the magic skin(驴皮记)-第56章

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should　wish　to　die　in　her　arms。〃

A　burst　of　gleeful　and　hearty　laughter　made　him　turn　his　face　towards

the　bed；　he　saw　Pauline's　face　through　the　transparent　curtains；
smiling　like　a　child　for　gladness　over　a　successful　piece　of　mischief。
Her　pretty　hair　fell　over　her　shoulders　in　countless　curls；　she　looked
like　a　Bengal　rose　upon　a　pile　of　white　roses。

〃I　cajoled　Jonathan；〃　said　she。　〃Doesn't　the　bed　belong　to　me；　to　me
who　am　your　wife？　Don't　scold　me；　darling；　I　only　wanted　to　surprise
you；　to　sleep　beside　you。　Forgive　me　for　my　freak。〃

She　sprang　out　of　bed　like　a　kitten；　showed　herself　gleaming　in　her
lawn　raiment；　and　sat　down　on　Raphael's　knee。

〃Love；　what　gulf　were　you　talking　about？〃　she　said；　with　an　anxious
expression　apparent　upon　her　face。

〃Death。〃

〃You　hurt　me；〃　she　answered。　〃There　are　some　thoughts　upon　which　we；
poor　women　that　we　are；　cannot　dwell；　they　are　death　to　us。　Is　it
strength　of　love　in　us；　or　lack　of　courage？　I　cannot　tell。　Death　does
not　frighten　me；〃　she　began　again；　laughingly。　〃To　die　with　you；　both
together；　to…morrow　morning；　in　one　last　embrace；　would　be　joy。　It
seems　to　me　that　even　then　I　should　have　lived　more　than　a　hundred
years。　What　does　the　number　of　days　matter　if　we　have　spent　a　whole
lifetime　of　peace　and　love　in　one　night；　in　one　hour？〃

〃You　are　right；　Heaven　is　speaking　through　that　pretty　mouth　of　yours。
Grant　that　I　may　kiss　you；　and　let　us　die；〃　said　Raphael。

〃Then　let　us　die；〃　she　said；　laughing。

Towards　nine　o'clock　in　the　morning　the　daylight　streamed　through　the
chinks　of　the　window　shutters。　Obscured　somewhat　by　the　muslin
curtains；　it　yet　sufficed　to　show　clearly　the　rich　colors　of　the
carpet；　the　silks　and　furniture　of　the　room；　where　the　two　lovers　were
lying　asleep。　The　gilding　sparkled　here　and　there。　A　ray　of　sunshine
fell　and　faded　upon　the　soft　down　quilt　that　the　freaks　of　live　had
thrown　to　the　ground。　The　outlines　of　Pauline's　dress；　hanging　from　a
cheval　glass；　appeared　like　a　shadowy　ghost。　Her　dainty　shoes　had　been
left　at　a　distance　from　the　bed。　A　nightingale　came　to　perch　upon　the
sill；　its　trills　repeated　over　again；　and　the　sounds　of　its　wings
suddenly　shaken　out　for　flight；　awoke　Raphael。

〃For　me　to　die；〃　he　said；　following　out　a　thought　begun　in　his　dream；
〃my　organization；　the　mechanism　of　flesh　and　bone；　that　is　quickened
by　the　will　in　me；　and　makes　of　me　an　individual　MAN；　must　display
some　perceptible　disease。　Doctors　ought　to　understand　the　symptoms　of
any　attack　on　vitality；　and　could　tell　me　whether　I　am　sick　or　sound。〃

He　gazed　at　his　sleeping　wife。　She　had　stretched　her　head　out　to　him；
expressing　in　this　way　even　while　she　slept　the　anxious　tenderness　of
love。　Pauline　seemed　to　look　at　him　as　she　lay　with　her　face　turned
towards　him　in　an　attitude　as　full　of　grace　as　a　young　child's；　with
her　pretty；　half…opened　mouth　held　out　towards　him；　as　she　drew　her
light；　even　breath。　Her　little　pearly　teeth　seemed　to　heighten　the
redness　of　the　fresh　lips　with　the　smile　hovering　over　them。　The　red
glow　in　her　complexion　was　brighter；　and　its　whiteness　was；　so　to
speak；　whiter　still　just　then　than　in　the　most　impassioned　moments　of
the　waking　day。　In　her　unconstrained　grace；　as　she　lay；　so　full　of
believing　trust；　the　adorable　attractions　of　childhood　were　added　to
the　enchantments　of　love。

Even　the　most　unaffected　women　still　obey　certain　social　conventions；
which　restrain　the　free　expansion　of　the　soul　within　them　during　their
waking　hours；　but　slumber　seems　to　give　them　back　the　spontaneity　of
life　which　makes　infancy　lovely。　Pauline　blushed　for　nothing；　she　was
like　one　of　those　beloved　and　heavenly　beings；　in　whom　reason　has　not
yet　put　motives　into　their　actions　and　mystery　into　their　glances。　Her
profile　stood　out　in　sharp　relief　against　the　fine　cambric　of　the
pillows；　there　was　a　certain　sprightliness　about　her　loose　hair　in
confusion；　mingled　with　the　deep　lace　ruffles；　but　she　was　sleeping　in
happiness；　her　long　lashes　were　tightly　pressed　against　her　cheeks；　as
if　to　secure　her　eyes　from　too　strong　a　light；　or　to　aid　an　effort　of
her　soul　to　recollect　and　to　hold　fast　a　bliss　that　had　been　perfect
but　fleeting。　Her　tiny　pink　and　white　ear；　framed　by　a　lock　of　her
hair　and　outlined　by　a　wrapping　of　Mechlin　lace；　would　have　made　an
artist；　a　painter；　an　old　man；　wildly　in　love；　and　would　perhaps　have
restored　a　madman　to　his　senses。

Is　it　not　an　ineffable　bliss　to　behold　the　woman　that　you　love；
sleeping；　smiling　in　a　peaceful　dream　beneath　your　protection；　loving
you　even　in　dreams；　even　at　the　point　where　the　individual　seems　to
cease　to　exist；　offering　to　you　yet　the　mute　lips　that　speak　to　you　in
slumber　of　the　latest　kiss？　Is　it　not　indescribable　happiness　to　see　a
trusting　woman；　half…clad；　but　wrapped　round　in　her　love　as　by　a　cloak
modesty　in　the　midst　of　dishevelmentto　see　admiringly　her
scattered　clothing；　the　silken　stocking　hastily　put　off　to　please　you
last　evening；　the　unclasped　girdle　that　implies　a　boundless　faith　in
you。　A　whole　romance　lies　there　in　that　girdle；　the　woman　that　it　used
to　protect　exists　no　longer；　she　is　yours；　she　has　become　YOU；
henceforward　any　betrayal　of　her　is　a　blow　dealt　at　yourself。

In　this　softened　mood　Raphael's　eyes　wandered　over　the　room；　now
filled　with　memories　and　love；　and　where　the　very　daylight　seemed　to
take　delightful　hues。　Then　he　turned　his　gaze　at　last　upon　the
outlines　of　the　woman's　form；　upon　youth　and　purity；　and　love　that
even　now　had　no　thought　that　was　not　for　him　alone；　above　all　things；
and　longed　to　live　for　ever。　As　his　eyes　fell　upon　Pauline；　her　own
opened　at　once　as　if　a　ray　of　sunlight　had　lighted　on　them。

〃Good…morning；〃　she　said；　smiling。　〃How　handsome　you　are；　bad　man！〃

The　grace　of　love　and　youth；　of　silence　and　dawn；　shone　in　their
faces；　making　a　divine　picture；　with　the　fleeting　spell　over　it　all
that　belongs　only　to　the　earliest　days　of　passion；　just　as　simplicity
and　artlessness　are　the　peculiar　possession　of　childhood。　Alas！　love's
springtide　joys；　like　our　own　youthful　laughter；　must　even　take
flight；　and　live　for　us　no　longer　save　in　memory；　either　for　our
despair；　or　to　shed　some　soothing　fragrance　over　us；　according　to　the
bent　of　our　inmost　thoughts。

〃What　made　me　wake　you？〃　said　Raphael。　〃It　was　so　great　a　pleasure　to
watch　you　sleeping　that　it　brought　tears　to　my　eyes。〃

〃And　to　mine；　too；〃　she　answered。　〃I　cried　in　the　night　while　I
watched　you　sleeping；　but　not　with　happiness。　Raphael；　dear；　pray
listen　to　me。　Your　breathing　is　labored　while　you　sleep；　and　something
rattles　in　your　chest　that　frightens　me。　You　have　a　little　dry　cough
when　you　are　asleep；　exactly　like　my　father's；　who　is　dying　of
phthisis。　In　those　sounds　from　your　lungs　I　recognized　some　of　the
peculiar　symptoms　of　that　complaint。　Then　you　are　feverish；　I　know　you
are；　your　hand　was　moist　and　burningDarling；　you　are　young；〃　she
added　with　a　shudder；　〃and　you　could　still　get　over　it　if
unfortunatelyBut；　no；〃　she　cried　cheerfully；　〃there　is　no
'unfortunately；'　the　disease　is　contagious；　so　the　doctors　say。〃

She　flung　both　arms　about　Raphael；　drawing　in　his　breath　through　one
of　those　kisses　in　which　the　soul　reaches　its　end。

〃I　do　not　wish　to　live　to　old　age；〃　she　said。　〃Let　us　both　die　young；
and　go　to　heaven　while　flowers　fill　our　hands。〃

〃We　always　make　such　designs　as　those　when　we　are　well　and　strong；〃
Raphael　replied；　burying　his　hands　in　Pauline's　hair。　But　even　then　a
horrible　fit　of　coughing　came　on；　one　of　those　deep　ominous　coughs
that　seem　to　come　from　the　depths　of　the　tomb；　a　cough　that　leaves　the
sufferer　ghastly　pale；　trembling；　and　perspiring；　with　aching　sides
and　quivering　nerves；　with　a　feeling　of　weariness　pervading　the　very
marrow　of　the　spine；　and　unspeakable　languor　in　every　vein。　Raphael
slowly　laid　himself　down；　pale；　exhausted；　and　overcome；　like　a　man
who　has　spent　all　the　strength　in　him　over　one　final　effort。　Pauline's
eyes；　grown　large　with　terror；　were　fixed　upon　him；　she　lay　quite
motionless；　pale；　and　silent。

〃Let　us　commit　no　more　follies；　my　angel；〃　she　said；　trying　not　to　let
Raphael　see