creatures that once were men-第24章
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pre…occupation to increase our work by fourteen pounds of
dough a day。
120 TWENTY…SIX MEN AND A GIRL
We seemed; indeed; not even tired by our work。 Tanya's name
was on our lips all day long。 And every day we looked for
her with a certain special impatience。 Sometimes we pictured
to ourselves that she would come to us; and it would not be
the same Tanya as of old; hut somehow different。 We said
nothing to her; however; of the dispute regarding her。 We
asked her no questions; and behaved as well and affectionately
to her as ever。 But even in this a new element crept in; alien
to our old feeling for Tanyaand that new element was keen
curiosity; keen and cold as a steel knife。
〃Mates! To…day the time's up!〃 our baker said to us one
morning; as he set to work。
We were well aware of it without his reminder; but still we
were thrilled。
〃Look at her。 She'll he here directly;〃 suggested the baker。
One of us cried out in a troubled voice; 〃Why! as though one
could notice anything!〃
And again an eager; noisy discussion sprang up among us。
To…day we were about to prove how pure and spotless was the
vessel into which we had poured all that was best in us。 This
morning; for the first time; it became clear to us; that we
really were playing a great game; that we might; indeed;
through the exaction of this proof of purity; lose our
divinity altogether。
121 TWENTY…SIX MEN AND A GIRL
During the whole of the intervening fortnight we had heard
that Tanya was persistently followed by the soldier; but
not one of us had thought of asking her how she had behaved
toward him。 And she came every morning to fetch her kringels;
and was the same toward us as ever。
This morning; too; we heard her voice outside: 〃You poor
prisoners! Here I am!〃
We opened the door; and when she came in we all remained;
contrary to our usual custom; silent。 Our eyes fixed on
her; we did not know how to speak to her; what to ask her。
And there we stood in front of her; a gloomy; silent crowd。
She seemed to be surprised at this unusual reception; and
suddenly we saw her turn white and become uneasy; then she
asked; in a choking voice:
〃Why are youlike this?〃
〃And you?〃 the baker flung at her grimly; never taking his
eyes off her。
〃What am I?〃
〃N…nothing。〃
〃Well; then; give me quickly the little kringels。〃
Never before had she bidden us hurry。
〃There's plenty of time;〃 said the baker; not stirring; and
not removing his eyes from her face。
Then; suddenly; she turned round and disappeared through the
door。
The baker took his shovel and said; calmly turning away toward
the oven:
〃Well; that settles it! But a soldier! a common beast like
thata low cur!〃
122 TWENTY…SIX MEN AND A GIRL
Like a flock of sheep we all pressed round the table; sat down
silently; and began listlessly to work。 Soon; however; one of
us remarked:
〃Perhaps; after all〃
〃Shut up!〃 shouted the baker。
We were all convinced that he was a man of judgment; a man who
knew more than we did about things。 And at the sound of his
voice we were convinced of the soldier's victory; and our
spirits became sad and downcast。
At twelve o'clockwhile we were eating our dinnersthe
soldier came in。 He was as clean and as smart as ever; and
looked at usas usualstraight in the eyes。 But we were all
awkward in looking at him。
〃Now then; honored sirs; would you like me to show you a
soldier's quality?〃 he said; chuckling proudly。
〃Go out into the passage; and look through the crackdo you
understand?〃
We went into the passage; and stood all pushing against one
another; squeezed up to the cracks of the wooden partition of
the passage that looked into the yard。 We had not to wait
long。 Very soon Tanya; with hurried footsteps and a careworn
face; walked across the yard; jumping over the puddles of
melting snow and mud: she disappeared into the store cellar。
Then whistling; and not hurrying himself; the soldier followed
in the same direction。 His hands were thrust in his pockets;
his mustaches were quivering。
Rain was falling; and we saw how its drops fell into the
puddles; and the puddles were wrinkled by them。 The day was
damp and graya very dreary day。 Snow still lay on the roofs;
but on the ground dark patches of mud had begun to appear。
123 TWENTY…SIX MEN AND A GIRL
And the snow on the roofs too was covered by a layer of
brownish dirt。 The rain fell slowly with a depressing sound。
It was cold and disagreeable for us waiting。
The first to come out of the store cellar was the soldier;
he walked slowly across the yard; his mustaches twitching; his
hands in his pocketsthe same as always。
ThenTanya; too; came out。 Her eye~her eyes were radiant
with joy and happiness; and her lipswere smiling。 And she
walked as though in a dream; staggering; with unsteady steps。
We could not bear this quietly。 All of us at once rushed to
the door; dashed out into the yard andhissed at her; reviled
her viciously; loudly; wildly。
She started at seeing us; and stood as though rooted in the
mud under her feet。 We formed a ring round her! and
malignantly; without restraint; abused her with vile words;
said shameful things to her。
We did this not loudly; not hurriedly; seeing that she could
not get away; that she was hemmed in by us; and we could
deride her to our hearts' content。 I don't know why; but we
did not beat her。 She stood in the midst of us; and turned
her head this way and that; as she heard our insults。 And
we…more and more violently flung at her the filth and venom
of our words。
The color had left her face。 Her blue eyes; so happy a moment
before; opened wide; her bosom heaved; and her lips quivered。
We in a ring round her avenged ourselves on her as though she
had robbed us。 She belonged to us; we had lavished on her our
best; and though that best was a beggar's crumb; still we were
twenty…six; she was one; and so there was no pain we could
give her equal to her guilt!
124 TWENTY…SIX MEN AND A GIRL
How we insulted her! She was still mute; still gazed at us
with wild eyes; and a shiver ran all over her。
We laughed; roared; yelled。 Other people ran up from
somewhere and joined us。 One of us pulled Tanya by the sleeve
of her blouse。
Suddenly her eyes flashed; deliberately she raised her hands
to her head and straightening her hair she said loudly but
calmly; straight in our faces:
〃Ah; you miserable prisoners!〃
And she walked straight at us; walked as directly as though
we had not been before her; as though we were not blocking
her way。
And hence it was that no one did actually prevent her passing。
Walking out of our ring; without turning round; she said
loudly and with indescribable contempt:
〃Ah; you scumbrutes。〃
Andwas gone。
We were left in the middle of the yard; in the rain; under the
gray sky without the sun。
Then we went mutely away to our damp stone cellar。 As before
the sun never peeped in at our windows; and Tanya came no more!
CHELKASH
An Episode
Darkened by the dust of the dock; the blue southern sky is
murky; the burning sun looks duskily into the greenish sea; as
though through a thin gray veil。 It can find no reflection in
the water; continually cut up by the strokes of oars; the screws
of steamers; the deep; sharp keels of Turkish feluccas and other
sailing vessels; that pass in all directions; ploughing up the
crowded harbor; where the free waves of the sea; pent up within
granite walls; and crushed under the vast weights that glide
over its crests; beat upon the sides of the ships