rj.thegreathunt-第13章
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going to do anything to us。〃 He lowered his voice to say that； and looked over his shoulder to see if any of the gamblers was listening。 Feared the Aes Sedai might be； but in the Borderlands； they were far from being hated； and a disrespectful ment about them could land you in a fight； or worse。 〃Look at Moiraine。 She isn't so bad； even if she is Aes Sedai。 You're thinking like old Cenn Buie telling his tall tales back home； in the Winespring Inn。 I mean； she hasn't hurt us； and they won't。 Why would they？〃
Perrin's eyes lifted。 Yellow eyes； gleaming in the dim light like burnished gold。 Moiraine hasn't hurt us？ Rand thought。 Perrin's eyes had been as deep a brown as Mat's when they left the Two Rivers。 Rand had no idea how the change had e about … Perrin did not want to talk about it； or about very much of anything since it happened … but it had e at the same time as the slump in his shoulders； and a distance in his manner as if he felt alone even with friends around him。 Perrin's eyes and Mat's dagger。 Neither would have happened if they had not left Emond's Field； and it was Moiraine who had taken them away。 He knew that was not fair。 They would probably all be dead at Trollocs' hands； and a good part of Emond's Field as well； if she had not e to their village。 But that did not make Perrin laugh the way he used to； or take the dagger from Mat's belt。 And me？ If I was home and still alive； would I still be what I am now？ At least I wouldn't be worrying about what the Aes Sedai are going to do to me。
Mat was still looking at him quizzically； and Perrin had raised his head enough to stare from under his eyebrows。 Loial waited patiently。 Rand could not tell them why he had to stay away from the Amyrlin Seat。 They did not know what he was。 Lan knew； and Moiraine。 And Egwene； and Nynaeve。 He wished none of them knew； and most of all he wished Egwene did not； but at least Mat and Perrin … and Loial； too … believed he was still the same。 He thought he would rather die than let them know； than see the hesitation and worry he sometimes caught in Egwene's eyes； and Nynaeve's； even when they were trying their best。
〃Somebody's 。。。 watching me；〃 he said finally。 〃Following me。 Only。。。 Only； there's nobody there。〃
Perrin's head jerked up； and Mat licked his lips and whispered； 〃A Fade？〃
〃Of course not；〃 Loial snorted。 〃How could one of the Eyeless enter Fal Dara； town or keep？ By law； no one may hide his face inside the town walls； and the lamplighters are charged with keeping the streets lit at night so there isn't a shadow for a Myrddraal to hide in。 It could not happen。〃
〃Walls don't stop a Fade；〃 Mat muttered。 〃Not when it wants to e in。 I don't know as laws and lamps will do any better。〃 He did not sound like someone who had half thought Fades were only gleemen's tales less than half a year before。 He had seen too much； too。
〃And there was the wind；〃 Rand added。 His voice hardly shook as he told what had happened on the tower top。 Perrin's fists tightened until his knuckles cracked。 〃I just want to leave here；〃 Rand finished。 〃I want to go south。 Somewhere away。 Just somewhere away。〃
〃But if the gates are barred；〃 Mat said； 〃how do we get out？〃
Rand stared at him。 〃We？〃 He had to go alone。 It would be dangerous for anyone near him； eventually。 He would be dangerous； and even Moiraine could not tell him how long he had。 〃Mat； you know you have to go to Tar Valon with Moiraine。 She said that's the only place you can be separated from that bloody dagger without dying。 And you know what will happen if you keep it。〃
Mat touched his coat over the dagger； not seeming to realize what he was doing。 〃'An Aes Sedai's gift is bait for a fish；'〃 he quoted。 〃Well； maybe I don't want to put the hook in my mouth。 Maybe whatever she wants to do in Tar Valon is worse than if I don't go at all。 Maybe she's lying。 'The truth an Aes Sedai tells is never the truth you think it is。'〃
〃You have any more old sayings you want to rid yourself of？〃 Rand asked。 〃'A south wind brings a warm guest； a north wind an empty house'？ 'A pig painted gold is still a pig'？ What about； 'talk shears no sheep'？ 'A fool's words are dust'？〃
〃Easy； Rand；〃 Perrin said softly。 〃There is no need to be so rough。〃
〃Isn't there？ Maybe I don't want you two going with me； always hanging around； falling into trouble and expecting me to pull you out。 You ever think of that？ Burn me； did it ever occur to you I might be tired of always having you there whenever I turn around？ Always there； and I'm tired of it。〃 The hurt on Perrin's face cut him like a knife； but he pushed on relentlessly。 〃There are some here think I'm a lord。 A lord。 Maybe I like that。 But look at you； dicing with stablehands。 When I go； I go by myself。 You two can go to Tar Valon or go hang yourselves； but I leave here alone。〃
Mat's face had gone stiff； and he clutched the dagger through his coat till his knuckles were white。 〃If that is how you want it；〃 he said coldly。 〃I thought we were 。。。 However you want it； al'Thor。 But if I decide to leave at the same time you do； I'll go； and you can stand clear of me。〃
〃Nobody is going anywhere；〃 Perrin said； 〃if the gates are barred。〃 He was staring at the floor again。 Laughter rolled from the gamblers against the wall as someone lost。
〃Go or stay；〃 Loial said； 〃together or apart； it doesn't matter。 You are all three ta'veren。 Even I can see it； and I don't have that Talent； just by what happens around you。 And Moiraine Sedai says it； too。〃
Mat threw up his hands。 〃No more； Loial。 I don't want to hear about that anymore。〃
Loial shook his head。 〃Whether you hear it or not； it is still true。 The Wheel of Time weaves the Pattern of the Age； using the lives of men for thread。 And you three are ta'veren； centerpoints of the weaving。〃
〃No more； Loial。〃
〃For a time； the Wheel will bend the Pattern around you three； whatever you do。 And whatever you do is more likely to be chosen by the Wheel than by you。 Ta'veren pull history along behind them and shape the Pattern just by being； but the Wheel weaves ta'veren on a tighter line than other men。 Wherever you go and whatever you do； until the Wheel chooses otherwise you will … 〃
〃No more！〃 Mat shouted。 The men dicing looked around； and he glared at them until they bent back to their game。
〃I am sorry； Mat；〃 Loial rumbled。 〃I know I talk too much； but I did not mean …〃
〃I am not staying here；〃 Mat told the rafters； 〃with a bigmouthed Ogier and a fool whose head is too big for a hat。 You ing； Perrin？〃 Perrin sighed； and glanced at Rand； then nodded。
Rand watched them go with a stick caught in his threat。 I must go alone。 Light help me； I have to。
Loial was staring after them； too； eyebrows drooping worriedly。 〃Rand； I really didn't mean to … 〃
Rand made his voice harsh。 〃What are you waiting for？ Go on with them！ I don't see why you're still here。 You are no use to me if you don't know a way out。 Go on！ Go find your trees； and your precious groves； if they haven't all been cut down； and good riddance to them if they have。〃
Loial's eyes； as big as cups； looked surprised and hurt； at first； but slowly they tightened into what almost might be anger。 Rand did not think it could be。 Some of the old stories claimed Ogier were fierce； though they never said how； exactly； but Rand had never met anyone as gentle as Loial。
〃If you wish it so； Rand al'Thor；〃 Loial said stiffly。 He gave a rigid bow and stalked away after Mat and Perrin。
Rand slumped against the stacked sacks of grain。 Well； a voice in his head taunted； you did it； didn't you。 I had to； he told it。 I will be dangerous just to be around。 Blood and ashes； I'm going to go mad； and 。。。 No！ No； I won't！ I will not use the Power； and then I won't go mad； and 。。。 But I can't risk it。 I can't； don't you see？ But the voice only laughed at him。
The gamblers were looking at him； he realized。 All of them； still kneeling against the wall； had turned to stare at him。 Shienarans of any class were almost always polite and correct； even to blood enemies； and Ogier were ne
