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visions。  But I admit that outwardly I resembled sufficiently a



man who could make a second officer for a steamer chartered by a



French company。  I showed no sign of being haunted by the fate of



Nina and by the murmurs of tropical forests; and even my intimate



intercourse with Almayer (a person of weak character) had not put



a visible mark upon my features。  For many years he and the world



of his story had been the companions of my imagination without; I



hope; impairing my ability to deal with the realities of sea



life。  I had had the man and his surroundings with me ever since



my return from the eastern waterssome four years before the day



of which I speak。







It was in the front sitting…room of furnished apartments in a



Pimlico square that they first began to live again with a



vividness and poignancy quite foreign to our former real



intercourse。  I had been treating myself to a long stay on shore;



and in the necessity of occupying my mornings Almayer (that old



acquaintance) came nobly to the rescue。







Before long; as was only proper; his wife and daughter joined him



round my table; and then the rest of that Pantai band came full



of words and gestures。  Unknown to my respectable landlady; it



was my practice directly after my breakfast to hold animated



receptions of Malays; Arabs; and half…castes。  They did not



clamour aloud for my attention。 They came with a silent and



irresistible appealand the appeal; I affirm here; was not to my



self…love or my vanity。  It seems now to have had a moral



character; for why should the memory of these beings; seen in



their obscure; sun…bathed existence; demand to express itself in



the shape of a novel; except on the ground of that mysterious



fellowship which unites in a community of hopes and fears all the



dwellers on this earth?







I did not receive my visitors with boisterous rapture as the



bearers of any gifts of profit or fame。  There was no vision of a



printed book before me as I sat writing at that table; situated



in a decayed part of Belgravia。  After all these years; each



leaving its evidence of slowly blackened pages; I can honestly



say that it is a sentiment akin to pity which prompted me to



render in words assembled with conscientious care the memory of



things far distant and of men who had lived。







But; coming back to Captain Froud and his fixed idea of never



disappointing ship owners or ship…captains; it was not likely



that I should fail him in his ambitionto satisfy at a few



hours' notice the unusual demand for a French…speaking officer。 



He explained to me that the ship was chartered by a French



company intending to establish a regular monthly line of sailings



from Rouen; for the transport of French emigrants to Canada。 



But; frankly; this sort of thing did not interest me very much。 



I said gravely that if it were really a matter of keeping up the



reputation of the Shipmasters' Society I would consider it。  But



the consideration was just for form's sake。  The next day I



interviewed the captain; and I believe we were impressed



favourably with each other。  He explained that his chief mate was



an excellent man in every respect and that he could not think of



dismissing him so as to give me the higher position; but that if



I consented to come as second officer I would be given certain



special advantagesand so on。







I told him that if I came at all the rank really did not matter。







〃I am sure;〃 he insisted; 〃you will get on first rate with Mr。



Paramor。〃







I promised faithfully to stay for two trips at least; and it was



in those circumstances that what was to be my last connection



with a ship began。  And after all there was not even one single



trip。  It may be that it was simply the fulfilment of a fate; of



that written word on my forehead which apparently for bade me;



through all my sea wanderings; ever to achieve the crossing of



the Western Oceanusing the words in that special sense in which



sailors speak of Western Ocean trade; of Western Ocean packets;



of Western Ocean hard cases。  The new life attended closely upon



the old; and the nine chapters of 〃Almayer's Folly〃 went with me



to the Victoria Dock; whence in a few days we started for Rouen。 



I won't go so far as saying that the engaging of a man fated



never to cross the Western Ocean was the absolute cause of the



Franco…Canadian Transport Company's failure to achieve even a



single passage。  It might have been that of course; but the



obvious; gross obstacle was clearly the want of money。  Four



hundred and sixty bunks for emigrants were put together in the



'tween decks by industrious carpenters while we lay in the



Victoria Dock; but never an emigrant turned up in Rouenof



which; being a humane person; I confess I was glad。  Some



gentlemen from ParisI think there were three of them; and one



was said to be the chairmanturned up; indeed; and went from end



to end of the ship; knocking their silk hats cruelly against the



deck beams。  I attended them personally; and I can vouch for it



that the interest they took in things was intelligent enough;



though; obviously; they had never seen anything of the sort



before。  Their faces as they went ashore wore a cheerfully



inconclusive expression。  Notwithstanding that this inspecting



ceremony was supposed to be a preliminary to immediate sailing;



it was then; as they filed down our gangway; that I received the



inward monition that no sailing within the meaning of our charter



party would ever take place。







It must be said that in less than three weeks a move took place。 



When we first arrived we had been taken up with much ceremony



well toward the centre of the town; and; all the street corners



being placarded with the tricolor posters announcing the birth of



our company; the petit bourgeois with his wife and family made a



Sunday holiday from the inspection of the ship。  I was always in



evidence in my best uniform to give information as though I had



been a Cook's tourists' interpreter; while our quartermasters



reaped a harvest of small change from personally conducted



parties。  But when the move was madethat move which carried us



some mile and a half down the stream to be tied up to an



altogether muddier and shabbier quaythen indeed the desolation



of solitude became our lot。  It was a complete and soundless



stagnation; for as we had the ship ready for sea to the smallest



detail; as the frost was hard and the days short; we were



absolutely idleidle to the point of blushing with shame when



the thought struck us that all the time our salaries went on。 



Young Cole was aggrieved because; as he said; we could not enjoy



any sort of fun in the evening after loafing like this all day;



even the banjo lost its charm since there was nothing to prevent



his strumming on it all the time between the meals。  The good



Paramorhe was really a most excellent fellowbecame unhappy as



far as was possible to his cheery nature; till one dreary day I



suggested; out of sheer mischief; that he should employ the



dormant energies of the crew in hauling both cables up on deck



and turning them end for end。







For a moment Mr。 Paramor was radiant。 〃Excellent idea!〃 but



directly his face fell。  〃Why 。 。 。  Yes!  But we can't make that



job last more than three days;〃 he muttered; discontentedly。  I



don't know how long he expected us to be stuck on the riverside



outskirts of Rouen; but I know that the cables got hauled up and



turned end for end according 

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