a personal record-第33章
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nonchalance; 〃Venez donc faire un tour avec nous;〃 to which the
husband would add an encouraging 〃C'est ca。 Allons; montez;
jeune homme。〃 He questioned me some times; significantly but
with perfect tact and delicacy; as to the way I employed my time;
and never failed to express the hope that I wrote regularly to my
〃honoured uncle。〃 I made no secret of the way I employed my
time; and I rather fancy that my artless tales of the pilots and
so on entertained Madame Delestang so far as that ineffable woman
could be entertained by the prattle of a youngster very full of
his new experience among strange men and strange sensations。 She
expressed no opinions; and talked to me very little; yet her
portrait hangs in the gallery of my intimate memories; fixed
there by a short and fleeting episode。 One day; after putting me
down at the corner of a street; she offered me her hand; and
detained me; by a slight pressure; for a moment。 While the
husband sat motionless and looking straight before him; she
leaned forward in the carriage to say; with just a shade of
warning in her leisurely tone: 〃Il faut; cependant; faire
attention a ne pas gater sa vie。〃 I had never seen her face so
close to mine before。 She made my heart beat and caused me to
remain thoughtful for a whole evening。 Certainly one must; after
all; take care not to spoil one's life。 But she did not know
nobody could knowhow impossible that danger seemed to me。
VII
Can the transports of first love be calmed; checked; turned to a
cold suspicion of the future by a grave quotation from a work on
political economy? I askis it conceivable? Is it possible?
Would it be right? With my feet on the very shores of the sea
and about to embrace my blue…eyed dream; what could a
good…natured warning as to spoiling one's life mean to my
youthful passion? It was the most unexpected and the last; too;
of the many warnings I had received。 It sounded to me very
bizarreand; uttered as it was in the very presence of my
enchantress; like the voice of folly; the voice of ignorance。
But I was not so callous or so stupid as not to recognize there
also the voice of kindness。 And then the vagueness of the
warningbecause what can be the meaning of the phrase: to spoil
one's life?arrested one's attention by its air of wise
profundity。 At any rate; as I have said before; the words of la
belle Madame Delestang made me thoughtful for a whole evening。 I
tried to understand and tried in vain; not having any notion of
life as an enterprise that could be mi managed。 But I left off
being thoughtful shortly before midnight; at which hour; haunted
by no ghosts of the past and by no visions of the future; I
walked down the quay of the Vieux Port to join the pilot…boat of
my friends。 I knew where she would be waiting for her crew; in
the little bit of a canal behind the fort at the entrance of the
harbour。 The deserted quays looked very white and dry in the
moonlight; and as if frostbound in the sharp air of that December
night。 A prowler or two slunk by noiselessly; a custom…house
guard; soldier…like; a sword by his side; paced close under the
bowsprits of the long row of ships moored bows on opposite the
long; slightly curved; continuous flat wall of the tall houses
that seemed to be one immense abandoned building with innumerable
windows shuttered closely。 Only here and there a small; dingy
cafe for sailors cast a yellow gleam on the bluish sheen of the
flagstones。 Passing by; one heard a deep murmur of voices
insidenothing more。 How quiet everything was at the end of the
quays on the last night on which I went out for a service cruise
as a guest of the Marseilles pilots! Not a footstep; except my
own; not a sigh; not a whispering echo of the usual revelry going
on in the narrow; unspeakable lanes of the Old Town reached my
earand suddenly; with a terrific jingling rattle of iron and
glass; the omnibus of the Jolliette on its last journey swung
around the corner of the dead wall which faces across the paved
road the characteristic angular mass of the Fort St。 Jean。 Three
horses trotted abreast; with the clatter of hoofs on the granite
setts; and the yellow; uproarious machine jolted violently behind
them; fantastic; lighted up; perfectly empty; and with the driver
apparently asleep on his swaying perch above that amazing racket。
I flattened myself against the wall and gasped。 It was a stunning
experience。 Then after staggering on a few paces in the shadow
of the fort; casting a darkness more intense than that of a
clouded night upon the canal; I saw the tiny light of a lantern
standing on the quay; and became aware of muffled figures making
toward it from various directions。 Pilots of the Third Company
hastening to embark。 Too sleepy to be talkative; they step on
board in silence。 But a few low grunts and an enormous yawn are
heard。 Somebody even ejaculates: 〃Ah! Coquin de sort!〃 and sighs
wearily at his hard fate。
The patron of the Third Company (there were five companies of
pilots at that time; I believe) is the brother…in…law of my
friend Solary (Baptistin); a broad…shouldered; deep chested man
of forty; with a keen; frank glance which always seeks your eyes。
He greets me by a low; hearty 〃He; l'ami。 Comment va?〃 With his
clipped mustache and massive open face; energetic and at the same
time placid in expression; he is a fine specimen of the
southerner of the calm type。 For there is such a type in which
the volatile southern passion is transmuted into solid force。 He
is fair; but no one could mistake him for a man of the north even
by the dim gleam of the lantern standing on the quay。 He is
worth a dozen of your ordinary Normans or Bretons; but then; in
the whole immense sweep of the Mediterranean shores; you could
not find half a dozen men of his stamp。
Standing by the tiller; he pulls out his watch from under a thick
jacket and bends his head over it in the light cast into the
boat。 Time's up。 His pleasant voice commands; in a quiet
undertone; 〃Larguez。〃 A suddenly projected arm snatches the
lantern off the quayand; warped along by a line at first; then
with the regular tug of four heavy sweeps in the bow; the big
half…decked boat full of men glides out of the black; breathless
shadow of the fort。 The open water of the avant…port glitters
under the moon as if sown over with millions of sequins; and the
long white break water shines like a thick bar of solid silver。
With a quick rattle of blocks and one single silky swish; the
sail is filled by a little breeze keen enough to have come
straight down from the frozen moon; and the boat; after the
clatter of the hauled…in sweeps; seems to stand at rest;
surrounded by a mysterious whispering so faint and unearthly that
it may be the rustling of the brilliant; overpowering moon rays
breaking like a rain…shower upon the hard; smooth; shadowless
sea。
I may well remember that last night spent with the pilots of the
Third Company。 I have known the spell of moonlight since; on
various seas and coastscoasts of forests; of rocks; of sand
dunesbut no magic so perfect in its revelation of unsuspected
character; as though one were allowed to look upon the mystic
nature of material things。 For hours I suppose no word was spoken
in that boat。 The pilots; seated in two rows facing each other;
dozed; with their arms folded and their chins resting upon their
breasts。