malvina of brittany-第35章

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her　to　answer　it。

〃What's　it　got　to　do　with　you？〃　she　said。

〃I　am　Aston　Rowant；〃　said　Matthew。

The　Central　Park；　together　with　the　universe　in　general；　fell　away
and　disappeared。　　Somewhere　out　of　chaos　was　sounding　a　plaintive
voice：　　〃What　is　she　like？　　Can't　you　tell　me？　　Is　she　young　or
old？〃

It　seemed　to　have　been　going　on　for　ages。　　She　made　one　supreme
gigantic　effort；　causing　the　Central　Park　to　reappear；　dimly；
faintly；　but　it　was　there　again。　　She　was　sitting　on　a　seat。
MatthewAston　Rowant；　whatever　it　waswas　seated　beside　her。

〃You've　seen　her？　　What　is　she　like？〃

〃I　can't　tell　you。〃

He　was　evidently　very　cross　with　her。　　It　seemed　so　unkind　of　him。

〃Why　can't　you　tell　meor；　why　won't　you　tell　me？　　Do　you　mean
she's　too　awful　for　words？〃

〃No；　certainly　notas　a　matter　of　fact〃

〃Well；　what？〃

She　felt　she　must　get　away　or　there　would　be　hysterics　somewhere。
She　sprang　up　and　began　to　walk　rapidly　towards　the　gate。　　He
followed　her。

〃I'll　write　you；〃　said　Ann。

〃But　why？〃

〃I　can't；〃　said　Ann。　　〃I've　got　a　rehearsal。〃

A　car　was　passing。　　She　made　a　dash　for　it　and　clambered　on。　　Before
he　could　make　up　his　mind　it　had　gathered　speed。

Ann　let　herself　in　with　her　key。　　She　called　downstairs　to　the　small
servant　that　she　wasn't　to　be　disturbed　for　anything。　　She　locked
the　door。

So　it　was　to　Matthew　that　for　six　years　she　had　been　pouring　out　her
inmost　thoughts　and　feelings！　　It　was　to　Matthew　that　she　had　laid
bare　her　tenderest；　most　sacred　dreams！　　It　was　at　Matthew's　feet
that　for　six　years　she　had　been　sitting；　gazing　up　with　respectful
admiration；　with　reverential　devotion！　　She　recalled　her　letters；
almost　passage　for　passage；　till　she　had　to　hold　her　hands　to　her
face　to　cool　it。　　Her　indignation；　one　might　almost　say　fury；　lasted
till　tea…time。

In　the　eveningit　was　in　the　evening　time　that　she　had　always
written　to　hima　more　reasonable　frame　of　mind　asserted　itself。
After　all；　it　was　hardly　his　fault。　　He　couldn't　have　known　who　she
was。　　He　didn't　know　now。　　She　had　wanted　to　write。　　Without　doubt
he　had　helped　her；　comforted　her　loneliness；　had　given　her　a
charming　friendship；　a　delightful　comradeship。　　Much　of　his　work　had
been　written　for　her；　to　her。　　It　was　fine　work。　　She　had　been　proud
of　her　share　in　it。　　Even　allowing　there　were　faultsirritability；
shortness　of　temper；　a　tendency　to　bossiness！underneath　it　all　was
a　man。　　The　gallant　struggle；　the　difficulties　overcome；　the　long
suffering；　the　high　courageall　that　she；　reading　between　the
lines；　had　divined　of　his　life's　battle！　　Yes；　it　was　a　man　she　had
worshipped。　　A　woman　need　not　be　ashamed　of　that。　　As　Matthew　he　had
seemed　to　her　conceited；　priggish。　　As　Aston　Rowant　she　wondered　at
his　modesty；　his　patience。

And　all　these　years　he　had　been　dreaming　of　her；　had　followed　her　to
New　York；　had

There　came　a　sudden　mood　so　ludicrous；　so　absurdly　unreasonable　that
Ann　herself　stopped　to　laugh　at　it。　　Yet　it　was　real；　and　it　hurt。
He　had　come　to　New　York　thinking　of　Sylvia；　yearning　for　Sylvia。　　He
had　come　to　New　York　with　one　desire：　　to　find　Sylvia。　　And　the
first　pretty　woman　that　had　come　across　his　path　had　sent　Sylvia
clean　out　of　his　head。　　There　could　be　no　question　of　that。　　When
Ann　Kavanagh　stretched　out　her　hand　to　him　in　that　very　room　a
fortnight　ago　he　had　stood　before　her　dazzled；　captured。　　From　that
moment　Sylvia　had　been　tossed　aside　and　forgotten。　　Ann　Kavanagh
could　have　done　what　she　liked　with　him。　　She　had　quarrelled　with
him　that　evening　of　the　concert。　　She　had　meant　to　quarrel　with　him。

And　then　for　the　first　time　he　had　remembered　Sylvia。　　That　was　her
rewardSylvia's：　　it　was　Sylvia　she　was　thinking　offor　six　years'
devoted　friendship；　for　the　help；　the　inspiration　she　had　given　him。

As　Sylvia；　she　suffered　from　a　very　genuine　and　explainable　wave　of
indignant　jealousy。　　As　Ann；　she　admitted　he　ought　not　to　have　done
it；　but　felt　there　was　excuse　for　him。　　Between　the　two　she　feared
her　mind　would　eventually　give　way。　　On　the　morning　of　the　second
day　she　sent　Matthew　a　note　asking　him　to　call　in　the　afternoon。
Sylvia　might　be　there；　or　she　might　not。　　She　would　mention　it　to
her。

She　dressed　herself　in　a　quiet；　dark…coloured　frock。　　It　seemed
uncommittal　and　suitable　to　the　occasion。　　It　also　happened　to　be
the　colour　that　best　suited　her。　　She　would　not　have　the　lamps
lighted。

Matthew　arrived　in　a　dark　serge　suit　and　a　blue　necktie；　so　that　the
general　effect　was　quiet。　　Ann　greeted　him　with　kindliness　and　put
him　with　his　face　to　what　little　light　there　was。　　She　chose　for
herself　the　window…seat。　　Sylvia　had　not　arrived。　　She　might　be　a
little　latethat　is；　if　she　came　at　all。

They　talked　about　the　weather　for　a　while。　　Matthew　was　of　opinion
they　were　going　to　have　some　rain。　　Ann；　who　was　in　one　of　her
contradictory　moods；　thought　there　was　frost　in　the　air。

〃What　did　you　say　to　her？〃　he　asked。

〃Sylvia？　　Oh；　what　you　told　me；〃　replied　Ann。　　〃That　you　had　come　to
New　York　toto　look　for　her。〃

〃What　did　she　say？〃　he　asked。

〃Said　you'd　taken　your　time　about　it；〃　retorted　Ann。

Matthew　looked　up　with　an　injured　expression。

〃It　was　her　own　idea　that　we　should　never　meet；〃　he　explained。

〃Um！〃　Ann　grunted。

〃What　do　you　think　yourself　she　will　be　like？〃　she　continued。　　〃Have
you　formed　any　notion？〃

〃It　is　curious；〃　he　replied。　　〃I　have　never　been　able　to　conjure　up
any　picture　of　her　until　just　now。〃

〃Why　'just　now'？〃　demanded　Ann。

〃I　had　an　idea　I　should　find　her　here　when　I　opened　the　door；〃　he
answered。　　〃You　were　standing　in　the　shadow。　　It　seemed　to　be　just
what　I　had　expected。〃

〃You　would　have　been　satisfied？〃　she　asked。

〃Yes；〃　he　said。

There　was　silence　for　a　moment。

〃Uncle　Ab　made　a　mistake；〃　he　continued。　　〃He　ought　to　have　sent　me
away。　　Let　me　come　home　now　and　then。〃

〃You　mean；〃　said　Ann；　〃that　if　you　had　seen　less　of　me　you　might
have　liked　me　better？〃

〃Quite　right；〃　he　admitted。　　〃We　never　see　the　things　that　are
always　there。〃

〃A　thin；　gawky　girl　with　a　bad　complexion；〃　she　suggested。　　〃Would
it　have　been　of　any　use？〃

〃You　must　always　have　been　wonderful　with　those　eyes；〃　he　answered。
〃And　your　hands　were　beautiful　even　then。〃

〃I　used　to　cry　sometimes　when　I　looked　at　myself　in　the　glass　as　a
child；〃　she　confessed。　　〃My　hands　were　the　only　thing　that　consoled
me。〃

〃I　kissed　them　once；〃　he　told　her。　　〃You　were　asleep；　curled　up　in
Uncle　Ab's　chair。〃

〃I　wasn't　asleep；〃　said　Ann。

She　was　seated　with　one　foot　tucked　underneath　her。　　She　didn't　look
a　bit　grown　up。

〃You　always　thought　me　a　fool；〃　he　said。

〃It　used　to　make　me　so　angry　with　you；〃　said　Ann；　〃that　you　seemed
to　have　no　go；　no　ambition　in　you。　　I　wanted　you　to　wake　updo
something。　　If　I　had　known　you　were　a　budding　genius〃

〃I　did　hint　it　to　you；〃　said　he。

〃Oh；　of　course　it　was　all　my　fault；〃　said　Ann。

He　rose。　　〃You　think　she　means　to　come？〃　he　asked。　　Ann　also　had
risen。

〃Is　she　so　very　wonderful？〃　she　asked。

〃I　may　be　exaggerating　to　myself；〃　he　answered。　　〃But　I　am　not　sure
that　I　could　go　on　with　my　work　without　hernot　now。〃

〃You　forgot　her；〃　flashed　Ann；　〃till　we　happened　to　quarrel　in　the
cab。〃

〃I　often　do；〃　he　confessed。　　〃Till　something　goes　wrong。　　Then　she
comes　to　me。　　As　she　did　on　that　first　evening；　six　years　ago。　　You
see；　I　have　been　more　or　less　living　with　her　since　then；〃　he　added
with　a　smile。

〃In　dreamland；〃　Ann　corrected。

〃Yes；　but　in　my　case；〃　he　answered；　〃the　best　part　of　my　life　is
passed　in　dreamland。〃

〃And　when　you　are　not　in　dreamland？〃　she　demanded。　　〃When　you're
just　irritable；　short…tempered；　cranky　Matthew　Pole。　　What's　she
going　to　do　about　you　then？〃

〃She'll　put　up　with　me；〃　said　Matthew。

〃No　she　won't；〃　said　Ann。　　〃She'll　snap　your　head　off。　　Most　of　the
'putting　up　with'　you'll　have　to　do。〃

He　tried　to　get　between　her　and　the　window；　but　she　kept　her　face
close　to　the　pane。

〃You　make　me　tired　with　Sylvia；〃　she　said。　　〃It's　about　time　you　did
know　what　she's　like。　　She's　just　the　commonplace；　short…tempered；
disagreeable…if…she…doesn't…get…her…own…way；　unr