sk.dreamcatcher-第10章
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he had a good； if not perfect； sightline through the interlacing branches。 Jonesy raised the Garand； settled the buttplate into the hollow of his shoulder； and prepared to shoot himself a conversation…piece。
What saved McCarthy … at least temporarily … was Jonesy's disenchantment with hunting。 What almost got McCarthy killed was a phenomenon George Kilroy； a friend of his father's； had called 'eye…fever'。 Eye…fever； Kilroy claimed； was a form of buck fever； and was probably the second most mon cause of hunting accidents。 'First is drink；' said George Kilroy 。 。 。 and like Jonesy's father； Kilroy knew a bit on that subject； as well。 'First is always drink。'
Kilroy said that victims of eye…fever were uniformly astounded to discover they had shot a fencepost； or a passing car； or the broad side of a barn； or their own hunting partner （in many cases the partner was a spouse； a sib； or a child）。 'But I saw it；' they would protest； and most of them according to Kilroy； could pass a lie…detector test on the subject。 They had seen the deer or the bear or the wolf； or just the grouse flip…flapping through the high autumn grass。 They had seen it。
What happened； according to Kilroy； was that these hunters were afflicted by an anxiety to make the shot； to get it over with； one way or the other。 This anxiety became so strong that the brain persuaded the eye that it saw what was not yet visible； in order to end the tension。 This was eye…fever。 And although Jonesy was aware of no particular anxiety … his fingers had been perfectly steady as he screwed the red stopper back into the throat of the Thermos … he admitted later to himself that yes； he might have fallen prey to the malady。
For one moment he saw the buck clearly at the end of the tunnel made by the interlocking branches … as clearly as he had seen any of the previous sixteen deer （six bucks； ten does） he had brought down over the years at Hole in the Wall。 He saw its brown head； one eye so dark it was almost the black of jeweler's velvet； even part of its rack。
Shoot now！ part of him cried … it was the Jonesy from the other side of the accident； the whole Jonesy。 That one had spoken more frequently in the last month or so； as he began to approach some mythical state which people who had never been hit by a car blithely referred to as 'total recovery'； but he had never spoken as loudly as he did now。 This was a mand； almost a shout。
And his finger did tighten on the trigger。 It never put on that last pound of pressure （or perhaps it only would have taken another half； a paltry eight ounces）； but it did tighten。 The voice that stopped him was that second Jonesy； the one who had awakened in Mass General； doped and disoriented and in pain； not sure of anything anymore except that someone wanted something to stop； someone couldn't stand it … not without a shot； anyway … that someone wanted Marcy。
No； not yet … wait； watch； this new cautious Jonesy said； and that was the voice he listened to。 He froze in place； most of his weight thrown forward on his good left leg； rifle raised； barrel angled down that interlacing tunnel of light at a cool thirty…five degrees。
The first flakes of snow came skating down out of the white sky just then； and as they did； Jonesy saw a bright vertical line of orange below the deer's head … it was as if the snow had somehow conjured it up。 For a moment perception simply gave up and what he was seeing over the barrel of his gun became only an unconnected jumble； like paints swirled all together on an artist's palette。 There was no deer and no man； not even any woods； just a puzzling and untidy jumble of black； brown； and orange。
Then there was more orange； and in a shape that made sense： it was a hat； the kind with flaps you could fold down to cover your ears。 The out…of…staters bought them at L。L。 Bean's for forty…four dollars； each with a little tag inside that said PROUDLY MADE IN THE USA BY UNION LABOR。 Or you could pick one up at Gosselin's for seven bucks。 The tag in a Gosselin's cap just said MADE IN BANGLADESH。
The hat brought everything into horrible oh…God focus： the brown he had mistaken for a buck's head was the front of a man's wool jacket； the black jeweler's velvet of the buck's eye was a button； and the antlers were only more branches … branches belonging to the very tree in which he was standing。 The man was unwise （Jonesy could not quite bring himself to use the word crazy） to be wearing a brown coat in the woods； but Jonesy was still at a loss to understand how he himself could have made a mistake of such potentially horrifying consequence。 Because the man was also wearing an orange cap； wasn't he？ And a bright orange flagman's vest as well； over the admittedly unwise brown coat。 The man was…
…was a pound of finger…pressure from death。 Maybe less。
It came home to him in a visceral way then； knocking him clean out of his own body。 For a terrible； brilliant moment he never forgot； he was neither Jonesy Number One； the confident pre…accident Jonesy； or Jonesy Number Two； the more tentative survivor who spent so much of his time in a tiresome state of physical disfort and mental confusion。 For that moment he was some other Jonesy； an invisible presence looking at a gunman standing on a platform in a tree。 The gunman's hair was short and already graying； his face lined around the mouth； beard…speckled on the cheeks； and haggard。 The gunman was on the verge of using his weapon。 Snow had begun to dance around his head and light on his untucked brown flannel shirt； and he was on the verge of shooting a man in an orange cap and vest of the very sort he would have been wearing himself if he had elected to go into the woods with the Beaver instead of up into this tree。
He fell back into himself with a thud； exactly as one fell back into one's seat after taking a car over a bad bump at a high speed。 To his horror； he realized he was still tracking the man below with the Garand； as if some stubborn alligator deep in his brain refused to let go of the idea that the man in the brown coat was prey。 Worse； he couldn't seem to make his finger relax on the rifle's trigger。 There was even an awful second or two when he thought he was actually still squeezing； inexorably eating up those last few ounces between him and the greatest mistake of his life。 He later came to accept that that at least had been an illusion； something akin to the feeling you get of rolling backward in your stopped car when you glimpse a slowly moving car beside you； out of the corner of your eye。
No； he was just frozen； but that was bad enough； that was hell。 Jonesy； you think too much； Pete liked to say when he caught Jonesy staring out into the middle distance； no longer tracking the conversation； and what he probably meant was Jonesy； you imagine too much； and that was very likely true。 Certainly he was imagining too much now as he stood up here in the middle of the tree and the season's first snow； hair leaping up in tufts； finger locked on the Garand's trigger … not tightening still； as he had for a moment feared； but not loosening； either； the man almost below him now； the Garand's gunsight on the top of the orange cap； the man's life on an invisible wire between the Garand's muzzle and that cap； the man maybe thinking about trading his car or cheating on his wife or buying his oldest daughter a pony （Jonesy later had reason to know McCarthy had been thinking about none of those things； but of course not then； not in the tree with his forefinger a frozen curl around the trigger of his rifle） and not knowing what Jonesy had not known as he stood on the curb in Cambridge with his briefcase in one hand and a copy of the Boston Phoenix under his arm； namely that death was in the neighborhood； or perhaps even Death； a hurrying figure like something escaped from an early Ingmar Bergman film； something carrying a concealed implement in the coarse folds of its robe。 Scissors； perhaps。 Or a scalpel。
And the worst of it was that the man would not die； or at least not at once。 He would fall down and lie there screaming； as Jonesy had lain screaming in the street。 He couldn't remember screaming； but of course he had； he had been
