thunter.fearloathinglasvegas-第12章
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ght。 With a bit of luck； it'll ruin his life…forever thinking that just be…hind some narrow door in all his favorite bars； men in red Pendleton shirts are getting incredible kicks from things he'll never know。 Would he dare to suck a sleeve？ Probably not。 Play it safe。 Pretend you never saw it。
Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas。 Five years later？ Six？ It seems like a lifetime； or at least a Main Era…the kind of peak that never es again。 San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of。 Maybe it meant something。 Maybe not； in the long run 。 。 。 but no explanation； no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were here and alive in that corner of time and the world。 Whatever it meant。。。。
History is hard to know； because of all the hired bullshit； but even without being sure of 〃history〃 it seems entirely reasonable to think that every now and then the energy of a whole generation es to a head in a long fine flash； for reasons that nobody really understands at the time…and which never explain； in retrospect； what actually happened。My central memory of that time seems to hang on one or five or maybe forty nights…or very early mornings…when I left the Fillmore half…crazy and； instead of going home； aimed the big 650 Lightning across the Bay Bridge at a hundred miles an hour wearing L。 L。 Bean shorts and a Butte sheepherder's jacket。。。booming through the Treasure Island tunnel at the lights of Oakland and Berkeley and Richmond； not quite sure which turn…off to take when I got to the other end （always stalling at the toll…gate； too twisted to find neutral while I fumbled for change）。。。but being absolutely certain that no matter which way I went I would e to a place where people were just as high and wild as I was： No doubt at all about that。 。There was madness in any direction； at any hour。 If not across the Bay； then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda。。。。You could strike sparks anywhere。 There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right； that we were winning。And that； I think； was the handle…that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil。 Not in any mean or military sense； we didn't need that。 Our energy would simply prevail。 There was no point in fighting…on our side or theirs。 We had all the momentum； we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave。
So now； less than five years later； you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West； and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high…water mark…that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back。
9。 Sympathy for the Devil。。。Newsmen Tortured？。。。Flight into Madness
The decision to flee came suddenly。 Or maybe not。 Maybe I'd 'planned it all along…subconsciously waiting for the right moment。 The bill was a factor； I think。 Because I had no money to pay it。 And no more of these devilish credit…card/reimbursement deals。 Not after dealing with Sidney Zion。 They seized my American Express card after that one； and now the bastards are suing me…along with the Diner's Club and the IRS。。。。
And besides； the magazine is legally responsible。 My attorney saw to that。 We signed nothing。 Except those room service tabs。 We never knew the total； but…just before we left…my attorney figured we were running somewhere between 29 and 36 per hour； for forty…eight consecutive hours。
〃Incredible；〃 I said。 〃How could it happen？〃 But by the time I asked this question； there was nobody around to answer。 My attorney was gone。 He must have sensed trouble。 On Monday evening he ordered up a set of fine cowhide luggage from room service； told me he had reservations on the next plane for L。A。 We would have to hurry； he said； and on the way to the airport he borrowed 25 for the plane ticket。
I saw him off； then I went back to the airport souvenir counter and spent all the rest of my cash on garbage…plete shit； souvenirs of Las Vegas； plastic fake…Zippo…lighters with a built…in roulette wheel for 6。95； JFK half…dollar clips for 5 each； tin apes that shook dice for 7。50。。。
I loaded up on this crap； then carried it out to the Great Red Shark and dumped it all in the back seat。。。and then I stepped into the driver's seat in a very dignified way （the white top was rolled back； as always） and I sat there and turned the radio on and began thinking。
How would Horatio Alger handle this situation？One toke over the line； sweet Jesus。。。 one toke over the line。 Panic。 It crept up my spine like the first rising vibes of an acid frenzy。 All these horrible realities began to dawn on me： Here I was all alone in Las Vegas with this goddamn incredibly expensive car； pletely twisted on drugs； no attorney； no cash； no story for the magazine…and on top of everything else I had a gigantic goddamn hotel bill to deal with。 We had ordered everything into that room that human hands could carry…including about six hundred bars of translucent Neutrogena soap。
The whole car was full of it…all over the floors； the seats； the glove partment。 My attorney had worked out some kind of arrangement with the mestizo maids on our floor to have this soap delivered to us…six hundred bars of this weird； transparent shit…and now it was all mine。
Along with this plastic briefcase that I suddenly noticed right beside me on the front seat。 I lifted the fucker and knew immediately what was inside。 No Samoan attorney in his right mind is going to stomp through the metal…detector gates of a mercial airline with a fat black 。357 Magnum on his person。
So he had left it with me； for delivery…if I made it back to L。A。 Otherwise 。 。 。 well； I could almost hear myself talking to the California Highway Patrol： What？ This weapon？ This loaded； unregistered； concealed and maybe hot 。357 Magnum？ What am I doing with it？ Well； you see； officer； I pulled off the road near Mescal Springs…on the advice of my attorney； who subsequently disappearedr…and all of a sudden while I was just sort of walking around that deserted waterhole by myself for no reason at all when this little fella with a beard came up to me； out of nowhere； and he had horrible linoleum knife in one hand and this huge black pistol in the other hand。。。 and he offered to carve a big X on my forehead； in memory of Lieutenant Calley。。。but when I told him I was a doctor of journalism his whole attitude changed。 Yes； you probably won't believe this； officer； but he suddenly hurled that knife into the brackish mescal waters near our feet； and then he gave me this revolver。 Right； he just shoved it into my hands； butt…first； and then he ran off into the darkness。
So that's why I have this weapon； officer。 Can you believe that？
No。
But I wasn't about to throw the bastard away； either。 A good 。357 is a hard thing to get； these days。
So I figured； well； just get this bugger back to Malibu； and it's mine。 My risk … my gun： it made perfect sense。 And if that Samoan pig wanted to argue； if he wanted to e yelling around the house； give him a taste of the bugger about midway up the femur。 Indeed。 158 grains of half…jacketed lead/alloy； traveling 1500 feet per second； equals about forty pounds of Samoan hamburger； mixed up with bone splinters。 Why not？
Madness； madness。。。and meanwhile all alone with the Great Red Shark in the parking lot of the Las Vegas airport。 To hell with this panic。 Get a grip。 Maintain。 For the next twenty…four hours this matter of personal control will be critical。 Here I am sitting out here alone on this fucking desert； this nest of armed loonies； with a very dangerous carload hazards； horrors and liabilities that I must get back to L。A。if they nail me out here； I'm doomed。 pletely fucked。 No question about that。 No future for a doctor of journalism editing the state pen weekly。 Better to get the hell of this atavistic state at high speed。 Right。 But； first…to the Mint Hotel and cash a 50 check； then up to the room and call down for two club sandwiches； two quarts of milk； a pot of coffee and a fifth of Bacardi Anejo。 Rum will be absolutely necessary to get through this night…to polish these notes； this shameful diary。。。
