rj.thepathofdaggers-第83章
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and then； though she tried to hide it。 Egwene put the matter out of her head。 Tonight； that was an anthill beside mountains。
〃I want to avoid a battle if I can； Lord Bryne。 The army is for Tar Valon； not fighting a war here。 Send to arrange a meeting as soon as possible for the Amyrlin Seat with Lord Pelivar and Lady Arathelle and anyone else you think you should be present。 Not here。 Our ragged camp won't impress them very much。 As soon as possible； mind。 I wouldn't object to tomorrow； if it could be set。〃
〃That's sooner than I can manage； Mother；〃 he said mildly。 〃If I send riders out as soon as I return to camp； I doubt they can be back with an answer much before tomorrow night。〃
〃Then I suggest you return quickly。〃 Light； but her hands and feet felt cold。 And the pit of her stomach； too。 But her voice kept its calm。 〃And I want you to keep that meeting； and the existence of their army； from the Hall as long as possible。〃
This time； she was asking him to take as great a risk as she did。 Gareth Bryne was one of the best generals living； but the Hall chafed that he did not run the army to suit them。 They had been grateful for his name in the beginning； for it helped draw soldiers to their cause。 Now the army had more than thirty thousand armed men； with more ing even since the snows had started； and they thought that maybe they did not need Lord Gareth Bryne any longer。 And of course； there were those who believed they never had needed him。 They would not simply send him away for this。 If the Hall chose to act； he might well go to the headsman for treason。
He did not blink； and he did not ask questions。 Perhaps he knew she would not give answers。 Or maybe he thought he knew them。 〃There isn't much traffic between my camp and yours； but too many men know already to keep a secret long。 I will do what I can； though。〃
As simple as that。 The first step down a road that would see her on the Amyrlin Seat in Tar Valon； or else deliver her firmly into the grasp of the Hall； with nothing left to decide except whether it was Romanda or Lelaine who told her what to do。 Somehow； such a pivotal moment should have been acpanied by fanfares of trumpets； or at the least； thunder in the sky。 It was always that way in stories。
Egwene let the ball of light vanish； but as Bryne turned to leave； she caught his arm。 It was like catching a thick tree branch through his coat。 〃A thing I have been meaning to ask you； Lord Bryne。 You can't want to take men worn down by marching right into a siege of Tar Valon。 How long would you want to rest them before you began？〃
For the first time； he paused； and she wished she still had the light to see his face。 She thought he frowned。 〃Even leaving people in the pay of the Tower out of it；〃 he said at last； slowly； 〃news of an army flies as fast as a falcon。 Elaida will know to the day when we'll arrive； and she won't give us an hour。 You know she's increasing the Tower Guard？ To fifty thousand men； apparently。 But a month； if I could； to rest and recover。 Ten days would do； but a month would be better。〃
She nodded； releasing him。 That casual question about the Tower Guard hurt。 He was aware that the Hall and the Ajahs told her what they wanted her to know and no more。 〃I suppose you're right；〃 she said evenly。 〃There'll be no time for rest once we reach Tar Valon。 Send your fastest riders。 There won't be any difficulty； will there？ Pelivar and Arathelle will hear them out？〃 She did not feign the touch of anxiety。 More than her plans might be ruined if they had to fight now。
Bryne's tone did not alter a whit that she could tell； but somehow； he sounded soothing。 〃So long as there is light enough for them to see the white feathers； they'll recognize a truce and listen。 I'd better go； Mother。 It's a long way and hard riding； even for men with extra horses。〃
As soon as the tentflap fell behind him； Egwene let out a long breath。 Her shoulders were tight； and she expected her head to start aching any moment。 Bryne usually made her feel relaxed； absorbing his sureness。 Tonight； she had had to manipulate him； and she thought he knew it。 He was very observant for a man。 But too much was at stake to trust him more； until he made an open declaration。 Maybe an oath like the one Myrelle and the others had given。 Bryne followed the Amyrlin； and the army followed Bryne。 If he thought she was going to throw men away uselessly； a few words from him could hand her to the Hall trussed like a pig on a platter。 She drank deeply； feeling the warmth of the spiced wine spread through her。
〃Better for us if they believed；〃 she muttered。 〃I wish there was something for them to believe。 If I do nothing else； Siuan； I hope at least I can free us from the Three Oaths。〃
〃No！〃 Siuan barked。 She sounded scandalized。 〃Even trying could be disastrous； and if you succeeded。。。 The Light help us； if you succeeded； you would destroy the White Tower。〃
〃What are you talking about？ I try to follow the Oaths； Siuan； since we're stuck with them … for now … but the Oaths won't help us against the Seanchan。 If sisters have to be in danger of their lives before they can fight back； it's only a matter of time before we are all dead or collared。〃 For a moment she could feel the a'dam around her throat again； turning her into a dog on a leash。 A well…trained and obedient dog。 She was glad of the darkness； now； hiding her trembles。 Shadows obscured Siuan's face； save for a soundlessly working jaw。
〃Don't you look at me like that； Siuan。〃 It was easier to be angry than afraid； easy to mask fear in anger。 She would never be collared like that again！ 〃You've taken every advantage since you were freed from the Oaths。 If you hadn't lied in your teeth； we'd all be in Salidar； without an army； sitting on our hands and waiting for a miracle。 Well； you would be。 They'd never have summoned me to be Amyrlin without your lie about Logain and the Reds。 Elaida would reign supreme； and in a year； nobody would remember how she usurped the Amyrlin Seat。 She'd destroy the Tower； for sure。 You know she'd mishandle everything about Rand。 I would not be surprised if she had tried to kidnap him by now； except that she's concerned with us。 Well； maybe not kidnap； but she'd have done something。 Likely； Aes Sedai would be fighting Asha'man today； and never mind Tarmon Gai'don waiting over the horizon。〃
〃I have lied when it seemed necessary；〃 Siuan breathed。 〃When it seemed expedient。〃 Her shoulders hunched； and she sounded as though she were confessing crimes she did not want to admit to herself。 〃Sometimes I think it's bee too easy for me to decide that it's necessary and expedient。 I've lied to almost everyone。 Except you。 But don't think it hasn't occurred to me。 To nudge you toward a decision； or away from one。 It wasn't wanting to keep your trust that stopped me。〃 Siuan's hand stretched out in the dark； pleading。 〃The Light knows what your trust and friendship mean to me； but it wasn't that。 It wasn't knowing that you'd have the hide off me in strips； or send me away； if you found out。 I realized that I had to hold on to the Oaths with somebody； or I'd lose myself pletely。 So I don't lie to you； or to Gareth Bryne； whatever it costs。 And as soon I can； Mother； I will swear the Three Oaths on the Oath Rod again。〃
〃Why？〃 Egwene asked quietly。 Siuan had considered lying to her？ She would have had her hide for that。 But her anger was gone。 〃I don't condone lying； Siuan。 Not normally。 It's just that sometimes； it really is necessary。〃 Her time with the Aiel flashed through her mind。 〃So long as you're willing to pay for it； anyway。 I've seen sisters take on penance for smaller things。 You are one of the first of a new sort of Aes Sedai； Siuan； free and unbound。 I believe you when you say you won't lie to me。〃 Or to Lord Bryne？ Odd； that。 〃Why give up your freedom？〃
〃Give up？〃 Siuan laughed。 〃I'll be giving up nothing。〃 Her back straightened； and her voice began to gain strength； and then passion。 〃The Oaths are what make us more than simply a group of women meddling in the affairs of the world。 Or seven groups。 Or fifty。 The Oaths hold us together； a s
