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It was as a wild protest against it that; actually addressing

her〃You terrible; miserable woman!〃I heard myself break

into a sound that; by the open door; rang through the long

passage and the empty house。  She looked at me as if she

heard me; but I had recovered myself and cleared the air。

There was nothing in the room the next minute but the sunshine

and a sense that I must stay。







                           XVI





I had so perfectly expected that the return of my pupils would

be marked by a demonstration that I was freshly upset at having

to take into account that they were dumb about my absence。

Instead of gaily denouncing and caressing me; they made no allusion

to my having failed them; and I was left; for the time; on perceiving

that she too said nothing; to study Mrs。 Grose's odd face。

I did this to such purpose that I made sure they had in some

way bribed her to silence; a silence that; however; I would

engage to break down on the first private opportunity。

This opportunity came before tea:  I secured five minutes

with her in the housekeeper's room; where; in the twilight;

amid a smell of lately baked bread; but with the place all

swept and garnished; I found her sitting in pained placidity

before the fire。  So I see her still; so I see her best:

facing the flame from her straight chair in the dusky;

shining room; a large clean image of the 〃put away〃

of drawers closed and locked and rest without a remedy。



〃Oh; yes; they asked me to say nothing; and to please them

so long as they were thereof course I promised。

But what had happened to you?〃



〃I only went with you for the walk;〃 I said。  〃I had then to come

back to meet a friend。〃



She showed her surprise。  〃A friendYOU?〃



〃Oh; yes; I have a couple!〃  I laughed。  〃But did the children give

you a reason?〃



〃For not alluding to your leaving us?  Yes; they said you would

like it better。  Do you like it better?〃



My face had made her rueful。  〃No; I like it worse!〃

But after an instant I added:  〃Did they say why I should

like it better?〃



〃No; Master Miles only said; 〃We must do nothing but what she likes!〃



〃I wish indeed he would。  And what did Flora say?〃



〃Miss Flora was too sweet。  She said; ‘Oh; of course; of course!'

and I said the same。〃



I thought a moment。  〃You were too sweet; tooI can hear you all。

But nonetheless; between Miles and me; it's now all out。〃



〃All out?〃  My companion stared。  〃But what; miss?〃



〃Everything。  It doesn't matter。  I've made up my mind。

I came home; my dear;〃 I went on; 〃for a talk with Miss Jessel。〃



I had by this time formed the habit of having Mrs。 Grose

literally well in hand in advance of my sounding that note;

so that even now; as she bravely blinked under the signal

of my word; I could keep her comparatively firm。  〃A talk!

Do you mean she spoke?〃



〃It came to that。  I found her; on my return; in the schoolroom。〃



〃And what did she say?〃  I can hear the good woman still;

and the candor of her stupefaction。



〃That she suffers the torments!〃



It was this; of a truth; that made her; as she filled out my picture; gape。

〃Do you mean;〃 she faltered; 〃of the lost?〃



〃Of the lost。  Of the damned。  And that's why; to share them…〃

I faltered myself with the horror of it。



But my companion; with less imagination; kept me up。

〃To share them?〃



〃She wants Flora。〃  Mrs。 Grose might; as I gave it to her; fairly have fallen

away from me had I not been prepared。  I still held her there; to show I was。

〃As I've told you; however; it doesn't matter。〃



〃Because you've made up your mind?  But to what?〃



〃To everything。〃



〃And what do you call ‘everything'?〃



〃Why; sending for their uncle。〃



〃Oh; miss; in pity do;〃 my friend broke out。



〃ah; but I will; I WILL! I see it's the only way。

What's ‘out;' as I told you; with Miles is that if he thinks

I'm afraid toand has ideas of what he gains by that

he shall see he's mistaken。  Yes; yes; his uncle shall have it

here from me on the spot (and before the boy himself; if necessary)

that if I'm to be reproached with having done nothing again

about more school〃



〃Yes; miss〃 my companion pressed me。



〃Well; there's that awful reason。〃



There were now clearly so many of these for my poor colleague that she

was excusable for being vague。  〃Buta which?〃



〃Why; the letter from his old place。〃



〃You'll show it to the master?〃



〃I ought to have done so on the instant。〃



〃Oh; no!〃 said Mrs。 Grose with decision。



〃I'll put it before him;〃 I went on inexorably; 〃that I can't undertake

to work the question on behalf of a child who has been expelled〃



〃For we've never in the least known what!〃  Mrs。 Grose declared。



〃For wickedness。  For what elsewhen he's so clever and beautiful

and perfect?  Is he stupid?  Is he untidy?  Is he infirm?

Is he ill…natured? He's exquisiteso it can be only THAT;

and that would open up the whole thing。  After all;〃 I said;

〃it's their uncle's fault。  If he left here such people!〃



〃He didn't really in the least know them。  The fault's mine。〃

She had turned quite pale。



〃Well; you shan't suffer;〃 I answered。



〃The children shan't!〃 she emphatically returned。



I was silent awhile; we looked at each other。  〃Then what am

I to tell him?〃



〃You needn't tell him anything。  _I_'ll tell him。〃



I measured this。  〃Do you mean you'll write?〃 Remembering she couldn't; I

caught myself up。  〃How do you communicate?〃



〃I tell the bailiff。  HE writes。〃



〃And should you like him to write our story?〃



My question had a sarcastic force that I had not fully intended;

and it made her; after a moment; inconsequently break down。

The tears were again in her eyes。  〃Ah; miss; YOU write!〃



〃Welltonight;〃 I at last answered; and on this we separated。







                          XVII





I went so far; in the evening; as to make a beginning。

The weather had changed back; a great wind was abroad;

and beneath the lamp; in my room; with Flora at peace beside me;

I sat for a long time before a blank sheet of paper and

listened to the lash of the rain and the batter of the gusts。

Finally I went out; taking a candle; I crossed the passage

and listened a minute at Miles's door。  What; under my

endless obsession; I had been impelled to listen for was some

betrayal of his not being at rest; and I presently caught one;

but not in the form I had expected。  His voice tinkled out。

〃I say; you therecome in。〃  It was a gaiety in the gloom!



I went in with my light and found him; in bed; very wide awake;

but very much at his ease。  〃Well; what are YOU up to?〃

he asked with a grace of sociability in which it occurred

to me that Mrs。 Grose; had she been present; might have looked

in vain for proof that anything was 〃out。〃



I stood over him with my candle。  〃How did you know I was there?〃



〃Why; of course I heard you。  Did you fancy you made no noise?

You're like a troop of cavalry!〃 he beautifully laughed。



〃Then you weren't asleep?〃



〃Not much!  I lie awake and think。〃



I had put my candle; designedly; a short way off; and then; as he held

out his friendly old hand to me; had sat down on the edge of his bed。

〃What is it;〃 I asked; 〃that you think of?〃



〃What in the world; my dear; but YOU?〃



〃Ah; the pride I take in your appreciation doesn't insist on that!

I had so far rather you slept。〃



〃Well; I think also; you know; of this queer business of ours。〃



I marked the coolness of his firm little hand。

〃Of what queer business; Miles?〃



〃Why; the way you bring me up。  And all the rest!〃



I fairly held my breath a minute; and even from my glimmering taper

there was light enough to show how he smiled up at me from his pillow。

〃What do you mean by all the rest?〃



〃Oh; you know; you know!〃



I could say nothing for a m

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