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Antonia gazed at him across her shoulder; puzzled and inquiring was

her face。



〃I'm not a bit like you;〃 she said。  〃What will you have for your

room?〃



〃Choose!〃



〃Cornflowers and clove pinks。  Poppies are too frivolous; and pinks

too…〃



〃White;〃 said Shelton。



〃And mignonette too hard and…〃



〃Sweet。  Why cornflowers?〃



Antonia stood before him with her hands against her sides; her figure

was so slim and young; her face uncertain and so grave。



〃Because they're dark and deep。〃



〃And why clove pinks?〃



Antonia did not answer。



〃And why clove pinks?〃



〃Because;〃 she said; and; flushing; touched a bee that had settled on

her skirt; 〃because of something in you I don't understand。〃



〃Ah!  And what flowers shall t give YOU?〃



She put her hands behind her。



〃There are all the other flowers for me。〃



Shelton snatched from the mass in front of him an Iceland poppy with

straight stem and a curved neck; white pinks; and sprigs of hard;

sweet mignonette; and held it out to her。



〃There;〃 he said; 〃that's you。〃  But Antonia did not move。



〃Oh no; it is n't!〃 and behind her back her fingers slowly crushed

the petals of a blood…red poppy。  She shook her head; smiling a

brilliant smile。  The blossoms fell; he flung his arms around her;

and kissed her on the lips。



But his hands dropped; not fear exactly; nor exactly shame; had come

to him。  She had not resisted; but he had kissed the smile away; had

kissed a strange; cold; frightened look; into her eyes。



〃She did n't mean to tempt me; then;〃 he thought; in surprise and

anger。  〃What did she mean?〃 and; like a scolded dog; he kept his

troubled watch upon her face。









CHAPTER XXV



THE RIDE



〃Where now?〃 Antonia asked; wheeling her chestnut mare; as they

turned up High Street; Oxford City。  〃I won't go back the same way;

Dick!〃



〃We could have a gallop on Port Meadow; cross the Upper River twice;

and get home that way; but you 'll be tired。〃



Antonia shook her head。  Aslant her cheek the brim of a straw hat

threw a curve of shade; her ear glowed transparent in the sun。



A difference had come in their relations since that kiss; outwardly

she was the same good comrade; cool and quick。  But as before a

change one feels the subtle difference in the temper of the wind; so

Shelton was affected by the inner change in her。  He had made a blot

upon her candour; he had tried to rub it out again; but there was

left a mark; and it was ineffaceable。  Antonia belonged to the most

civilised division of the race most civilised in all the world; whose

creed is 〃Let us love and hate; let us work and marry; but let us

never give ourselves away; to give ourselves away is to leave a mark;

and that is past forgive ness。  Let our lives be like our faces; free

from every kind of wrinkle; even those of laughter; in this way alone

can we be really civilised。〃



He felt that she was ruffled by a vague discomfort。  That he should

give himself away was natural; perhaps; and only made her wonder; but

that he should give her the feeling that she had given herself away

was a very different thing。



〃Do you mind if I just ask at the Bishop's Head for letters?〃 he

said; as they passed the old hotel。



A dirty and thin envelope was brought to him; addressed 〃Mr。 Richard

Shelton; Esq。;〃 in handwriting that was passionately clear; as though

the writer had put his soul into securing delivery of the letter。  It

was dated three days back; and; as they rode away; Shelton read as

follows:



                              IMPERIAL PEACOCK HOTEL;

                                        FOLKESTONE。



MON CHER MONSIEUR SHELTON;



This is already the third time I have taken up pen to write to you;

but; having nothing but misfortune to recount; I hesitated; awaiting

better days。  Indeed; I have been so profoundly discouraged that if I

had not thought it my duty to let you know of my fortunes I know not

even now if I should have found the necessary spirit。  'Les choses

vont de mal en mal'。  From what I hear there has never been so bad a

season here。  Nothing going on。  All the same; I am tormented by a

mob of little matters which bring me not sufficient to support my

life。  I know not what to do; one thing is certain; in no case shall

I return here another year。  The patron of this hotel; my good

employer; is one of those innumerable specimens who do not forge or

steal because they have no need; and if they had would lack the

courage; who observe the marriage laws because they have been brought

up to believe in them; and know that breaking them brings risk and

loss of reputation; who do not gamble because they dare not; do not

drink because it disagrees with them; go to church because their

neighbours go; and to procure an appetite for the mid…day meal;

commit no murder because; not transgressing in any other fashion;

they are not obliged。  What is there to respect in persons of this

sort?  Yet they are highly esteemed; and form three quarters of

Society。  The rule with these good gentlemen is to shut their eyes;

never use their thinking powers; and close the door on all the dogs

of life for fear they should get bitten。



Shelton paused; conscious of Antonia's eyes fixed on him with the

inquiring look that he had come to dread。  In that chilly questioning

she seemed to say: 〃I am waiting。  I am prepared to be told things

that is; useful thingsthings that help one to believe without the

risk of too much thinking。〃



〃It's from that young foreigner;〃 he said; and went on reading to

himself。



I have eyes; and here I am; I have a nose 'pour; flairer le humbug'。

I see that amongst the value of things nothing is the equal of 〃free

thought。〃  Everything else they can take from me; 'on ne pent pas

m'oter cela'!  I see no future for me here; and certainly should have

departed long ago if I had had the money; but; as I have already told

you; all that I can do barely suffices to procure me 'de quoi vivre'。

'Je me sens ecceuye'。  Do not pay too much attention to my Jeremiads;

you know what a pessimist I am。  'Je ne perds pas courage'。



Hoping that you are well; and in the cordial pressing of your hand; I

subscribe myself;



                    Your very devoted



                              LOUIS FERRAND。





He rode with the letter open in his hand; frowning at the curious

turmoil which Ferrand excited in his heart。  It was as though this

foreign vagrant twanged within him a neglected string; which gave

forth moans of a mutiny。



〃What does he say?〃 Antonia asked。



Should he show it to her?  If he might not; what should he do when

they were married?



〃I don't quite know;〃 he said at last; 〃it 's not particularly

cheering。〃'



〃What is he like; DickI mean; to look at?  Like a gentleman; or

what?〃



Shelton stifled a desire to laugh。



〃He looks very well in a frock…coat;〃 he replied; 〃his father was a

wine merchant。〃



Antonia flicked her whip against her skirt。



〃Of course;〃 she murmured; 〃I don't want to hear if there's anything

I ought not。〃



But instead of soothing Shelton; these words had just the opposite

effect。  His conception of the ideal wife was not that of one from

whom the half of life must be excluded。



〃It's only;〃 he stammered again; 〃that it's not cheerful。〃



〃Oh; all right!〃  she cried; and; touching her horse; flew off in

front。  〃I hate dismal things。〃



Shelton bit his lips。  It was not his fault that half the world was

dark。  He knew her words were loosed against himself; and; as always

at a sign of her displeasure; was afraid。  He galloped after her on

the scorched turf。



〃 What is it?〃 he said。  〃You 're angry with me!〃



〃Oh no!〃



〃Darling; I can't help it if things are n't cheerful。  We have eyes;〃

he added; quoting from the letter。



Antonia did not l

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