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Vic thought about leaving early and decided to go back and check the afternoon mail first。 Lisa; their secretary; had already left for the day; getting a jump on the holiday weekend。 Hell; you couldn't get a secretary to stay until the stroke of five any more; holiday weekend or not。 As far as Vic was concerned; it was just another sign of the continuing decay of Western Civ。 Probably at this very moment Lisa; who was beautiful; just twenty…one; and almost totally breastless; was entering the Interstate flow of traffic; bound south to Old Orchard or the Hamptons; dressed in tight jeans and a nothing halter。 Get down; disco Lisa。 Vic thought; and grinned a little。
There was a single unopened letter on his desk blotter。
He picked it up curiously; noting first the word PERSONAL printed below the address; and second the fact that his address had been printed in solid caps。
He held it; turning it over in his hands; feeling a vague thread of disquiet slip into what was a general mood of tired well…being。 Far back in his mind; hardly even acknowledged; was a sudden urge to rip the letter into halves; fourths; eighths; and then toss the pieces into the wastebasket。
Instead; he tore it open and pulled out a single sheet of paper。
More block letters。
The simple message … six sentences … hit him like a straight shot just below the heart。 He did not so much sit in his chair as collapse into it。 A little grunt escaped him; the sound of a man who has suddenly lost all his wind。 His mind roared with nothing but white noise for a length of time he didn't … couldn't … understand or prehend。 If Roger had e in just then; he likely would have thought Vic was having a heart attack。 In a way; he was。 His face was paper…white。 His mouth hung open。 Bluish half…moons had appeared under his eyes。
He read the message again。
And then again。
At first his eyes were drawn to the first interrogative:
WHAT'S THAT MOLE JUST ABOVE HER PUBIC HAIR LOOK LIKE TO YOU?
It's a mistake; he thought confusedly。 No one knows about that but me。。。 well; her mother。 And her father。 Then; hurt; he felt the first splinters of jealousy: Even her bikini covers that 。。。 her little bikini。
He ran a hand through his hair。 He put the letter down and ran both hands through his hair。 That punched; gasping feeling was still there in his chest。 The feeling that his heart was pumping air instead of blood。 He felt fright and pain and confusion。 But of the three; the dominant feeling; the overriding emotion; was terrible fright。
The letter glared up at him and shouted:
I ENJOYED FUCKING THE SHIT OUT OF HER
Now it was this line his eyes fixed upon; not wanting to leave。 He could hear the drone of a plane in the sky outside; leaving the jetport; heading up; heading out; making for points unknown; and he thought; I ENJOYED FUCKING THE SHIT OUT OF HER。 Crude; that's crude。 Yes sir and yes ma'am; yes indeedy。 It was the hack of a blunt knife。 FUCKING THE SHIT OUT OF HER; what an image that made。 Nothing fancy about it。 It was like getting a splash in the eyes from a squirtgun loaded up with battery acid。
He tried hard to think coherently and
(I ENJOYED)
just couldn't
(FUCKING THE SHIT OUT OF HER)
do it。
Now his eyes went to the last line and that was the one he read over and over again; as if trying to cram the sense of it somehow into his brain。 That huge feeling of fright kept getting in the way。
DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS?
Yes。 All of a sudden he had all kinds of questions。 The only thing was; he didn't seem to want answers to any of them。
A new thought crossed his mind。 What if Roger hadn't gone home? Often he poked his head into Vic's office before leaving if there was a light on。 He might be even more likely to do so tonight; with the trip pending。 The thought made Vic feel panicky; and an absurd memory surfaced: all those times he had spent masturbating in the bathroom as a teenager; unable to help himself but terribly afraid everyone must know exactly what he was up to in there。 If Roger came in; he would see something was wrong。 He didn't want that。 He got up and went to the window; which looked down six stories to the parking lot which served the building。 Roger's bright…yellow Honda Civic was gone from its space。 He had gone home。
Pulled out of himself; Vic listened。 The offices of Ad Worx were totally silent。 There was the resonating quiet that seems the sole property of business quarters after hours。 There was not even the sound of old Mr。 Steigmeyer; the custodian; rattling around。 He would have to sign out in the lobby。 He would have to 
Now there was a sound。 At first he didn't know what it was。 It came to him in a moment。 It was whimpering。 The sound of an animal with a smashed foot。 Still looking out the window; he saw the cars left in the parking lot double; then treble; through a film of tears。
Why couldn't he get mad? Why did he have to he so fucking scared?
An absurd; antique word came to mind。 jilted; he thought。 I've been jilted。
The whimpering sounds kept ing。 He tried to lock his throat; and it did no good。 He lowered his head and gripped the convector grille that ran below the window at waist height。 Gripped it until his fingers hurt; until the metal creaked and protested。
How long had it been since he had cried? He had cried the night Tad was born; but that had been relief。 He had cried when his dad died after fighting grimly for his life for three days after a massive heart attack struck him; and those tears; shed at seventeen; had been like these; burning; not wanting to e; it was more like bleeding than crying。 But at seventeen it was easier to cry; easier to bleed。 When you were seventeen you still expected to have to do your share of both。
He stopped whimpering。 He thought it was done。 And then a low cry came out of him; a harsh;… wavering sound; and he thought。。 Was that me? God; was it me that made that sound?
The tears began to slide down his cheeks。 There was another harsh sound; then another。 He gripped the convector grille and cried。
Forty minutes later he was sitting in Deering Oaks Park。 He had called home and told Donna he would be late。 She started to ask why; and why he sounded so strange。 He told her he would be home before dark。 He told her to go ahead and feed Tad。 Then he hung up before she could say anything else。
Now he was sitting in the park。
The tears had burned off most of the fear。 What was left was an ugly slag of anger。 That was the next level in this geological column of knowledge。 But anger wasn't the right word。 He was enraged。 He was infuriated。 It was as if he had been stung by something。 A part of him had recognized that it would be dangerous for him to go home now 。。。 dangerous for all three of them。
It would be so pleasurable to hide die wreckage by making more; it would (let's face it) he mindlessly pleasurable to punch her cheating fact in。
He was sitting beside the duckpond。 On the other side; a spirited Frisbee game was going on。 He noticed that all four of the girls playing … and two of the boys … were on roller skates。 Roller skates were big this summer。 He saw a young girl in a tube top pushing a cart of pretzels; peanuts; and canned soft drinks。 Her face was soft and fresh and innocent。 One of the guys playing Frisbee flipped her the disk; she caught it deftly and flipped it back。 In the sixties; Vic thought; she would have been in a mune; diligently picking bugs off tomato plants。 Now she was probably a member in good standing of the Small Business Administration。
He and Roger used to e down here to eat their lunches sometimes。 That had been in the first year。 Then Roger noticed that; although the pond looked lovely; there was a faint but definite odor of putridity hanging around it 。。。 and the small house on the rock in the center of the pond was whitewashed not with paint but with gullshit。 A few weeks later; Vic had noted a decaying rat floating amid the condoms and gum wrappers at the edge of the pond。 He didn't think they had been back since then。
The Frisbee; a bright red; floated across the sky。
The image that had provoked his anger kept recurring。 He couldn't keep it away。 It was as crude as his anonymous correspondent's choice of words had been; but he couldn't ditch it。 He saw them

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