creatures that once were men-第22章
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the chief thingwe all regarded her as something of our own;
something existing as it were only by virtue of our kringels。
We took on ourselves in turns the duty of providing her with
hot kringels; and this became for us like a daily sacrifice
to our idol; it became almost a sacred rite; and every day
it bound us more closely to her。 Besides kringels; we gave
Tanya a great deal of advice to wear warmer clothes; not to
run upstairs too quickly; not to carry heavy bundles of wood。
She listened to all our counsels with a smile; answered them
by a laugh; and never took our advice; but we were not
offended at that; all we wanted was to show how much care we
bestowed upon her。
Often she would apply to us with different requests; she asked
us; for instance; to open the heavy door into the store…cellar;
and to chop wood: with delight and a sort of pride; we did this
for her; and everything else she wanted。
But when one of us asked her to mend his solitary shirt for
him; she said; with a laugh of contempt:
〃What next! A likely idea!〃
We made great fun of the queer fellow who could entertain such
an idea; andnever asked her to do anything else。 We loved
herall is said in that。
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Man always wants to lay his love on someone; though sometimes
he crushes; sometimes he sullies; with it; he may poison
another life because he loves without respecting the beloved。
We were bound to love Tanya; for we had no one else to love。
At times one of us would suddenly begin to reason like this:
〃And why do we make so much of the wench? What is there in
her? eh? What a to…do we make about her!〃
The man who dared to utter such words we promptly and
coarsely cut shortwe wanted something to love: we had
found it and loved it; and what we twenty…six loved must be
for each of us unalterable; as a holy thing; and anyone who
acted against us in this was our enemy。 We loved; maybe; not
what was really good; but you see there were twenty…six of us;
and so we always wanted to see what was precious to us held
sacred by the rest。
Our love is not less burdensome than hate; and maybe that is
just why some proud souls maintain that our hate is more
flattering than our love。 But why do they not run away from
us; if it is so?
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Besides our department; our employer had also a bread…bakery;
it was in the same house; separated from our hole only by a
wall; but the bakersthere were four of themheld aloof from
us; considering their work superior to ours; and therefore
themselves better than us; they never used to come into our
workroom; and laughed contemptuously at us when they met us
in the yard。 We; too; did not go to see them; this was
forbidden by our employer; from fear that we should steal
the fancy bread。
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We did not like the bakers; because we envied them; their work
was lighter than ours; they were paid more; and were better
fed; they had a light; spacious workroom; and they were all so
clean and healthyand that made them hateful to us。 We all
looked gray and yellow; three of us had syphilis; several
suffered from skin diseases; one was completely crippled by
rheumatism。 On holidays and in their leisure time the bakers
wore pea…jackets and creaking boots; two of them had accordions;
and they all used to go for strolls in the town gardenwe wore
filthy rags and leather clogs or plaited shoes on our feet; the
police would not let us into the town gardenscould we possibly
like the bakers?
And one day we learned that their chief baker had been drunk;
the master had sacked him and had already taken on another; and
that this other was a soldier; wore a satin waistcoat and a
watch and gold chain。 We were inquisitive to get a sight of
such a dandy; and in the hope of catching a glimpse of him we
kept running one after another out into the yard。
But he came of his own accord into our room。 Kicking at the
door; he pushed it open; and leaving it ajar; stood in the
doorway smiling; and said to us:
〃God help the work! Good…morning; mates!〃
The ice…cold air; which streamed in through the open door;
curled in streaks of vapor round his feet。 He stood on the
threshold; looked us up and down; and under his fair; twisted
mustache gleamed big yellow teeth。 His waistcoat was really
something quite out of the common; blue…flowered; brilliant
with shining little buttons of red stones。 He also wore a watch
chain。
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He was a fine fellow; this soldier; tall; healthy; rosy…cheeked;
and his big; clear eyes had a friendly; cheerful glance。 He wore
on his head a white starched cap; and from under his spotlessly
clean apron peeped the pointed toes of fashionable; well…blacked
boots。
Our baker asked him politely to shut the door。 The soldier did
so without hurrying himself; and began to question us about the
master。 We explained to him; all speaking together; that our
employer was a thorough…going brute; a rogue; a knave; and a
slave…driver; in a word; we repeated to him all that can and
must be said about an employer; but cannot be repeated here。
The soldier listened to us; twisted his mustache; and watched
us with a friendly; open…hearted look。
〃But haven't you got a lot of girls here?〃 he asked suddenly。
Some of us began to laugh deferentially; others put on a meaning
expression; and one of us explained to the soldier that there
were nine girls here。
〃You make the most of them?〃 asked the soldier; with a wink。
We laughed; but not so loudly; and with some embarrassment。
Many of us would have liked to have shown the soldier that we
also were tremendous fellows with the girls; but not one of us
could do so; and one of our number confessed as much; when he
said in a low voice:
〃That sort of thing is not in our line。〃
〃Well; no; it wouldn't quite do for you;〃 said the soldier with
conviction; after having looked us over。
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〃There is something wanting about you all you don't look the
right sort。 You've no sort of appearance; and the women; you
see; they like a bold appearance; they will have a well set…up
body。 Everything has to be tip…top for them。 That's why they
respect strength。 They want an arm like that!〃
The soldier drew his right hand; with its turned…up shirt sleeve;
out of his pocket; and showed us his bare arm。 It was white and
strong; and covered with shining yellow hairs。
〃Leg and chest; all must be strong。 And then a man must be
dressed in the latest fashion; so as to show off his looks to
advantage。 Yes; all the women take to me。 Whether I call to
them; or whether I beckon them; they with one accord; five at
a time; throw themselves at my head。〃
He sat down on a flour sack; and told at length all about the
way women loved him; and how bold he was with them。 Then he
left; and after the door had creaked to behind him; we sat for
a long time silent; and thought about him and his talk。 Then
we all suddenly broke silence together; and it became apparent
that we were all equally pleased with him。 He was such a nice;
open…hearted fellow; he came to see us without any
standoffishness; sat down and chatted。 No one else came to us
like that; and no one else talked to us in that friendly sort
of way。 And we continued to talk of him and his coming triumph
among the embroidery girls; who passed us by with contemptuous
sniffs when they saw us in the yard; or who looked straight
through us as if we had been air。
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But we admired them always when we met them outside; or when
they wa