ericlustbader.the ninja-第52章

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　'But　I　won't。　I　know　that　now。'　'There's　nothing　stopping　you。　Nothing　at　all。'　Vincent　shook　his　head。　They　went　down　the　stone　steps　to　the　plaza。　On　their　left；　beyond　the　great　empty　cage　meant　to　house　the　avians；　they　could　see　the　Seal　Pond；　where　now　several　new　sea　lions　dived　and　dashed　beside　the　elderly　female；　the　lone　survivor　of　happier　years　here。　'It's　my　family；　Nick。　My　sisters。　If　I　went　back；　I　would　have　to　see　them。　Duty。　I　can't　face　them。　Not　now。　Not　after　what　I've　bee。'　Near　the　Monkey　House　a　swarthy　man　with　a　thick　moustache　and　a　sailor　hat　stood　next　to　a　pair　of　green　metal　cylinders。　He　made　helium　balloons　in　front　of　the　wide　eyes　of　a　group　of　children。　Each　time　he　did　it；　it　seemed　like　a　giant　sucking　in　his　breath。　'What　have　you　bee？'
　The　other　turned　his　head。　'That's　just　it。　I　don't　know　any　more。　But　I'm　not　what　I　once　was。　I've　been　assimilated；　I　feel　as　if　I've　been　corrupted　by　this　place。　My　values　have　changed。　The　traditions　are　crumbling　around　me。'　There　was　a　crowd　in　front　of　the　gorilla　cage　watching　delightedly　as　the　family　inside　was　hosed　down　by　a　female　attendant。　The　mother　reached　out　and；　putting　her　palm　against　the　nozzle；　sprayed　the　onlookers。　There　were　squeals　and　the　crowd　broke　apart　momentarily。　Laughing；　they　surged　back　towards　the　cage。　Next　door；　the　haughty　orangutan　looked　on　unperturbed；　studying　the　odd　creatures　through　the　bars　of　his　cage　as　if　for　research　for　a　book。
　'e　on；'　Nicholas　said　lightly。　'I　remember　when　we　first　met。　You；　Terry　and　me。　It　was　at　Michita；　remember？　We　were　all　kind　of　lost　then　…　all　in　the　same　way。　Which　is　why；　I　suppose；　we　all　coalesced　at　that　spot。'　He　smiled；　or　tried　to　at　least。　'A　bit　of　home。'　He　shook　his　head。　'But　what　was　it　that　brought　us　together？　Was　it　merely　that　we　were　all　slightly　homesick？　I　don't　think　so。'
　'Eileen　used　to　say　that　it　was　the　martial　spirit　which　linked　us。　Like　a　magical　umbilicus。　I　think　she　must　have　thought　we　were　like　children　in　that　way。'
　Nicholas　shook　his　head。　'No。　You're　wrong　there。　She　respected　that　in　us。　She　didn't　…　I　suspect　couldn't　…　understand　it。　But　she　recognized　its　power　and　would　not　interfere。　That　was　why　she　always　declined　to　e　when　the　three　of　us　got　together。　She　knew　she　would　be　out　of　her　clement　even　though　we　would　make　every　effort　to　make　her　feel　fortable。　Terry　told　me　once　dial　she　said　she　thought　she'd　only　inhibit　us；　and　she　was　right。〃
　'I　don't　know；'　Vincent　said。　'It　all　seems　so　far　away　to　me　now；　as　if　we　were　talking　about　the　customs　of　Finland。　I'm　not　sure　whether　/　understand　it　any　more。'
　'That's　just　talk　…　so　many　meaningless　words。　The　way　a　Westerner　would　think。　Open　your　mind　and　you'll　still　feel　it。　Being　here　can't　make　it　go　away。'　He　seemed　to　be　telling　himself　as　well　as　Vincent。　'We　were　born　in　the　land　of　the　martial　spirit。　It　binds　us　more　powerfully　…　tunelessly　…　to　one　another　than　a　blood　bond。　What　has　been　taught　us　will　never　leave　us；　you　know　that。　You're　still　the　same　person；　at　the　core；　who　got　off　that　JAL　plane　twelve　years　ago。'
　'Oh　no；　I'm　not。　Not　by　a　long　stretch。　I　don't　talk　the　same；　I　don't　think　the　same　way。　America　has　changed　me　and　the　process　seems　irreversible。　I　can　never　go　back。　I　no　longer　belong　to　Japan　and　I　don't　feel　like　I　belong　here。　The　West　has　taken　something　very　valuable　from　me；　snatched　it　away　while　I　wasn't　looking。'
　'You　can　get　it　back。　It's　not　too　late。'
　Vincent　looked　at　him；　put　his　hands　in　his　pockets　and　walked　on。　They　were　near　the　arch　on　top　of　which　perched　the　famous　clock　that　chimed　in　each　hour　with　a　parade　of　animals　dancing　in　a　semicircle。　Beyond　was　the　Children's　Zoo；　its　bright　laughter　and　clip…clop　of　hastily　running　feet。
　'I　haven't　told　anyone　this；　not　even　the　police。　I　got　a　deadline　call　the　night　Terry　and　Ei　were　murdered。'　He　looked　up。　'But　the　more　I　think　about　it；　the　more　certain　I　am　that　I　did　hear　something；　after　all。　Some　music。'
　'Do　you　remember　what　it　was？'
　'Yeah。　I'm　pretty　sure　it　was　Mancini。'　He　did　not　have　to　add　that　Mancini　was　Eileen's　favourite　poser。
　Vincent　shivered。　'It　was　like　Terry　was　calling　to　me　from　beyond　the　grave。'　He　lifted　a　hand　hastily。　'I　know。　I　know。　I　don't　believe　in　that　kind　of　thing。　But；　damn　it！　It　was　as　if　he　was　trying　to　tell　me　who　did　it。'
　'You　mean　he　knew　the　murderer？'
　Vincent　shrugged。　'Maybe　I'm　making　too　much　out　of　it。　I　don't　know　any　more。　I　just　wish　…　I　wish　you　had　been　in　the　city　that　night；　that's　all。　Christ；　they　were　your　friends；　too！'
　Nicholas　said　nothing；　stared　at　the　smiling　children　eating　ices；　sticking　out　their　patinated　tongues　at　the　solemn　apes。　He　wished　he　felt　something。　Grief　was　a　useful　emotion；　better　that　than　carrying　it　around　with　you　like　a　hump。　He　felt　an　abrupt　stillness　as　if　he　were　at　the　eye　of　a　raging　hurricane。　Safe　and　protected；　he　nevertheless　was　witness　to　the　devastation　going　on　all　around　him。　Was　there　a　way　to　stop　it？　He　knew　a　way；　most　definitely；　but　he　was　reluctant　to　take　it。　Vincent　was　still　looking　at　him；　as　if　by　his　gaze　alone　he　could　wrench　some　confession　from　Nicholas's　bowels。　It　had　to　be　done；　then。　As　he　knew　it　from　the　moment　the　deal　had　been　proposed。　There　was　obligation；　there　was　duty。　Vincent　was　right。　They　were　his　friends。
　Vincent　touched　his　arm。　'Sorry；　old　friend；'　he　said。　'It's　me。　I'm　on　edge。　You　can　see　it。　Jesus；　it's　not　fair　to　take　it　out　on　you。'　He　smiled　thinly。　'You　see　how　Westernized　I've　bee。'
　Nicholas　returned　the　smile　with　more　warmth　than　he　felt。　'No。　You　were　right。　Neither　of　us　has　forgotten　the　importance　of　obligation　and　duty。'
　'Listen；　Croaker's　invited　me　to　dinner。　Why　don't　you　join　us？　At　the　place。'
　'All　right。'　Nicholas　nodded。　Td　like　that。'
　Vincent　glanced　at　his　watch。　'Back　to　the　salt…mines。　See　you　later。'
　Nicholas　searched　through　the　park　for　a　phone；　finally　went　out　on　Fifth　Avenue。　He　called　Justine。　Doc　Deerforth　answered。
　'What's　the　matter？'　Nicholas　said。　His　heart　was　racing。
　'A　slight　accident。　Nothing　to　worry　about。　But　I　think　you　ought　to　e　out　if　your　work　permits。'
　'What　happened？'

　'Justine　was　caught　in　the　undertow。　She's　all　right。'
　'Are　you　certain　that's　what　it　was？'
　'Reasonably。　What　do　you　mean？'
　'Were　there　other　people　around？　Did　anyone　see　anything　suspicious？'
　'There　were　plenty　of　people。　A　neighbour　helped　drag　her　out　of　the　surf。　No　one　mentioned　anything　else。'
　'Can　you　stay　with　her　until　I　get　there？　I'll　take　the　first　train　out。'　He　looked　at　his　watch。
　'Sure。　There's　nothing　pressing。　My　service　knows　where　I　am。　But　if　there's　an　emergency　…'
　'I　understand。　Doc　…　tell　her　I'll　be　there。'
　'When　she　wakes　up。　Don't　worry。'
　He　hung　up　and　hailed　a　cab；　took　it　to　Penn　Station。　Downstairs　at　the　Long　Island　Rail　Road　counter　he　bought　a　ticket；　found　that　he　had　twenty…five　minutes　to　spare。　He　called　Tomkin。　There　was　a　considerable　delay。　He　stared　out　at　the　passing　parade　of　people；　scanning　unconsciously。　A　pair　of　teenagers　struggled　with　enormous　knapsacks　and；　just　behind　them；　a　young　woman　stood　against　a　pillar　waiting　impatiently　to　be　met。　He　wondered　whether　it　was　her　boss　who　was　late。
　'Nicholas？'　The　voice　came　crisply　into　his　car。
　'Tomkin。'
　'I'm　glad　you　called。　Have　you　thought　about　my　offer？'
　Bastard；　he　thought。　Bastard　to　bring　Justine　into　it。　But　now　he　knew　that　Justine　was　a　part　of　it。　He　hated　to　be　in　this　position。　Methodically；　he　calmed　himself。　'I've　thought　about　it。　I'll　start　work　for　you　today。'
　'Good。　Why　don't　you　e　up　to　the　tower　and　…'
　〃No。　I'm　at　Penn　Station。　I'm　taking　the　next　train　out　to　the　Island。'

　〃I　don't　understand　…'
　'There's　work　to　do　out　there。　Justine's　out　there。'
　'I　see。'
　'I'm　sure　you　do；'　Nicholas　said　savagely。　'I'll　be　in　touch　tomorrow。'
　'Nick　…'
　The　voice　was　cut　off　as　he　cradled　the　receiver。
　The　man　was　on　the　job。　He　had　e　to　work　for　Lubin　Bros　over　a　week　ago。　He　had　been　assigned　to　a　construction　site　on　Ralph　Avenue　in　Brooklyn　until　Edwards　had　turned　up　sic