the red acorn-第3章
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Chapter II。 First Shots。
〃Cowards fear to die; but courage stout; Rather than live in snuff; will be put out。〃 Sir Walter Raleigh; on 〃The Snuff of a Candle。〃
All military courage of any value is the offspring of pride and will。 The existence of what is called 〃natural courage〃 may well be doubted。 What is frequently mistaken for it is either perfect self…command; or a stolid indifference; arising from dull…brained inability to comprehend what really is danger。
The first instincts of man teach him to shun all sources of harm; and if his senses are sufficiently acute to perceive danger; his natural disposition is to avoid encountering it。 This disposition can only be overcome by the exercise of the power of pride and willpride to aspire to the accomplishment of certain things; even though risk attend; and will to carry out those aspirations。
Harry Glen was apparently not deficient in either pride or will。 The close observer; however; seemed to see as his mastering sentiment a certain starile selfishness; not uncommon among the youths of his training and position in the slow…living; hum…drum country towns of Ohio。 The only son of a weakly…fondling mother and a father too earnestly treading the narrow path of early diligences and small savings by which a man becomes the richest in his village; to pay any attention to him; Harry grew up a self…indulgent; self…sufficient boy。 His course at the seminary and college naturally developed this into a snobbish assumption that he was of finer clay than the commonality; and in some way selected by fortune for her finer displays and luxurious purposes。 I have termed this a 〃sterile selfishness;〃 to distinguish it from that grand egoism which in large minds is fruitful of high accomplishments and great deeds; and to denote a force which; in the sons of the average 〃rich〃 men of the county seats; is apt to expend itself in satisfaction at having finer clothes and faster horses and pleasanter homes; than the averagein a pride of white hands and a scorn of drudgery。
When Harry signed his name upon the recruiting rolllargely impelled thereto by the delicately…flattering suggestion that he should lead off for the youth of Sardishe had not the slightest misgiving that by so doing he would subject himself to any of the ills and discomforts incidental to carrying out the enterprise upon which they were embarking。 He; like every one else; had no very clear idea of what the company would be called upon to do or undergo; but no doubt obtruded itself into his mind that whatever might be disagreeable in it would fall to some one else's lot; and he continue to have the same pleasant exemption that had been his good fortune so far through life。
And though the company was unexpectedly ordered to the field in the rugged mountains of Western Virginia; instead of to pleasant quarters about Washington; there was nothing to shake this comfortable belief。 The slack discipline of the first three months' service; and the confusion of ideas that prevailed in the beginning of the war as to military duties and responsibilities; enabled him to spend all the time he chose away from his company and with congenial spirits; about headquarters; and to make of the expedition; so far as he was concerned; a pleasant picnic。 Occasionally little shadows were thrown by the sight of corpses brought in; with ugly…looking bullet holes in head or breast; but these were always of the class he looked down upon; and he connected their bad luck in some way with their condition in life。 Doubtless some one had to go where there was danger of being shot; as some one had to dig ditches and help to pry wagons out of the mud; but there was something rather preposterous in the thought that anything of this kind was incumbent upon him。
The mutterings of the men against an officer; who would not share their hardships and duties; did not reach his ears; nor yet the gibes of the more earnest of the officers at the 〃young headquarter swells;〃 whose interest and zeal were nothing to what they would have taken in a fishing excursion。
It came about very naturally and very soon that this continual avoidance of duty in directions where danger might be encountered was stigmatized by the harsher name of cowardice。 Neither did this come to his knowledge; and he was consequently ignorant that he had delivered a fatal stab to his reputation one fine morning when; the regiment being ordered out with three days' rations and forty rounds of cartridges; the sergeant who was sent in search of him returned and reported that he was sick in his tent。 Jacob Alspaugh expressed the conclusion instantly arrived at by every one in the regiment:
〃It's all you could expect of one of them kid…glove fellers; to weaken when it came to serious business。〃
Harry's self…sufficiency had left so little room for anything that did not directly concern his own comfort; that he could not understand the deadly earnestness of the men he saw file out of camp; or that there was any urgent call for him to join them in their undertaking。
〃Bob Bennett's always going where there's no need of it;〃 he said to a companion; as he saw the last of the regiment disappear into the woods on the mountain side。 〃He could have staid back here with us just as well as not; instead of trudging off through the heat over these devilish roads; and probably get into a scrape for which no one will thank him。〃
〃Yes;〃 said Ned Burnleigh; with his affected drawl; 〃what the devil's the use; I'd like to know; for a fellah's putting himself out to do things; when there's any quantity of other fellahs; that can't be better employed; ready and even anxious to do them。〃
〃That's so。 But it's getting awful hot here。 Let's go over to the shade; where we were yesterday; and have Dick bring us a bucket of cold spring water and the bottles and things。〃
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〃Abe!〃 said Jake Alspaugh to his file…leadera red…headed; pock…marked man; whose normal condition was that of outspoken disgust at every thing〃this means a fight。〃
〃Your news would've been fresh and interesting last night;〃 growled Abe Bolton。 〃I suppose that's what we brought our guns along for。〃
〃Yes; but somebody's likely to get killed。〃
〃Well; you nor me don't have to pay their life insurance; as I know on。〃
〃But it may be you or me;〃
〃The devil'd be might anxious for green wood before he'd call you in。〃
〃Come; now; don't talk that way。 This is a mighty serious time。〃
〃I'll make it a durned sight seriouser for you if you don't keep them splay feet o'your'n offen my heels when we're marching。〃
〃Don't you think we'd better pay; orsomething?〃
〃You might try taking up a collection。〃
〃Try starting a hymn; Jake;〃 said a slender young man at his right elbow; whose face showed a color more intimately connected with the contents of his canteen than the heat of the day。 〃Line it out; and we'll all join in。 Something like this; for example:
'Hark; from the tombs a doleful sound Mine ears attend the cry。 Ye living men; come view the ground Where you must shortly lie。'〃
Alspaugh shuddered visibly。
〃Come; spunk up; Jake;〃 continued the slender young man。 〃Think how proud all your relations will be of you; if you die for your country。〃
〃I'm mad at all of my relations; and I don't want to do nothing to please 'em;〃 sighed Jake。
〃But I hope you're not so greedy as to want to live always?〃 said the slender young man; who answered roll…call to Kent Edwards。
〃No; but I don't want to be knocked off like a green apple; before I'm ripe and ready。〃
〃Better be knocked off green and unripe;〃 said Kent; his railing mood changing to one of sad introspection; 〃than to prematurely fall; from a worm gnawing at your heart。〃
Jake's fright was not so great as to make him forego the opportunity for a brutal retort:
〃You mean the 'worm of the still;' I s'pose。 Well; it don't gnaw at my heart so much as at some other folkses' that I know'd。〃
Kent's face crimsoned still deeper; and he half raised his musket; as if to strike him; but at that moment came the order to march; and the regiment moved forward。
The enemy was by this time known to be near; and the