflected　on　the　bitterness　which　that　look　and

that　coldness　must　produce　in　a　loving　heart。　To　crown　the　most

delightful　feast　which　ever　brought　joy　to　two　pure　souls；　by

eight　days　of　disdain；　of　the　deepest　and　most　utter　contempt！A

frightful　conclusion。　And　perhaps　the　purse　had　been　found；

perhaps　Adelaide　had　looked　for　her　friend　every　evening。



This　simple　and　natural　idea　filled　the　lover　with　fresh　remorse；

he　asked　himself　whether　the　proofs　of　attachment　given　him　by

the　young　girl；　the　delightful　talks；　full　of　the　love　that　had

so　charmed　him；　did　not　deserve　at　least　an　inquiry；　were　not

worthy　of　some　justification。　Ashamed　of　having　resisted　the

promptings　of　his　heart　for　a　whole　week；　and　feeling　himself

almost　a　criminal　in　this　mental　struggle；　he　called　the　same

evening　on　Madame　de　Rouville。



All　his　suspicions；　all　his　evil　thoughts　vanished　at　the　sight

of　the　young　girl；　who　had　grown　pale　and　thin。



〃Good　heavens！　what　is　the　matter？〃　he　asked　her；　after　greeting

the　Baroness。



Adelaide　made　no　reply；　but　she　gave　him　a　look　of　deep

melancholy；　a　sad；　dejected　look；　which　pained　him。



〃You　have；　no　doubt；　been　working　hard；〃　said　the　old　lady。　〃You

are　altered。　We　are　the　cause　of　your　seclusion。　That　portrait

had　delayed　some　pictures　essential　to　your　reputation。〃



Hippolyte　was　glad　to　find　so　good　an　excuse　for　his　rudeness。



〃Yes；〃　he　said；　〃I　have　been　very　busy；　but　I　have　been

suffering〃



At　these　words　Adelaide　raised　her　head；　looked　at　her　lover；　and

her　anxious　eyes　had　now　no　hint　of　reproach。



〃You　must　have　tho