robert falconer-第111章

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was　then　in　advance　of　her　time。　　And　it　is　no　wonder　if　her　notions

did　not　all　hang　logically　together。



'At　ony　rate；　grannie；'　resumed　her　grandson；　'I　haena　dune　a'　for

him　'at　I　can　yet；　and　I'm　no　gaein'　to　believe　onything　that　wad

mak　me　remiss　in　my　endeavour。　　Houp　for　mysel'；　for　my　father；　for

a'body；　is　what's　savin'　me；　an'　garrin'　me　work。　　An'　gin　ye　tell

me　that　I'm　no　workin'　wi'　God；　that　God's　no　the　best　an'　the

greatest　worker　aboon　a'；　ye　tak　the　verra　hert　oot　o'　my　breist；

and　I　dinna　believe　in　God　nae　mair；　an'　my　han's　drap　doon　by　my

sides；　an'　my　legs　winna　gang。　　No；'　said　Robert；　rising；　'God　'ill

gie　me　my　father　sometime；　grannie；　for　what　man　can　do　wantin'　a

father？　　Human　bein'　canna　win　at　the　hert　o'　things；　canna　ken　a'

the　oots　an'　ins；　a'　the　sides　o'　love；　excep'　he　has　a　father　amo'

the　lave　to　love；　an'　I　hae　had　nane；　grannie。　　An'　that　God　kens。'



She　made　him　no　answer。　　She　dared　not　say　that　he　expected　too　much

from　God。　Is　it　likely　that　Jesus　will　say　so　of　any　man　or　woman

when　he　looks　for　faith　in　the　earth？



Robert　went　out　to　see　some　of　his　old　friends；　and　when　he　returned

it　was　time　for　supper　and　worship。　　These　were　the　same　as　of　old：

a　plate　of　porridge；　and　a　wooden　bowl　of　milk　for　the　former；　a

chapter　and　a　hymn；　both　read；　and　a　prayer　from　grannie；　and　then

from　Robert　for　the　latter。　　And　so　they　went　to　bed。



But　Robert　could　not　sleep。　　He　rose　and　dressed　himself；　went　up　to

the　empty　garret；　looked　at　the　stars　through　the　skylight；　knelt

and　prayed　for　his　father　and　for　all　men　to　the　Father　of　all；　then

softly　descended　the　stairs；　and　went　out　into　the　street。









CHAPTER　VI。



SHARGAR'S　MOTHER。



It　was　a　warm　still　night　in　Julymoonless　but　not　dark。　　There　is

no　night　there　in　the　summeronly　a　long　ethereal　twilight。　　He

walked　through　the　sleeping　town　so　full　of　memories；　all　quiet　in

his　mind　nowquiet　as　the　air　that　ever　broods　over　the　house　where

a　friend　has　dwelt。　　He　left　the　town　behind；　and　walkedthrough

the　odours　of　grass　and　of　clover　and　of　the　yellow　flowers　on　the

old　earthwalls　that　divided　the　fieldssweet　scents　to　which　the

darkness　is　friendly；　and　which；　mingling　with　the　smell　of　the

earth　itself；　reach　the　founts　of　memory　sooner　than　even　words　or

tonesdown　to　the　brink　of　the　river　that　flowed　scarcely　murmuring

through　the　night；　itself　dark　and　brown　as　the　night　from　its

far…off　birthplace　in　the　peaty　hills。　　He　crossed　the　footbridge

and　turned　into　the　bleachfield。　　Its　houses　were　desolate；　for　that

trade　too　had　died　away。　　The　machinery　stood　rotting　and　rusting。

The　wheel　gave　no　answering　motion　to　the　flow　of　the　water　that

glided　away　beneath　it。　　The　thundering　beatles　were　still。　　The

huge　legs　of　the　wauk…mill　took　no　more　seven…leagued　strides

nowhither。　　The　rubbing…boards　with　their　thickly…fluted　surfaces　no

longer　frothed　the　soap　from　every　side；　tormenting　the　web　of　linen

into　a　brightness　to　gladden　the　heart　of　the　housewife　whose　hands

had　spun　the　yarn。　　The　terrible　boiler　that　used　to　send　up　from

its　depths　bubbling　and　boiling　spouts　and　peaks　and　ridges；　lay

empty　and　cold。　　The　little　house　behind；　where　its　awful　furnace

used　to　glow；　and　which　the　pungent　chlorine　used　to　fill　with　its

fumes；　stood　open　to　the　wind　and　the　rain：　he　could　see　the　slow

river　through　its　unglazed　window　beyond。　　The　water　still　went

slipping　and　sliding　through　the　deserted　places；　a　power　whose　use

had　departed。　　The　canal；　the　delight　of　his　childhood；　was　nearly

choked　with　weeds；　it　went　flowing　over　long　grasses　that　drooped

into　it　from　its　edges；　giving　a　faint　gurgle　once　and　again　in　its

flow；　as　if　it　feared　to　speak　in　the　presence　of　the　stars；　and

escaped　silently　into　the　river　far　below。　　The　grass　was　no　longer

mown　like　a　lawn；　but　was　long　and　deep　and　thick。　　He　climbed　to

the　place　where　he　had　once　lain　and　listened　to　the　sounds　of　the

belt　of　fir…trees　behind　him；　hearing　the　voice　of　Nature　that

whispered　God　in　his　ears；　and　there　he　threw　himself　down　once

more。　　All　the　old　things；　the　old　ways；　the　old　glories　of

childhoodwere　they　gone？　　No。　Over　them　all；　in　them　all；　was　God

still。　　There　is　no　past　with　him。　　An　eternal　present；　He　filled

his　soul　and　all　that　his　soul　had　ever　filled。　　His　history　was

taken　up　into　God：　it　had　not　vanished：　his　life　was　hid　with　Christ

in　God。　To　the　God　of　the　human　heart　nothing　that　has　ever　been　a

joy；　a　grief；　a　passing　interest；　can　ever　cease　to　be　what　it　has

been；　there　is　no　fading　at　the　breath　of　time；　no　passing　away　of

fashion；　no　dimming　of　old　memories　in　the　heart　of　him　whose　being

creates　time。　　Falconer's　heart　rose　up　to　him　as　to　his　own　deeper

life；　his　indwelling　deepest　spiritabove　and　beyond　him　as　the

heavens　are　above　and　beyond　the　earth；　and　yet　nearer　and　homelier

than　his　own　most　familiar　thought。　'As　the　light　fills　the　earth；'

thought　he；　'so　God　fills　what　we　call　life。　　My　sorrows；　O　God；　my

hopes；　my　joys；　the　upliftings　of　my　life　are　with　thee；　my　root；　my

life。　　Thy　comfortings；　my　perfect　God；　are　strength　indeed！'



He　rose　and　looked　around　him。　　While　he　lay；　the　waning；　fading

moon　had　risen；　weak　and　bleared　and　dull。　　She　brightened　and

brightened　until　at　last　she　lighted　up　the　night　with　a　wan；

forgetful　gleam。　'So　should　I　feel；'　he　thought；　'about　the　past　on

which　I　am　now　gazing；　were　it　not　that　I　believe　in　the　God　who

forgets　nothing。　　That　which　has　been；　is。'　　His　eye　fell　on

something　bright　in　the　field　beyond。　　He　would　see　what　it　was；　and

crossed　the　earthen　dyke。　　It　shone　like　a　little　moon　in　the　grass。

By　humouring　the　reflection　he　reached　it。　　It　was　only　a　cutting

of　white　iron；　left　by　some　tinker。　　He　walked　on　over　the　field；

thinking　of　Shargar's　mother。　　If　he　could　but　find　her！　　He　walked

on　and　on。　　He　had　no　inclination　to　go　home。　　The　solitariness　of

the　night；　the　uncanniness　of　the　moon；　prevents　most　people　from

wandering　far：　Robert　had　learned　long　ago　to　love　the　night；　and　to

feel　at　home　with　every　aspect　of　God's　world。　　How　this　peace

contrasted　with　the　nights　in　London　streets！　this　grass　with　the

dark　flow　of　the　Thames！　these　hills　and　those　clouds　half　melted

into　moonlight　with　the　lanes　blazing　with　gas！　　He　thought　of　the

child　who；　taken　from　London　for　the　first　time；　sent　home　the

message：　'Tell　mother　that　it's　dark　in　the　country　at　night。'　　Then

his　thoughts　turned　again　to　Shargar's　mother！　　Was　it　not　possible；

being　a　wanderer　far　and　wide；　that　she　might　be　now　in　Rothieden？

Such　people　have　a　love　for　their　old　haunts；　stronger　than　that　of

orderly　members　of　society　for　their　old　homes。　　He　turned　back；　and

did　not　know　where　he　was。　　But　the　lines　of　the　hill…tops　directed

him。　　He　hastened　to　the　town；　and　went　straight　through　the

sleeping　streets　to　the　back　wynd　where　he　had　found　Shargar　sitting

on　the　doorstep。　　Could　he　believe　his　eyes？　　A　feeble　light　was

burning　in　the　shed。　　Some　other　poverty…stricken　bird　of　the　night；

however；　might　be　there；　and　not　she　who　could　perhaps　guide　him　to

the　goal　of　his　earthly　life。　　He　drew　near；　and　peeped　in　at　the

broken　window。　　A　heap　of　something　lay　in　a　corner；　watched　only　by

a　long…snuffed　candle。



The　heap　moved；　and　a　voice　called　out　querulously；



'Is　that　you；　Shargar；　ye　shochlin　deevil？'



Falconer's　heart　leaped。　　He　hesitated　no　longer；　but　lifted　the

latch　and　entered。　　He　took　up　the　candle；　snuffed　it　as　he　best

could；　and　approached　the　woman。　　When　the　light　fell　on　her　face

she　sat　up；　staring　wildly　with　eyes　that　shunned　and　sought　it。



'Wha　are　ye　that　winna　lat　me　dee　in　peace　and　quaietness？'



'I'm　Robert　Falconer。'



'Come　to　speir　efter　yer　ne'er…do…weel　o'　a　father；　I　reckon；'　she

said。



'Yes；'　he　answered。



'Wha's　that　ahin'　ye？'